[...]⠀⠀┄ ⠀ you’re confined in a mental institution after a failed attempt to kill wilson fisk, surviving only because he chose to keep you alive—broken, monitored, and contained instead of erased. you live under surveillance, with limited freedom but enough access to the outside world to keep your obsession with control and revenge intact. the arrival of benjamin poindexter becomes the first real disruption in years, igniting anticipation and fixation. in your mind, he quickly shifts from a stranger to something inevitable—someone the world is positioning as yours.
❝ including ⠀! ⠀benjamin poindexter. ◟ warnings ⠀! ⠀part 1 of series, fem reader, reader is mentally unstable, reader have sychotic symptoms, narcissistic personality traits, obsessive compulsive personality traits, severe attachment disturbance, complex trauma, sadistic tendencies, paranoia, emotional instability / splitting. — yandere characters, toxic behaviors, masterlist, english is not my first language 𖹭⠀⠀❞⠀
He's coming today.
The sentence doesn’t stay in your head like language. It behaves more like a living thing that has found a place to nest behind your eyes. It pulses there, soft and insistent, like something warm that learned how to survive by syncing itself to your heartbeat.
You were excited. Happy even.
Those emotions don’t arrive cleanly. They arrive like something being injected too fast into the bloodstream—too much, too sharp, spreading through you in uneven waves. Your chest feels briefly overfilled, like your ribs were never meant to hold anything that blooms this quickly. It presses outward from the inside, testing the limits of your shape.
You can't wait to meet him. To actually talk to him.
The thought does something wrong to your insides. Not metaphorically—physically. Like your organs rearrange slightly to make space for anticipation. Like your stomach shifts higher, your lungs forget their rhythm, your throat tightens around words you haven’t spoken yet but already feel lodged there.
It's the best day you've had since you were imprisoned in this fucking mental institution.
The word institution doesn’t feel like a place anymore. It feels like something grafted onto you. A second anatomy layered over your own. Corridors like veins. Locked doors like scar tissue. White walls like bone that never finished forming. You don’t live inside it. You are partially made of it now.
You're not even crazy, for crying out loud.
The thought tries to stand upright in you, but it keeps collapsing at the joints. It repeats itself like a reflex misfiring in muscle memory. Like a mouth still moving after the brain has stopped authorizing speech. It doesn’t reassure you. It just echoes, hollow and repetitive, like something trapped inside a skull it can’t escape.
Jesus fucking Christ.
But that's what you get when you try to murder Fisk.
That memory doesn’t behave like a memory. It behaves like a foreign object still lodged inside you. Something jagged and metallic that your body never fully expelled. When you think about it, your system reacts as if it’s happening again—blood pressure shifting, breath tightening, vision narrowing at the edges like the world is trying to close over you.
Impact. Weight. Force. Then nothing clean after that. Just broken continuity. Just the sensation of being rearranged without consent.
At least he didn’t crush your skull like some discarded thing. He could have. Easily.
Instead, he beat you half to death and left you with enough breath to regret it properly.
You were in bed like a corpse for months. Five months, drifting in and out of pain and silence and whatever passed for care in a place like this.
Fuck, you still can feel the tingling burn in your feet. He also loosened one of your teeth; it hurts every time you try to chew.
But of course he wanted you to live. He didn't actually want to kill you.
It probably was just his mixed feelings because of your betrayal.
Can you really blame him?
Hell yeah, you can!
Who the fuck does he even think he is???
That bastard has the audacity to put you in this shithole but not the balls to put a bullet between your eyes.
Fucking cunt.
Though you're glad he still has some twisted feelings toward you. Whether he sees you as his daughter or some kind of pet he owns doesn't matter.
What's important is that you're still breathing and can move.
He was also generous enough to put some of his best men in this hell with you. Probably because he doesn't want you to escape, but it doesn't matter.
What matters is that they give you anything you ask for.
One of them is your eyes.
Without them, the world collapses into something raw and unparsed. Not darkness exactly—worse. Uninterpreted reality. Shapes without meaning. Motion without permission to become anything understandable. A sensory field with no translation layer between you and existence.
That dependency has grown roots inside you. Something feeding off you and also sustaining you at the same time.
That's what made you tolerate these years.
And today he's coming.
Have you ever felt anything like that before?
You don't exactly remember. You never thought about men that way. Never gave enough of a fuck.
Except for Matt fucking Murdock.
