✦ RAN GVILI IS HOME!! ✦ ✦ !! I AM A MINOR !! ✦ ✦ i bite ✦ audhd ✦ ✦ they/she/he/היא (+ fem nouns) ✦ pjo lover ✦ ✦ hate is not activism ✦ ✦ #2 jason grace defender (second to lilac) ✦ ✦ “inej fell, twisting in the air the way she had as a child, searching for her wings.” ✦ ✦ life is beautiful ✦ ✦ i <3 my AMAZING partner ✦
intro post?? idk, this feels kinda silly but… 🤷♀️
hi! you can call me star or australili* (they/he/she)
*p.s., australili is the name i put as the watermark on my edits
p.p.s., i sign my art with my irl initials (nas)
[pt: *p.s., australili is the name i put as the watermark on my edits
p.p.s., i sign my art with my irl initials (nas) /end pt]
most reblogs are queued, my queue is 10 posts a day (not always filled though) and set to 24 hrs—so no, i’m not awake at 4 in the morning every day, i promise 😭
i am a queer ethnic jew, and i am israeli american. no i don’t support displacing, hurting, or killing anyone. however i do support you shutting the fuck up if all you're gonna do is lie about me and my beliefs
not all of my posts on this blog have to do with israel, but being israeli is an intrinsic part of who i am. if you don’t like it, don’t interact. i’d just appreciate it if you’d hate me in silence and keep it off my blog. thanks <3
i am a proshipper. if your immediate reaction to that is thinking i’m horrible, i highly recommend taking a look at this. ship and let ship
this is my main blog! i have a few others, i’ll make like a master doc or smth at some point
socials masterlist
tag index
big post about my 3 different soc aus (+ it has the tags for all 3 of them, so you can click on those to see the rest of my posts about them)
more abt me below the cut :)
books i like: six of crows, shadow and bone, pjo, hoo, toa, mgca, kane chronicles
shows i like: stranger things, shadow and bone tv, hilda, toh, arcane, heated rivalry
movies i like: kpop demon hunters (2025), me and earl and the dying girl (2015), whip it (2009), the princess bride (1987), zodiac (2007), jojo rabbit (2019), the prince of egypt (1998)
music i like: the killers, florence + the machine, kate bush, ofra haza, le tigre, emei, lorde, katseye, nep, wolf alice, pj harvey, charli xcx, conan gray, dead kennedys, janani k jha, the crane wives, chappell roan, suki waterhouse
musicals i like: next to normal, hadestown, hamilton, epic the musical, heathers, rent, nerdy prudes must die, the lightning thief musical, six the musical
i connect with robin buckley, max mayfield, and nancy wheeler on a spiritual level. trust me when i say they're ALL me in another life
omniromantic, acespec, nonbinary, arospec (but happy taken 💜); very neurodivergent (adhd, ocd, generalized anxiety disorder, autism); super social; i like to read, write, draw, and hang out with my friends :)
last books i read: siege and storm, with the fire on high (school)
currently reading: ruin and rising
next books: diary of a young girl, things i've been silent about, king of scars
books i started reading a while ago but i put them down before i finished them: court of the dead, the virgin suicides, utopia
random facts abt me:
- i skipped 5th grade
- i loveeeee epidemiology!
- i’m currently making a fictional disease for a book that me and my friend are writing together
- i <3 pins!!
- i have a pink american flag with chappell roan on it + a french flag that has a stock image of a man working at a desk both hanging on my bedroom ceiling
- my stuffed animals take up (significantly) more space in my bed than me
- i’m 5 feet tall </3
- i’ve played 3000+ hours of the sims 4 and i have 200+ files in my ts4 mods folder
- i own a copy of almost every book rick riordan has ever written (including daughter of the deep) except for a few (less than 5, i believe)—i can’t seem to get my hands on camp jupiter classified but i’m working on it
- i play the flute!
- milk gives me the ick in every way
- lavenders are my favorite flowers but jasmine is my favorite scent
i have a very special place in my heart for my two long distance friends i first watched I Saw The TV Glow with at 5 in the morning after sneaking out of our rooms at a christian conference during pride month. some of the first people i half came out to, cried with, laughed with. i don’t talk to them often, but when i do, we pick up right where we left off immediately, and i laugh more every time. 10/10 friendships. i love my friends
"when i showed weakness i was less of a man than him" and "i said something deep and personal that i thought would get her off my back" and ribbit putting their bow on jax and then saying "your secret is safe with me" while jax is happy and blushy looking at the bow and the montage of jax scenes with isn't she lovely playing in the background WE WONNNNNNN WE SO FUCKING WON
Okay I don't know how to answer this because my biggest scar is actually inside my body. I had to have sinus surgery when I was four and while they do the same procedure today with lasers, in the dim dark days of 1992 it had to be done with metal rods.
So is this "my head" or "another part of my body"?
