My own yell into the digital void

hi. I'm a minor. he/they I like hazbin hotel, amphibia, undertale, and deltarune

[quillspinestuffs]

💭💭💭Internalized homophobia Lace 💭💭💭💭💭💭💭💭 I have thought about this for like. days. Messy ramble incoming

Would GMS gaf if her children were queer? Probably.... (looks over at Phantom.. but I think them being queer is only one part of their exile) umm my Friend (hello coil thing) said that lace would bully lesbians in school and regrets it so badly. Ohh lace. Anyways a lot of the stuff here is from discussions with that friend

Lace is very cruel to herself. Shocker. I think in every situation, she has one of those paper spin the wheel things in her brain and there are only two sections to it: 'ATTEMPT TO BRING HARM TO OTHERS' and 'BRING HARM TO HERSELF'. Ummm Lace making backhanded comments to her own sibling because of this hatred. Phantom always tells her something like "That's not nice. You know that. Quit it" 😁😁 Lace. Doesn't listen... and she is still Afraid

Lace on a Good Day: my mother has been dead for a while and I don't. Need her. There's really no reason why I can't have normal relationships and a decent life

Lace on a Bad Day (a lot): I'm such a Freak and I'm disgusting I will go to hell when I die. Why couldn't Phantom just be 'normal' Maybe then we could've had a different story and I wouldn't have been alone for so long. I'm so awful for even thinking like that in the first place. I know better. IM STILL SUCH A CHILD!!!! IM GOING TO HELL !!!!!!!!!!!

She's been alone for so long and sometimes (a lot) she thinks about being held by another. She gets so sick of silence and she also gets sick of her own voice. So she goes to the underworks and there's the loud and grating saws, she goes to the deep docks and watches the mindless workers shovel flint. She goes to the blasted steps to hear the wind and to see the hungry little pests in the sand. She is meant to keep everything quiet but I think that she takes a moment to observe the lucky pilgrims before silencing them. They talk a lot. They hug. They hold each other. Sometimes they kiss. Lace wants that so very badly. There must be no one willing to hold her. She wants Love she wants to be loved (again) she's so desperate for it that she'll accept love that isn't from her mother.

Sometimes Lace even wants to be kissed!!! She craves warmth, and it disgusts her so. She isolates herself because there wouldn't be a chance that anyone could stand her for more than a minute. The only person that did... well. 😁. she's so lowly. Watching them do their mortal things just keeps giving her reminders that she's not a real bug. She's not real and nobody wants her!! Not even her mother!! And the only one that loved her is now gone!! And maybe they don't even want to see her!! There's something wrong with her!! She's supposed to be Above this

💭Lace laying in her perfect bed of pure white roses and she thinks of the color red and thinks of that needle and that wretched pest and her stomach churns. Everything feels Warm. So warm. Everything is So Warm. It must be hatred because anything else would be unacceptable and disgusting and deranged. NO IM NOT A LESBIAN!! WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN? WHAT? IM NOT LIKE THAT WHY WOULD YOU EVER JOKE ABOUT THAT!!!

[coil-thing]

okkkk brooo fiiinee i GUEEEESSSSS i WRITE about INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA LACE TOOOOOOO….

teases you with my Read More

I think Lace and Phantom are not a perfect pair of siblings at all. (They already failed to be the perfect daughters, the perfect family, this isn’t new news.) I see the problems stemming from Lace the most, but Phantom has their own faults too. Harsh, degrading, passive-aggressive remarks and unsettled arguments “solved” with storming off in silence. They learned it from None-Other-Than-Her. Her belittling insults treated like lectures and advice, wordless reweaving before turning her back towards them an act of superiority in a disagreement, immaturity and absence taught the same as maturity and presence. Of course the both of them know she was wrong when she did this, but neither of them even know they do it.

Phantom is the “more queer” child. A gender-non-conforming child. Whether orientation is a thing they wear with pride is subjective but I imagine it to be so. An inky complexion, ghostly tattered dress, and a pale mask—a clear distinction from their sister’s pearl silk, puffed sleeves and bloomers, and an unilluminable face. They’re not the opposite of a daughter and not exactly the lack of a daughter either, rather they the metamorphosis of a daughter who no longer wanted to be grown into a mold for their parent’s decorative collection of milestones and therefore rid themself of any resemblance of Her.

Their time was before Lace’s and their self-discovery was much shorter (at least to me) and it would be very clear in the way Lace talks to them. Talks to them normally, talks to them angrily.

“I wouldn’t imagine she would be all too pleased to raise a daughter like you.”

