Saeva Indignatio

30's. Former elvish wine mom, current weird whiskey bitch. Perpetually angry. Tired but not going to go quietly.

[dreamspacewanderer]

At the end of the day, who really are you if everything you know about yourself stems from the life of a person you're pretending to live as?

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My name is Muto Yugi.

I like games. I like my friends. I like burgers. I have a grandpa at home who loves me.

My name is Muto Yugi.

I go to school everyday with my friends. I wake up at 5AM so I have time to do my hair.

My name is Muto Yugi.

I meet them everyday. We play games together.

My name is Yugi Muto.

I don't like the taste of burgers. I don't like eating.

My name is Yugi Muto.

I wake up at 1AM everyday. I sneak out through the window. There is this guard in my home that I don't know.

My name is Yugi Muto.

He grabs my arms and keeps me trapped in my home. He claims he's "worried" and that "I'm injured" but HES LYING!! HE WANTS TO TRAP ME INSIDE!!

My name is Yugi Muto.

The guard is wrinkled and says my name like he knows me. He's lying. It's a trick.

My name is Yugi.

My friends look at me funny. I don't like looking at them.

My name is Yugi?

I don't brush my hair. I don't wash my face. I don't go to school. Everyone is WATCHING ME at school. I don't know ANYONE AT SCHOOL.

My name is Yugi?

WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP SAYING I'M ACTING DIFFERENTLY??!! I'M NORMAL!!

MY NAME IS YUGI??

I don't know what school is I don't know who you are stop looking at me STOP LOOKING AT ME ST-

MY NAME IS-

I seem to fall asleep for days at a time I'm dressed my face is washed my hair is brushed I'm fed. It is my captive doing it. They're forcing me here. They're keeping me here against my will. I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape I have to escape-

I DON'T THINK MY NAY NAME IS YUGI.

I don't recogniz recognise--I don't think I'm me wh--

Move eec each limb--the reflection isn't me

I don't know who I a--y myself. Please someon-

I DON'T THINK MY NAME IS YUGI

THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THAT'S NOT ME THA-

Sometimes when I wake up I'm a new version of me I haven't met and I don't remember where I am and I think. Like. I belonged somewhere far far away and got trapped here as a form of c o s m i c p u n i s h m e n t. Like. A sinner taken to the slaughter. And I stop sleeping and suddenly I realise these people I call my family are people I don't know OR love. But that's cruel right. And I wake up not remembering days. Weeks at a time. And suddenly the house I thought was mine feels like a prison and when I look in the mirror my face it changes every time and I feel sick and have to look away because that's not me.

And I begin fearing that I don't recognise myself in any of my memories and I dont recognise the friends the me I see in my memories fought so hard to get and I realise that I REPLACED HIM. I AM THE REPLACEMENT. And so I try to gamble my life away and I fill "my" body with meds and caffeine and I pity the "ME" I replaced so much that I run around and s l a u g h t e r everyone who ever hurt him because he deserves to rest in peace. Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually dead and this is my afterlife but haha.

That has to be a lie right. Right. Please. Tell me I'm right. Who the fuck am I now? Him? M-

Why can't anyone just give me an answer.

To who I am. To why I am.

It's dark.

I'm scared.

My name isnt Muto Yugi.

But if that's not me..

Then who am I?

[versus-verses]

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[recurring-polynya]

me (crazy eyes, covered in blood): I NEED to finish writing my fanfic. so I can start writing a different fanfic.

[lunaticdoodles]

Yugioh/Venom AU concept 💜

[ayesopod]

something terrible. echoes of past intrusions. barely discernible

[ayesopod]

i am one more viktor arcane comment away from ending it all to be completely honest with you guys

[deadlilmoon]

and then there were none

[blog-lunatic-death-things-blog]

[star-wars-fashion]

Early concept art of Padme’s wedding dress, drawn by Iain McCaig

I really like this design because it’s so different and colorful for a wedding dress, though I am glad that they eventually went with a more traditional looking dress for the film

[rocketbirdie]

Happy pride month You-Gay-Hoe!

thank you!! here is a gift to celebrate

[jenny-holzer]

[bitterflames]

so tragic when you're an enjoyer of characters who are toxic destructive messes and then the majority of the fics are like "what if they communicated healthily and were nice to each other :)"

like if i wanted to read about wholesome well-adjusted relationships i would NOT be looking for stories about these freaks in particular i promise you!!!

[petty-in-prismas]

Sam Vimes - Night Watch

[sweetcherryblossomswrites]

[caprart1]

And I call this piece "holy fucking moly I need that woman !!!!"

[bumblebeebats]

The crazy thing is, ninety-nine times out of a hundred, if you asked me on any given day "Would like to see a picture of some genitals?" my answer would be "😰 No, that's... No, thank you. I'm okay, actually." I have nothing but the utmost respect for people who do engage with the penis side of the internet, but personally, I've spent the better part of two decades doing all I can NOT to have pictures of dick and balls or sexy bikini babe buttcheeks blasted onto my retinas constantly. And yet... to be denied the penis? To have a jumped up pile of javascript tell me, a grown adult with an air fryer and an outstanding council tax bill, that I cannot be trusted to withstand the sight of a bare nipple unless I let it scan my drivers' license? I will move heaven and earth to see that fucking nipple, friend. I will walk a thousand miles barefoot on hot coals before I give you big brother bitches my passport number. A thousand miles through the desert with five VPNs just to press my face up against the glass and see the last uncensored picture of two My Little Pony Characters sixty-nining each other, and I don't even want! to look at it! But I will! I must! for the sake of our fucking democracy!

[ladythedrunken]

[willjulep]

Bro, we are cooked. The knight that dogs the prince's shadow like a dark and silent wraith just knelt to press his forehead to the prince's hand. Yeah, now he's uttering a prayer whose recipient is ostensibly God but in reality is the deified version of the prince that exists only in his mind. Aaand the prince just caressed his cheek to preemptively grant him absolution. I gotta... I gotta get out of here.

[balrogballs]

Maglor remembered how Maitimo waited for a reaction to the barb, any reaction, but once again Ulfang’s face had taken on the comforting placidity from before, so impenetrably indifferent that the beholder heaved a relieved sigh. It was better, though less amusing, than the look of self-important superiority hanging from his brow, the derisive snort he’d given when Curufinwë explained how the name Maitimo had come about, the high-pitched bark before he delivered: the innards of the coconut fruit only feel cool and soothing on the hottest of days. When the air itself is cool and pleasant, there is a staleness to the fruit, do you not think? On an unrelated note, I hear that inbreeding amongst the Noldor puts the humble cheetah to shame.

Oddly enough, the one Ulfang got along best with was Tyelkormo, and though Curufinwë elucidated at length about reasons involving wild animals, barbarians and tiger-tamers, Maglor was of the opinion that Ulfang enjoyed how Tyelkormo made no secret of his utter revulsion towards the chieftain and his host.

Drawn across a two day hyperfixation fuelled entirely by spite after seeing this guy represented in a ‘Tolkien companion book’ as the most fuckass racist caricature I have ever seen in my life. Words from my WIP fic, The Ambush of a New Past which looks at the Easterlings and the Haradrim through the Ages of Arda, where Ulfang is a tiny, somewhat snobby little guy with a superiority complex and a hobby of making it very clear to every single elf he speaks to (including Maedhros, whom he has taken to his bed) that he is 100% going to betray them and insinuating that it is in fact entirely the fault of that specific individual. My miniscule manipulator 🥰

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