I feel as though what drives most rude / inconsiderate behavior I experience IRL on a day to day basis comes from a place of having this unearned and unnecessary sense of urgency in situations that aren't actually urgent. I think if more people became aware of this completely unnecessary sense of urgency in situations that actually aren't urgent, it might make co-existing and sharing public spaces with other people a lot easier and more tolerable.
That text post that's been making the rounds that goes something like "Omg you made it to the same red light as everyone else but faster and more dangerously and recklessly, should we call nascar? Do you want a medal?" summarizes exactly what I'm trying to talk about.
It's like when I have to change buses at one of the bigger and busier bus stops, and the people who get off the same bus as me shove and elbow past me to get off before me, and then shove and elbow past anyone even slightly in their way on the way to the bus they're switching to, only to end up on the same bus as all the people they shoved and elbowed, with several minutes to spare before it leaves and plenty of open seats left.
I think this unnecessary urgency a lot of people feel in their day to day lives drives a lot of bad behavior. I'm not saying I'm innocent of this (is anyone's?), I've felt it too in plenty of situations that didn't call for it, and regrettably was less kind than I should have been as a result. But I try to be aware of it, and always try to ask myself it it's really as urgent as my lizard brain is trying to tell me it is, and even if it was urgent, does that still justify unkind behavior?
Is shoving or elbowing another person aside going to make the difference between whether or not you make it to the bus before it pulls away? (hint: at least where I live, most of the time that's a no because the drivers usually won't leave if they see people from another bus heading towards their bus). Is shoving and elbowing people aside in a crowded grocery store going to make any real difference in how quickly you get your shopping done?
Does a few extra seconds of time actually justify cruel and unkind behavior towards people you perceive as slightly inconveniencing you?
- Waiting in line at the store and the person behind you creeps closer and closer to try to pressure you forward, and ends up violating your personal space and making you uncomfortable, because they think creeping closer and pressuring the person in line in front of them will somehow get them through the line faster (it won't)
- Going through a self-serve buffet, and the person behind you keeps creeping closer and closer to try to pressure you to serve your food faster and get a move on. All it achieves is that you can't scoop your soup without elbowing them, and that's somehow your fault
- Crossing a crosswalk when the car waiting for you to cross creeps closer and closer to you to try to intimidate you into crossing faster (because using a 2 ton metal machine to try to intimidate a fleshy little ape you could easily kill with said 2 ton metal machine isn't acting like a bully at all no sir-ee)
- Honestly a huge heap of the poor treatment of service workers is also rooted in this sense of urgency in things that are not actually urgent
Please do feel free to add more examples if you can think of more examples
This in every every *every* conversation Pixie have with people not in family . everybody in too much hurry to give any time or patience to Pixie using AAC device to communicate . Literally almost every person try to push Pixie to communicate faster and all that does is make Pixie silent and voiceless . So much hurrying for no good reason .
I run a panel at anime conventions about how to make your panels more accessible to disabled people, and one year I had an attendee with a severe stutter who wanted to make a comment. It was relatively short, but of course, because of his speech impediment it became much longer.
He actually cried a little after the panel and told me he couldn't remember the last time someone held an entire room in silence until he was done and didn't make him feel like he had to try to hurry up.
I told him nothing I had to say was more important than showing I was serious about holding space for disabled people and letting them speak for themselves.
He told me he's been in other "accessible" places where that isn't true.
Even the people who should know enough to slow down and have patience aren't able to do it.
Jax might be the most popular trans woman in media. Shes a main character (alongside pomni) in one of the most successful indie series of all time, and she is repeatedly shown struggling with dysphoria and internalized misogyny/transphobia. and nobody had any problems with that until they put a bow on her and said it outright in the finale.
Why do you think her being trans wasn't confirmed until the finale? coincidentally why did so many prior TADC fans seemingly jump ship as soon as episode 9 came out? (they have the same answer!)
Jax's story is about a trans girl who hates herself and is suffering because of transphobia. Her struggles are deeply personal and brutally realistic to what it means to be trans, so of course she connected with millions of struggling trans people. But she could never have had this impact if people knew she was trans in episode one.
Jax became one of the most famous instances of trans representation because she benefited from people treating her as cis and giving her attention accordingly.
so of course they would be mad and hate the finale, it told them that the entirety of the show they had been watching a trans girl, promoting her message that trans people are struggling, and that we should be supported.
But people weren't ready to admit that they had seen themselves in her, they had accidentally sympathized with the people they demonized, they had seen her struggles as one of their own and promoted her. But "hes trans?? he cant be!" and "the series was bad anyway" is their response to creating and elevating a message that will teach so many trans woman that they aren't alone, and that they can heal.
I saw the TADC Finale over the weekend, and had feelings about one part of it! Both this show (the finale especially) and the movie I Saw The TV Glow have hit me hard as a trans person, and I wanted to combine the two! (Pair with "Isn't She Lovely" if you'd wanna cry Imao)
Made in procreate by photobashing with official images from the show/movie, and digital art made by me!
