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[owltrace]

If you had known coming to watch your boyfriend’s game would lead to this, then you seriously would’ve thought twice about coming.

You see, Sae really liked it when you went to his games, but he never asked you out loud – all he ever did was throw a (his) jersey your way or message you with the info about the match, like he was expecting you to already know what he wanted without him needing to say it – and it always worked. You always understood what he meant, and how important it was for him to have you in all the matches you were able to attend.

So, to have him actually ask you to come – with a very tight hug from behind while you cooked breakfast and a groggy “You coming, right Amor?” – you should’ve known something different from the normal was happening.

“And Itoshi Sae gets a red card! He’s expelled from the match!”

You wanted to disappear. To turn into smoke. Because how else were you supposed to react to your boyfriend and your ex fighting because of you in the middle of a game with sold out tickets?

“And it seems Bunny Iglesias, who Sae just punched in the face, just got one too! It’s an ‘El Classico’, ladies and gentlemen! Everybody is on the edge!”

The commentators were not helping your case. Of course, you knew Real Madrid x Barcelona was one of the most heated rivalries in Spanish football, but Bunny and Sae were making everything pretty damn worse!

You could clearly see Bunny looking at you in the stands and smirking, while Sae was being held back by his teammates every time your ex said anything. You couldn’t really hear what they were saying from your seat, but judging from Sae’s expression, it wasn’t really a polite or friendly conversation.

Thankfully, Sae was able to calm down – after lots of begging from Luna and his other teammates – and was already exiting the stadium. You quickly got up to meet him in the dressing room, only to stop when Bunny screamed your name. In that moment, all the eyes were on you – especially Bunny’s and Sae’s – but all you could feel was your own face burning up from the utter shame you were experiencing. Then, like the little prick he is, Bunny Iglesias lifted up his hand, put it near his ear in a telephone shape and mouthed “Call me.”

When Sae ran back towards the field and punched Bunny in the face again after what he said, you really wished you had never dated a football player.

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[dayndream]

Me with my fluffy bby fr, and the quote represents me sm, lmao

Ty for the tag, Mina <3

Npt: @mncxbe @caramelluxe @stellar-headquarters and anyone else who wants to join

[stellar-headquarters]

literally stellar in UA high school 😭 (in the distance, you can hear tenya & katsuki lecturing me)

npt: @usagiarchive, @shoyosluver, @starboyshoyo, @strawbaerie-faerie, @rustyfeel, @ohnolily + anyone that wants to join!

[shoyosluver]

thank you for the tag stellar <3!! yours is so cute omgosh🥹🩷 me when I catch all those diff anime uniforms (literally aot, mha, saiki k...🥹) & lowk get excited until I realise I've nvr rly thought of an au self for them...🥀

this is how I wld most probably look like tho !! (based on what I wld wear irl):

(also idk why my quote sounds so hateful... I'M CRINE...😭 it was just the first one that I got when I generated... ums... I promise I'm not that spiteful abt life🥹💔)

npt: @amorsial @leafyonz @waitingonmyletter @nezukokamado1208 + anyone else !!

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[🐚]: thanks for the tag, taroo!!

i'd like what my quote says, actually.

[yorikae]

the only person that talks more shit than sae is his girlfriend!

**repost

“some midfielder you are. he got past you so fast i almost thought you weren’t there.”

“oh shut it", his eyes drifted off the himself on the tv screen to you snuggled under his arm, "you’re acting like if that was you, you could’ve stopped it.”

“i would’ve.”

“would not.”

“would to.”

“would not.”

“would to.”

“alright then, prove it.”

sae barely even looked away from you to grab the remote and pausing the match.

“prove it,” you mocked right back, pushing yourself off the couch with a grin.

fifteen minutes later, the two of you were out on the small field behind his apartment complex, soccer ball rolling under sae's cleat as you finished the stretch that he very much forced you to do for a little game.

and it was already ticking you off how much work you had to do for a quick game to settle an argument while he looked unfairly good doing absolutely nothing.

“ready to lose?” you asked.

his expression didn’t even twitch as he got into position, “you’re already breathing hard.”

“i hate you.”

“focus", was the last thing he said as he pushed off the ball from his foot.

sae moved like he already knew what you were going to do before you did it, which honestly he did, sliding around you multiple times so effortlessly.

“too slow,” he muttered.

“you’re literally a professional athlete.”

“excuses.”

“you’re so annoying.”

you finally managed to bump the ball away, sprinting past him with a victorious gasp.

“ha!” for exactly two seconds.

then sae caught up beside you with ease, hooked his foot around the ball, and stole it back so cleanly it was humiliating.

“oh my god—”

you reached for him out of pure bitterness, grabbing his sleeve just enough to throw him off balance.

unfortunately, it also threw you off balance.

the both of you crashed onto the grass hard, sae landing directly on top of you with an irritated grunt.

and for a moment, neither of you moved. his chest rising against yours before he pushed up just a bit to glance at your heaving form.

his teal eyes blinked down at you, completely unimpressed.

“dirty move,” he said flatly.

