Kill Me, because you know you want to write how that happened.
“Why do we kill people who are killing people to show that killing people is wrong?”
Sharp gray hues were set upon the red-haired whom stood before him, taking in his form with lips tightly upon one another. He was one of the brothers, there was no doubt about that. And the one of the Heavenly Arch would not admit it aloud, but he looked calmer then he felt… This was the final line. If the other made it past him, they would have access to Elwing and the two boys he had seen grow. No, he could not allow such a thing to happen. It stopped here, even if it would take his life.
“I feel no need to tell, in all honesty.” commented Egalmoth simply, sounding more steady then he felt. “Turn away now, I will not let you pass. You will have to take my life if you wish so…”
There was a silence that rang, a silence in which the red-head turned his head for a second to look at the few Noldor whom had made it here with him.
For a second, Egalmoth prayed it wouldn’t be so. That the other would turn away instead of putting his life on the line. But alas, his prayers went unheard as the red-head turned back to him and readied his sword.
No… No this was wrong. He did not wish to fight those of his own kind. He did not wish to look upon them as an enemy. And most of all, he wished not to kill. Yet there were those behind him. Mere elflings, then Elwing, wife to Eärendil.
He could not see them caught and perhaps even killed…
Metal clashed against metal and the two danced the dance of the swords, swirling around one another and avoiding being cut. They kept a steady gaze upon each other, making sure not to falter. If all, he could have pretended it was merely a spar. An intense spar. And there was a part of him that screamed that he wished it so. In another life, the two of them might have been friends, challenging one another to their skill with the sword.
In this life, they were not.
And soon, even Egalmoth had to start realizing that the battle fought was not a mere spar and he could fool himself no longer, when he received the first wound upon his face. It was then, lithe and swift as the red-haired proved to be that Egalmoth turned more serious within the battle.
And though the battle was not long for the on-watching, for Egalmoth it seemed to be hours upon hours. He did not tire quickly, but felt a weight falling upon his heart. Soon, more Noldor would come… And he could not guarantee the protection of those behind him if this dragged on… And he could not guarantee the safety of the one he fought with either.
It was then that the Lord from the House of the Heavenly Arch moved forward with grace, his attacks turning stronger with each slash made. Their blades clashing with more ferocity, his eyes darkening as he pushed back the red-haired one.
Though Egalmoth was not without wounds, he no longer stood on defense only. The sword within his hand slashed and drank the blood of the son of Fëanor this day, earning pained cries from the one he fought with.
Already, Egalmoth knew he could not live with himself were he to survive this…
There was a faint noise that reached his ears, the wailing of a child. Elrond? Elros? Worry flitted across his face for a second, head turned. A mistake.
He met the ground after managing to move aside from the oncoming sword, glancing up. Their eyes locked for but a split second before he reacted.
He could hardly recall what happened, how it happened.All he knew was that the red-head was pinned to the wall, and his sword was dug deep into the body of the red-haired Noldo. Time seemed to freeze, and a look of horror came upon his features as he heard the other give a weak cough, blood soon trickling down his chin. It only confirmed to him that his blade had struck true.
His mind shrieked at him, clawed at his hair, wailed out.
But he stood rigid to the spot, frozen in time, heart drumming rapidly beneath his chest.
And only when the light within the other’s eyes started to dim, his last sight being the shocked face of his killer, did he finally snap out of it. The other’s head rested upon his shoulder, where the blood started to drip upon his clothing. The hair, he found, was quite soft and perhaps not as red as he first had thought it to be… And finally then did it click deep within him and he realized that none of this was a bad dream. Egalmoth wished he could have killed himself on the spot he stood at. He had murdered another of his kind.
Taking a trembling step back, he finally held onto the ellon and removed his sword with a shaky hand. His other arm wrapped securely around the ellon’s waist, though he knew him to be dead, he could not just drop him on the ground…
He was barely aware of the cries that resounded behind him, the cries of the Noldor that had been with the red-haired.
No. He wished to scream. No I had not wanted this. This is not what I wanted.
Even so far went he, that he prayed to Eru himself to undo his deed.
But such a thing would not be so.
And the son of Fëanor was not the only blood spilled that day…For those with the red-head cried for revenge for the young son. And Egalmoth’s heart cracked more with each wound he caused upon the Noldor that opposed him.
Though it shattered to pieces the moment he heard someone cry out the name ‘Ambarussas’, and he was met by a red-haired ellon. No doubt, it was Maedhros. Oldest of the line of Fëanor… And his eyes wandered down to the ellon he had rested carefully against the wall.
Eyes were lifted and settled upon Maedhros. He would defend, yet no longer would he harm.. He could not…
He prayed the other would release him of the guilt that wrecked his heart.