ultraviolet remarkey-able

killing yourself slowly is still killing yourself

[verybeautifuloverthere]

“i find someone to love and some place to drink and some time when i can just sit and think.”

around a year ago i graduated high school and got out of a very toxic relationship and once i came down from that high i had no idea who i was. since then i’ve been able to learn how to love myself and how to find people who make me want to love myself. i told myself this was going to be the best year of my life, and so far i’m doing a fantastic fucking job. 💛

[verybeautifuloverthere]

“Kiss me in the seat of your Rover, real sweet, but I wish you were sober.

i’m very much in love with my brother’s best friend but he moved away before i could tell him. so i guess i’ll just confess it to strangers on the internet 🤝

[verybeautifuloverthere]

“As long as you live, there's always something waiting; and even if it's bad, and you know it's bad, what can you do? You can't stop living.”

it’s so funny looking at all of the things i’ve posted in the past; pretty much documentation of me falling in love. but oops- i fell out of it. i think i’m probably the most lost i’ve ever been and i hate my body the most right now too. but hey, at least none of the negative things i’m feeling are because of a dumb boy anymore. i’m going to love myself one day, i swear.

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"At seventeen, I started to starve myself, I thought that love was a kind of emptiness."

I didn't eat for nearly 3 years and I got over that eating disorder by MYSELF. Now, I'm overweight because THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS and everyone is calling me a fat ass so welcome back ana, I missed you <3

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"I hope that our few remaining friends give up on trying to save us. I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot to piss off the dumb few that forgave us."

Sometimes I feel like being cared about is a burden since it keeps me from sabotaging myself, which is all I want to do.

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"What is an "instant" death anyway? How long is an instant? Is it one second? Ten? The pain of those seconds must have been awful as her heart burst and her lungs collapsed and there was no air and no blood to her brain and only raw panic. What the hell is instant? Nothing is instant. Instant rice takes five minutes, instant pudding an hour. I doubt that an instant of blinding pain feels particularly instantaneous."

My brother, Aaron, died in a car accident in 2015 and today was his birthday. He made me who I am today and it would make me unbelievably happy to know he's present in people's minds. If it doesn't take too much time, telling him happy birthday on this post would make a stranger smile :)

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"You saved my life, she tried to tell him. Not forever, not for good. Probably just temporarily. But you saved my life, and now I'm yours. The me that's me right now is yours. Always."

I've met and am with the love of my life. I'm so close to being able to start work in my dream career field. Almost everyone I love is alive and well for the moment being. These are the good old days, I'm happy right now. ☀️

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"Maybe, just maybe, I’m the faller.  Every family has someone who falls, who doesn’t make the grade, who stumbles, who life trips up.  Maybe I’m our faller.”

I have a savior complex that's probably going to ruin my relationship and my family and friends only talk to me when they need something 😔

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"Promise me we'll always be together, we make sense in all types of weather."

I didn't want to take my walls down for him but gosh, I love this boy with my whole heart ❣

[animatedtext]

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"You make it difficult to not overthink and when I'm with you I turn all shades of pink."

I'm falling for this boy a lot harder than I'd ever want to. Hopefully he doesn't break my heart because I'm putting myself out there. 🥵

[xbox-nun]

Bro your vibes are epic. Hold my hand

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"One day you'll leave this world behind so live a life you will remember."

I think I might be falling in love and I'm happier than I've ever been before ♡

[especially]

[verybeautifuloverthere]

I needed to hear this 🤧

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"Never did I think that I would be caught in the way you got me but girls love girls and boys and love is not a choice."

Fuck, man, I really really like girls and I just want a cute girl to be willing to be gay with me ♀️🌈

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"I learned that there is good in this world, if you look hard enough for it. I learned that not everyone is disappointing, including me, and that a 1,257-foot bump in the ground can feel higher than a bell tower if you’re standing next to the right person."

"Everyone around you is going to give you a gentle push now and then, but never hard enough because they don’t want to upset Poor Violet. You need shoving, not pushing. You need to jump back on that camel. Otherwise you’re going to stay up on the ledge you’ve made for yourself."

"For what it's worth, you showed me something, Ultraviolet - there is such a thing as a perfect day."

All the Bright Places is my favorite book ever and I'm so freakin excited for the movie 💙

[verybeautifuloverthere]

"When you consider things like the stars, our affairs don’t seem to matter very much, do they?"

This year has had one hell of a rough start but I swear things will start to look up soon 🤞