"says the one that did a trick on me, mr professional."

“because your defense is tragic.”

your jaw dropped. “tragic?”

“i’ve seen traffic cones apply more pressure.”

you shoved at his shoulder while laughing harder, and sae finally let out one of those quiet little huffs that barely counted as a laugh but always made you feel like you succeded.

"okay", you said cheerfully wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him down for a kiss, "time for your reward."

yorikae

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[🐚]: i'm sorry, WE'RE GETTING A LIVE ACTION SHATTER ME?! i am sososooooo happy for tahereh!!! istg if aaron warner is not the most majestic person on this earth, i'm filing a complaint. they HAVE to do this series justice idc

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[🐚]: the cote fandom has suchh amazing potential for fanfics and edits but they do NOT live up to it. it's like being in a cage RELEASE MEE

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[🐚]: guys, i can't believe ao3 AND wattpad are failing me rn, why is it that i can never find what i want? do i just think on a different wavelength than most ppl or smth? am i abnormal? ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ

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[🐚]: i went to the theaters yesterday with a couple of my friends to watch the tadc finale, and when i tell you i'm devastated.. i was bawling in the theatre.

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[🐚]: i've been laughing at the leaks of the latest bllk chapter for 20 minutes now. i just KNOW sae and kaiser are laughing their asses off rn

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[🐚]: respectfully, and i mean this in the most RESPECTFUL way possible: the caraval/ouabh fandom is the dumbest fandom i've ever been in.

there. i said it.

it's one thing to have opinions, and it's another thing not to have any reading comprehension at all.

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[🐚]: guys i finished acftl yesterday, and when i tell you i was bawling the entirety of the book, i mean it literally.

like my fyp is filled with evajacks rn, and i cannot explain to you guys how genuinely happy i am for them. i was crying so hard when they finally got to kiss each other.

they went through so much, and i want them to be happy together with all my heart, they mean so much to me.

and i think i feel for them, eva especially, because i'm kind of like her (not "kind of", i think i literally embody her) but i can't always be like her, positive in every situation, bc of the terrible state of the world rn; i want to be, but it's not always possible nowadays, is it? but like her, i so badly want my happily ever after, and someone who genuinely loves me despite everything, and seeing a character who i relate to have that makes me so happy.

and now i'm crying again, great. anyway, i'm STOKEDD for the new novella, and thank you for listening to (reading) my rant

[sainteirie]

Itoshi Sae

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[🐚]: bro, some baby bent my book cover, and i'm trying so hard not to crash out rn...

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[🐚] beautiful. absolutely majestic.

artist: @/peekabi on tiktok

[kainess11]

This fanart I just found on pinterest is my roman empire

p.s. : the art is not mine, the original artist is @B_0509_1909_H on Twitter/X

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[🐚]: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY GOAT!

he will come back, guys, trust!

[itoshiabi]

How dare she steal my baby brother!

2k followers event, request no. 6: Rin has fallen in love and has turned into a softie, which is making Sae terrified. So he starts investigating you like a criminal and then one day comes home early only to find Rin peacefully drooling on your lap on his couch.

The apartment is quiet, which usually means one of two things in the Itoshi brothers' shared apartment:

1. Rin is asleep.

2. Rin is plotting violence against Sae.

And of course, Sae prefers Rin sleeping.

So when he steps out of his room and hears a soft, disgustingly gentle chuckle coming from the living room, he freezes.

Then slowly turns his head.

Rin Itoshi, his younger brother, the same Rin who usually looks like he wants to kill everyone on the field...

Is sitting on the couch with his phone in hand... blushing.

BLUSHING!

He's Not annoyed, angry or murderous.

But he's blushing and smiling.

Sae stares.

"What the hell?"

Rin immediately scowls and turns the phone away.

"What do you want?"

"You're smiling."

"I'm not."

"You look sick."

Rin's face darkenes. "Get lost."

Sae narrows his eyes.

This is bad.

No, this is catastrophic.

Someone has infiltrated Rin's life.

Which means someone has somehow bypassed his hostility, sarcasm, trust issues, emotional repression and terrifying glares.

This person is dangerous, very dangerous.

So to save his brother from this dangerous person, Sae decides to observe Rin for the next two weeks.

And now he is more terrified because— Rin randomly glances at his phone, his ears turns red.

Rin thinks very carefully before sending a text. He types messages then erase them, then types again and stare blankly into space and suddenly smirks.

Rin even HUMS now, while making tea.

Sae nearly called emergency services when he saw Rin doing that.

Also Rin calls that mysterious person "Idiot" fondly.

FONDLY.

Sae slowly sets down his glass.

No, absolutely not.

So he starts the interrogation the next morning.

Sae sits at the dining table like a mafia boss, when Rin enters, half asleep.

"Sit."

"No."

"Who is she?"

Rin stops for a while, then continues walking again.

"No one."

"You're always smiling at your phone."

"You're hallucinating."

"You called someone an idiot lovingly."

Rin turns sharply.

"You were listening?"

"You were loud."

"I whispered."

"You're radiating weakness."

"It's none of your business."

