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Map of Native American etymologies for “horse”. There were no horses in the Americas before the colonists arrived. Native Americans quickly developed new words for this strange animal, often associating them with dogs, their one other domestic animal before contact with Europe.
requested by @samuelofstrahd. Thank you for requesting this! Autistic Lars (as well as CPTSD Lars) is so dear to me. Also, I made some of these way sadder than I meant to? Sorry guys. Lars is just such an angsty character.
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Lars who feels things so strongly. Sadness, anger, happiness: all of them are a bubbling brew, with all the "heat" (his experiences) making them overflow from the pot. Sometimes he just shakes in place or very loosely fidgets because it's so overwhelming (think of him in the dancing scene where he had his arms tucked to himself. stuff like that).
Lars who cries a lot. He can't help it, everything just gets to be too much and a few tears will stray down his cheeks. It's always in private—he never does it in front of anyone else because that's too "weird". Karin still notices and comforts him as best she can.
Lars who can mostly read social cues. This is more of a trauma response than anything, but he's subconsciously trained himself to know other people's moods. That doesn't mean he really knows what to do about those moods, but he knows that they feel them. His analysis works about 85% of the time.
Lars who stims in different ways (get ready for multiple bulletpoints of this). When he's at the lake, he traces the water ripples with his eyes, counting the amount there are each time he gently tosses a pebble in. He tries to see how many he can get as a highscore for the day. This goes along with his heavy blinking.
Lars who loves the sensory of layered clothing. There is the safety aspect of it (no one can touch him), but it's also a sort of weight that grounds him. When he was younger, he used to hide under his bed because it brought the same grounded feeling up.
Additionally: Lars who hates the sensory of layered clothing. When he has meltdowns/panic attacks, he immediately starts stripping all his shirts and sweaters. They don't feel comforting anymore, they feel suffocating.
Lars who drinks things with a straw. Don't ask him why, it's just superior (he likes the feel of the straw as well as the subtle facial stim (pursing his lips)).
Lars who is tactile with inanimate objects. He loves knitting and the sensation of the yarn under his fingers. Sometimes he'll do it for so long they turn red and he has to stop. Also this is my petition to give Lars legos, he'd fucking love them.
Lars who is very neat. Everything has a place, and if you move those things it feels innately wrong. It's also about a sense of control, what he says goes. I imagine that early in their friendship, Karin cleaned up the garage after she saw some things were "strewn about" (they were in their places. their places just so happened to be on random countertops). Lars ended up having a meltdown when he came home. She never did it again.
Along with that: Lars who hates change. Existing is already a hard endeavor most days, so adding something unexpected to it feels like Hell, especially if it has to do with other people. No surprises please (radiohead..?)
Lars who does parallel play, especially with the older ladies. He has to get used to it at first (he's used to people expecting him to talk when in their presence), but once he does, he finds it comforting. He didn't know you could quietly exist with someone in the same space and not be punished for it.
Lars who is lonely. He watches other people in their groups and feels like an outsider. He wonders what it feels like to be connected with someone like that. He gets his wish after the events of the movie take place :)).
Lars who has meltdowns. When he's overwhelmed, he snaps at people and yells. He waves his hands a lot and rocks back and forth as well in an effort to regulate.
And Lars who, when really overwhelmed, shuts down completely. It takes days for him to recover. He wears his mother's blanket around his shoulder in those moments, sipping warm drinks.
psst tell me what you think. do you agree? disagree? i want to know! i've only watched the movie once, so pardon if there's any ooc moments or inconsistencies.
as always, feel free to use for fics/art, just credit me ;p
what I listened to while writing: ゆめうつつ
plus heavier angst headcanons under the cut (tw: forced masking & child abuse by Lars' father)
To expand on Lars struggles with eye contact, imagine Lars who has his mother's eyes. As a child, his father wanted Lars to be normal, so he'd grab his face and tell him to look at him. He'd then see Lars' eyes and immediately push him away. The back and forth is just an another instability in Lars' life. It doesn't get better even when his relationships with others have changed.
Lars who was forced to have his hair shaved. Sometimes it would bother him and, if he was already feeling bad, he'd go into a meltdown. His father got tired of it and just shaved it all off. Lars never wants that to happen again. That's possibly part of the reason why he grows facial hair.
My dad was a public defender when I was a child and he would have to drive all over the district to visit various defendants in various jails which I thought was very interesting and I liked to hear about his experiences in various jails and how different they all were. He drove me to school every day and sometimes I’d skip in and tell my classmates “My dad is going to the jail in [TOWN/CITY] today!” mind you, I went to public school in a not very nice little town so my teacher’s first thought wasn’t lawyer, she had other students with incarcerated parents. This was also occurring in the south where everyone is nosy as fuck so she eventually called my mother, presumably to scope out why her husband was a jail bird and if the chargers were relevant to me and my education in any way. My mom had to explain that my dad wasn’t an inmate who kept getting transferred and that going to jail is his job.
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women are like diamonds: synthetically-produced women are not meaningfully different from naturally-formed women, and anyone trying to tell you otherwise is probably trying to justify keeping their women mines open