Phantom would snap. “She never raised me. She put me into a world in which I could not be seen unless I conformed to every thread in my body. You are aware and yet you choose to stand in the shadow of a murderer and a fraud.”

“This is why I cannot stand you, Lace. This is why I treat you like a child. Because you are a coward, still a pawn to the operation that created us. And when you throw these hissy fits and blame them onto me, you look just like—!”

And when Phantom refuses to say her name, they turn their back on their sister and leave.

Phantom will always be a daughter of Grandmother Silk. They will always be her daughter no matter how much they modify themself. They will never love no other than their mother. Lace tells herself that knowing, just below the surface, she’s thinking about herself. She feels the masterful weaving within her tighten into knots when she has to confront herself with reality. We are not the daughters of Pharloom’s former matriarch. We are siblings of silk, Phantom and Lace. Lace and Phantom. For she does not exist anymore.

Eventually, the two find each other at the Citadel. Both are caked in the gore of other bugs. They sit silently until one cannot bear it anymore and embraces the other so tight that her or their body is misshapen with the fist of her or their hand.

Im such a larp bro i dont even play hk or ss i just listen to quillspine talk and then i make the silkslop doll kiss the mommy issues doll

[quillspinestuffs]

😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁 I just got so excited reading this I started prancing and skipping around my room Ok. Ok. Ok ok. Ok. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[goth-queen]

[princecroutons]

does croutons know how to count to 4

his mind is unburdened by the concept of basically everything

[homunculus-argument]

Squatters' rights apply to grandmas. If someone's not visiting and looking after their grandma, but you will, after a set amount of time once you've settled in, that's your grandma now.

[caezavio]

[i-will-help-you-swim]

Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I’m trying to prove something.

[cmoon-rabbit4-blog]

Reblog if your blog is a safe place for asexuals.

[maedaeeee]

hi i am asexual and i approve this message

[artemisiamasterofnone]

Hi I am the asexual

[obsessivebookwormalert]

hi, asexual

[nug-offical-deactiv]

hello all asexuals!!!

[trans-sans-offical]

I’m arospec, you’re all safe here :D

[mopni905]

I’m aromantic and I have ace packmates and headmates and it’s totally valid •^-^•

[dooblebugss]

Im obviously biased but I was thinking today of like, how genuinely impressive it was for a Single Game to crash steam that badly. And not just steam, but almost every storefront.

[veliseraptor]

the weird schrödinger's emotion that is "that character death was narratively satisfying and emotionally impactful and ultimately the best way to handle their character arc" simultaneously with "noooo but I wanted them to live :( :( :("

[pisshandkerchief]

there are corners of this website where the year is still 2013. and sometimes, on beautiful nights when the veil is thin, you can find them . if you know where to look

[what-even-is-thiss]

So apparently the Mac and cheese you can manufacture in your settlements in fallout 4 has no radiation and heals just as much as purified water for a fifth of the carry weight so anyways I’ve set up a pasta farm so I can run through the wasteland crunching down on uncooked Mac and cheese so fast that nothing can kill me

[what-even-is-thiss]

Yeah if you have the wasteland workshop dlc installed go to power and manufacturing in the build menu and there’s a machine that lets you make food. If you connect a terminal to it then it’ll tell you what components you need to put in the machine.

[lactating-deactivated20220703]

“make friends” who am i doctor franking stein

[misericorrinee]

ok so like… silksong modern au but theres Still Fucked Up Magic Shit and hornet’s a doordash employee.

idk man

also btw the medical supply prices were so high when sherma went shopping for them he lowkey decided that stealing from whiteward was the best option(its the balm for the wounded quest)

also the wailing mother quest is Still Here someone lowkey ordered broodmother’s eye and hornet, as a Broke Person, does it.

the caretaker is the landlord. jubilana, sherma, trobbio and second sentinel are his tenants

the caretaker and co(+ hornet) still cause the apocalypse idk how tho

[mkaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy]

Grace never got to see any of his kids again. One day he was just another teacher. The next he was a leading scientist working on saving all those kids (and the rest of the planet.) Many years (and one coma) later, the kids he had in that class room last are grown and Grace is not intended to ever come home. (He'll make peace on Erid, teaching Eridian children. But there is a whole class of kids frozen in his memory, who he never did get to finish teaching. Who all think he is dead.)

[tdogkisses]

i’m gonna forcibly masculinize everyone who reblogs this.

[my-dailydreams]

[foeofcolor]

Only day you can rb this

[foeofcolor]

This post is like a fucking rosetta stone I've had the same theme song tagged in at least 6 languages so far

[tim-official]

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