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I think the reason why so many struggling people balk at "it gets better" is because of how often that statement plays a role in dismissal instead of being followed by actual support. "It gets better!!! (so we don't actually have to do anything to tangibly help you improve your current situation)"

trauma-trove

ID: A traumacore edit. The background is a severely distorted picture of a dark hospital room. The foreground features an invisible figure with a worn leather jacket, a black scribble over the face, and two bandaids layered over each other with the text Quote "it still hurts" EndQuote on them. The caption in the upper right corner of the image read quote "don't touch me don't FUCKING touch me" endquote. End ID.

It wasn't your fault.

post-traumatic-slaughter

davemakesstuff

it’s where they killed me

strangerconnection

you know, i don't remember

meanbuddhist

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

Had this really weird moment last night where nothing bad was happening at all and I was just thinking my #suicidalthoughts and got stuck on the concept of "what if I had a crisis/failed attempt and was hospitalized?" And despite there being literally nothing happening I just sort of broke down in tears whispering "please don't take me away from my family" but anyways I don't think I really experience flashbacks

#seriously though its hilarious how I'll read about textbook PTSD symptoms and go yeah that never really happens to me #and then I'll experience them and go huh wonder what that was all about #i think this one was Ellis having an Ellis moment but it gets so hard to tell sometimes because we are not very cleanly seperated

#not sure what compelled me to make this

traumatizeddfox

“i have a very childlike rage, and a very childlike loneliness” - Richey Edwards

#fuuuuuck man

nailbombs

librarycards

Do you have any recs/a reading list for BPD antipsych stuff? Likes for BPD specifically (or other pds) I just got diagnosed with “cluster B not otherwise specified” with mostly bpd traits.

hi anon! my fav piece in this general wheelhouse is Merri Lisa Johnson's "Neuroqueer Feminism: Turning With Tenderness Toward Borderline Personality Disorder" (link is to my google drive).

Some others:

Dorfman & Reynolds, The New Hysteria: BPD and Epistemic Injustice - excellent for its discussion of what the authors, following Dotson (2011), call testimonial "smothering" when it comes to patients marked as borderline.

Shaw & Proctor, Women at the Margins

Tichenor, Breedt, and Barlott, What does Borderline do? (critique of the social functions of bpd/npd/c-ptsd and their differential application across nation states, racial and gender groups, etc)

Ussher, Diagnosing difficult women and pathologising femininity: Gender bias in psychiatric nosology.

hope this helps!

#for future reference

Maybe an overly sensitive take but I've gotten really sick of this latest wave of mediocre "tough love" mental health sentiments people like so much. "If you have an intense fear that everyone hates you and is judging your every move have you considered that it's actually really self centered to think that you're so special everyone would be thinking of you to begin with" like yeah dude I actually have considered that. A lot. That's just a seperate self loathing spiral I do, that's not going to help.

Or "did you know that apologizing constantly/asking for reassurance/putting yourself down/making suicide jokes is actually really manipulative and if you don't stop you're being toxic" yeah I know. I think a lot of people who do those things know. Working on yourself takes time and feeling guilty or pressured into changing is only going to create further anxiety, increasing defensive compulsions like relentless apologizing, creating even MORE anxiety, and so on. Why in the world do you think a deeply anxious and self loathing person needs your tough love sentiment as if they haven't tried being tough on themselves and exhausted every possible way in which they could be considered a bad person. As if you can even offer "tough love" to a stranger when the only difference between tough love and being an asshole is love, something you could not feel for a stranger.

cryptid-corpse

They should invent a form of existence that isn't just an endless loop of waking up and feeling misunderstood and alone

ashenmind

wild to me that people (including medical professionals) still refer to the monoamine hypothesis when discussing depression and antidepressants

“depression is caused by an imbalance of these neurotransmitters in your brain, and anti-depressants fix that. no I don’t have direct evidence of that imbalance being the cause. no I can’t explain why these medications that change the balance very quickly still take weeks to have any effect. no I can’t explain why many patients do not benefit from these at all. no I can’t explain why meds that should make the balance worse do not cause depressive symptoms. you just gotta trust me.”

#I'm continually frustrated by the good chunk of my adolescense I spent on and off various SSRIs #not to mention the sinister SNRI #even though I have found an antidepressant that I'm 90% sure is at least somewhat helping me #I'm still really skeptical of the whole medication class #and the one that does kinda work for me is bupropion which is the only antidepressant in its class so its chemically unlike all the rest #SSRIs are kinda like getting prescribed ibuprofen for chronic pain in that they kinda work for a bit but doctors largely overlook the fact #that the long term side effects of using these medications regularly and in increasing doses are often not remotely worth the mild positive #effect they have for the patient #and the whole chemical imbalance theory seems very you have too much yellow bile thats why you're turning yellow wtf is a “liver”?

helenekuragina

you cannot make a post about how men put women in certain boxes without someone going "but what if i love the box? what if i've decided that it's comfortable in the box? are you gonna tell me i'm not ALLOWED to like the box? not very feminist of you to police a woman's decisions... maybe you'd be less ugly and miserable if you stopped talking about the box LMFAO #Girlboss #MyBox<3"

helenekuragina

#and its like. 'what if ive decided its comfortable to be in the box' it is always going to be more comfortable to be in the box #they will reward you for staying in the box and punish you for trying to leave it #that doesnt mean the box is like. a good place to be — @butchfaith

#no matter how much you like the spot you're standing in you should probably take issue with the iron bars around you

pastelpengwin

-i think we're going in circles-

redstonedust

its probably a normal sign for the economy that all of my adulthood fantasies are like "imagine having your own kitchen living room and bathroom to decorate" "what if i could get on a train" "maybe one day i could purchase a sturdy pair of shoes" "i should save and invest in a single bicycle"

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