"It is if some parasite is trying to ruin your life."

Rin looks offended enough to stab him.

"Shut up."

"Name."

"No."

"Show me her picture."

"No."

"Give me her social media then."

"No."

"Alright then, what's her blood type?"

"Die."

Rin walks off and Sae rubs his temples.

Fine, if Rin won't cooperate—

He'll just investigate.

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The private investigator returns three weeks later.

Sae sits across from him.

"Well?"

The investigator hands over a folder.

"She's clean."

Sae frowns.

"What do you mean clean?"

"I mean normal. University student. Good grades. No scandals. No criminal history. Volunteers sometimes. Buys coffee too often. Once yelled at a guy for making fun of beggar."

Sae blinks.

"That's it?"

"She also seems genuinely in love with your brother. You brother seems to love her a lot too."

Silence.

Sae dislikes that answer most of all.

So he just decides to meet you himself and texts you, he got your number from the investigator—

I'm Rin's brother. We need to talk. Don't tell Rin. Meet me (cafe name) at 5.

You stare at the message.

Then laugh.

But you decide to go anyway.

➽──────────────❥

The café is elegant, expensive and annoyingly quiet. There is no one else besides Sae, so it means he has reserved the whole cafe.

Sae is already sitting on a table when you arrive, dressed in VERY expensive clothes which screams money.

He looks you up and down.

Then freezes slightly.

Because you look... sweet, soft and completely harmless.

And just to prove that, you smile politely.

"Hi."

That somehow makes him trust you less.

"Sit."

"You really are brothers," you mutter.

"What?"

"Nothing."

You sit across from him.

Sae folds his hands.

"I'll be direct."

"I expected nothing else."

"What are your intentions with Rin?"

You blink.

"...Excuse me?"

"If you're dating him for money, status, attention—say it now."

You stare but he continues coldly anyway.

"I'm richer than him. More famous too. If that's what you want, I can provide it."

You smile.

Sweetly, dangerously.

Sae notices that too late.

You slowly pick up the iced drink in front of you.

"Interesting offer, really." You say and pour the entire thing over his head.

Every staff on the cafe gasps.

And Sae?

He just sits there dripping in stunned silence, ice cube sliding down his shoulder.

You stand.

"I hate you."

His eye twitches.

"But I'll still keep this secret from Rin because it would hurt him if he knows."

Sae stares.

For the first time, Sae looks genuinely speechless.

You continue, voice sharp.

"You've hurt him enough already."

You grab your bag and point a finger at him.

"Stop hurting my boyfriend..." You smile sweetly. "Or I'll kill you."

Then you walk out.

The café staff applaud internally.

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For several days after that, Sae does nothing but just watches Rin as usual.

Rin seems happier lately.

Still rude, but less tense.

Disgusting.

And every time Sae considers interfering again—

He remembers your smile while assaulting him with citrus.

So he just tells himself: If Rin gets hurt, I'll destroy her life.

Which, for Sae, counts as emotional growth.

But then one evening, Sae returns home earlier than expected.

Thinking Rin is asleep, he unlocks the apartment quietly and walks in.

And stops dead.

Because there you are.

On HIS couch.

And Rin?

Rin is asleep with his head on your lap.

One arm around your waist, mouth slightly open, drooling. You are gently stroking his hair while using a tissue to wipe his chin.

Sae's whole soul leaves his body.

"What th—"

You look up and raise your index finger to your lips.

Sae freezes in disbelief.

Then to make him feel worse, you slowly point to the glass of orange juice on the table. Then to him.

The threat is clear.

Try me.

Sae's jaw clenches but you just smile sweetly.

"Don't wake my boyfriend up."

Rin shifts in his sleep and mumbles, "...stay..." then tightenes his grip around your waist.

Sae nearly explodes.

"That idiot is on my couch."

You whisper back, "No. He’s on my lap."

Silence.

Sae feels violence in his bloodstream. But you totally ignore him and resume petting Rin's hair.

"He had training today. He was tired."

"Then put him in his room."

"He chose my lap."

Sae glares at his sleeping brother who's now nuzzling deeper into your stomach.

So you just lean down and kissed Rin's cheek softly, making him smile in his sleep.

Sae sees red.

You look back at Sae.

"Door's that way."

"This is my apartment."

"And yet you're the third wheel."

His eye twitches so hard that it becomes visible.

But you just smile and point to the orange juice again.

Sae inhales, exhales, turnes around and leaves the apartment.

The door shuts loudly behind him.You grin in victory.

Then look down at Rin.

Rin opens one eye immediately.

You gasp softly.

"You were awake?!"

Rin smirks and wraps both arms around your waist.

"Since he said what the—"

"You little devil." You pinch his cheek. "You used me to annoy Sae."

"Mm." He buries his face against you. "Worth it."

You laugh quietly.

"You're evil."

"Learned from Sae."

Then he looks up at you, sleepy and beautiful and unfair.

"Stay the night."

You soften instantly.

"All right."

From outside the apartment door, Sae hears everything.

He stands there in silence and then mutters to himself:

"I hate both of them."