With his gentle voice and gentler eyes, and his perfume, and how he laughs and—and—
The motherfucking reason you're trapped in this nightmare.
He knew what he was doing. He had to know.
Nobody smiles like that unless they're trying to crawl under your skin.
He did that to make you fall in love with him. Wanted you to let your guard down. To be vulnerable with him.
Before that you were perfect... You were... per—
No! You're still perfect. A little bit messy, but you're perfect. Yeah, yeah, yeah, of course.
You just need... need...
What do you even need????
You're great! Everything's great!
But Matt...
Bastard. Bastard. Bastard. Bastard.
You're going to rip him open from his dick to his mouth and play with his insides and eat his heart while it's still pumping blood.
Yeah, that's what you're going to do.
To all of them.
You will give them the most painful death you can imagine.
You're going to be satisfied and safe then.
They think you're stupid. They think you don't know they were all in it together.
Fisk, Matt, and that whore Elektra.
That was their plan all along.
They wanted to trap you here, and now they have.
Fuck, every time you think about it, you want to rip your hair from roots.
How could you be so stupid to fall for that bitch's trap?
But she was touching him... laughing with him...
HAHAHAHA!!!
That bitch thought she was sneaky.
With her little smirks and perfect teeth.
Look who's laughing now!
And she don't even have a fucking jaw anymore!
It's funny, isn't it...?
But Matt didn't find it funny...
He got quiet...
He got sad...
He got mad...
Why would he get mad at you...?
You saved him, right?
You saved him from that bitch.
She wasn't good for him.
She wanted to rot him from the inside.
She was a bad influence.
Yeah, she sure was working for Fisk.
You're sure of it.
Even Matt was working for Fisk.
That's how they made the perfect plan and trapped you here.
The Elektra that you killed that day probably wasn't even the real deal anyway.
That's why you see her in the mental institution sometimes, walking around.
She looks fine.
She's okay.
But she doesn't even look at you.
Bitch still thinks she's hot shit.
Yeah, she was so good that you chopped her head off in the first fight.
What a joke.
And here she is, still pretending she's better than you.
As if.
At least you have some friends here.
There's a young nurse who's obsessed with astrology and purple things for some reason.
She's always filming and does a lot of stupid things you don't understand.
At first you didn't like her, but she was genuinely nice to you.
She's not that strict, so you can get away with not taking the meds, and she also gives you a lot of different desserts from outside.
Her name is Lily.
You like her.
She's cute.
You like her company.
She also taught you how to put makeup on.
She's great at doing it.
You saw her doing it sometimes, and you always watched eagerly.
You always wanted to put makeup on, but you didn't know how, and the first time you tried, you looked like a clown and everyone made fun of you, so you never tried again.
And so you tried to tell her—without telling her—that she should put some makeup on you too.
And she was so happy to do so.
She was more excited than you were.
And when she finished, she gave you a lot of praise for looking pretty...
She's the first person to call you pretty.
It actually made you feel warm.
It was like your stomach was twisting.
And your cheeks felt so hot.
It was embarrassing.
But she didn't care.
She just kept going.
She also gave you a haircut.
Before this shithole, you were always bald, always shaving your head and eyebrows completely.
But now they've grown out, and thanks to Lily, you always have your hair and eyebrows done.
And she taught you how to do makeup.
You still can't do the contouring, but it's alright.
Even though you like her, she's still not perfect.
She has so many flaws.
She chews loudly.
She talks a lot.
She's too dumb.
And the worst part is that she always puts the red books beside the blue books.
It's not how you should fucking do it.
It gets under your skin.
As if someone's jumping around in your brain meat.
That always gets under your skin.
You even pushed her to the side once and explained it like you were talking to a five-year-old.
First is blue, then green, then yellow, then orange, and then red.
Maybe you were a little harsh because she avoided you for a week afterward.
But it's her own fault for being fucking stupid.
You were just trying to teach her how to do it.
She teach you about makeup, and you teach her organization and discipline.
Fair, right?
Yeah.
That's how the world works.
The same world that's giving you Benjamin Poindexter.
After everything you went through, the world finally decided it's time for your reward.
It's destiny.
Of course it is.
Otherwise, is there even a chance that Fisk manipulates an FBI agent to replace you, and then he goes crazy and loses it just like you?
See?
See the similarities??
See that????
He was made for you.
You were made for each other.
You can be good friends.
You can escape together.
And then find Fisk.
You will rip Fisk's spine out and then give it to Benjamin.
It'll sure make him happy.
But Matt wasn't happy when you gave him Elektra's head...
No...
Benjamin is different...
He's not a bad person...
He went through a lot, just like you...
He understands you, right...?
What a dumb question.
Of fucking course he does.
That's why he's coming.
“You seem excited.”
“I am!”
You say it quickly, smiling at Lily while she works on your hair.
“Is he your boyfriend?”
Boyfriend?
“No.”
“Your friend, then?”
“No.”
That makes her pause.
“Do you even know him?”
“Of course I do. What kind of stupid question is that?”
She pulls back slightly.
A flicker of something—fear, maybe.
“Sorry,” she says quickly.
Then—
A sharp pain.
You flinch and shove her hand away immediately, standing up.
“What the fuck are you doing?”
Her hands are shaking. She won’t meet your eyes. She presses herself back against the wall like she needs distance just to breathe.
“I’m… I’m sorry.”
Why is she looking at you like that?
Why is she acting like—
Oh.
Oh.
You step forward and grab her hands, suddenly gentle, holding them like nothing is wrong.
“You’re okay,” you say softly. “You’re still my best friend. You don’t need to be jealous. You’re important to me. I’ll always protect you.”
You smile.
She looks frozen.
Ah, stupid Lily.
Stupid little girl.
She thinks you're going to abandon her because of Benjamin.
batboys x fem!reader : kissing them while they're sleep...
DICK GRAYSON
He’s sprawled across your bed like he fell straight out of a mission and into a dream. One arm slung over his eyes, hair messy, chest rising slow under the blanket.
You lean in, just to brush your lips against his — a whisper of a kiss.
He stirs immediately. Of course he does. The man’s trained to wake at a pin drop, but this time… he doesn’t open his eyes.
A smile curls on his mouth instead, lazy and full of warmth.
“Mm,” he hums, voice rough with sleep, “was that real or am I dreamin’?”
You freeze, whisper something about him going back to sleep.
He hums again, turns toward you, wrapping an arm around your waist and pulling you against his chest.
“Then keep dreamin’ with me,” he mumbles, already slipping under again, lips brushing your hair like muscle memory.
JASON TODD
He sleeps heavy — the kind of exhausted that only comes from carrying too much.
There’s a gun on the nightstand, a scar by his mouth, and a softness in his face that only shows when the world’s finally quiet.
You lean down, heart pounding, and press a kiss to his lips — gentle, almost scared.
He tenses. For a second, his hand twitches toward the weapon, but when his eyes flutter open and he sees it’s you, everything melts.
“...What was that for?” he asks, voice gravel low, still half-asleep.
You shrug, whisper, “You looked peaceful.”
He chuckles, quiet and broken around the edges. “You’re dangerous, y’know that?”
He drags you down into his chest, rough fingers sliding through your hair.
Next breath, he’s out again — heartbeat steady under your cheek, hand still holding you like he’s afraid you’ll disappear if he lets go.
TIM DRAKE
He’s asleep at his desk. Again. Head resting on folded arms, surrounded by cold coffee cups and open files.
You sigh, move closer, brushing hair from his forehead. His lashes flutter, his lips parted just slightly. He looks so young like this — unguarded, human.
You lean down, kiss him softly. Just one small press of lips — fleeting, tender.
He stirs. Blinks once, confused.
“...Wh—?”
“Go back to sleep,” you whisper.
He blinks again, eyes finding yours, unfocused and hazy. A sleepy smile ghosts across his face.
“You kissed me?”
You nod.
He sighs, a quiet, drowsy laugh slipping out. “Finally,” he murmurs before his head drops back down, out cold again — like he’s been waiting for that for weeks.
DAMIAN WAYNE
He’s not a deep sleeper — raised by assassins, after all — but tonight he’s still. Titus is at his feet. His hand’s resting loosely on the hilt of a blade by the pillow.
You hesitate. He looks so peaceful it feels almost cruel to wake him.
But you can’t help it. You lean in and brush your lips against his.
He stirs instantly, his eyes flashing open.
“Who—” he starts, then stops when he sees you.
You whisper, “Sorry. You were sleeping.”
He blinks. Processing. The tension in his shoulders eases.
“…That was unwise,” he mutters, voice low, but his ears are bright red.
You smile. “You didn’t push me away.”
He huffs quietly, looking away. “You caught me off guard.”
Later, when he thinks you’re asleep, he leans closer — and presses the softest kiss to your temple.