"I Don't Trust Words, I Trust Actions"

Eat. Sleep. Love.

[thelovejournals]

I am too young and I’ve loved you too much.

Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Brothers Karamazov (via thelovejournals)

[whychrysti]

Me: I'm really sad.

Me: Maybe this sad music will help.

[whychrysti]

I Hate Me

Recently I'm self loathing and realizing how much of a bitch I am to everyone who cares for me. It didn't hit me until my friends confronted me with an "intervention" meeting about my past behavior this summer. My lying and bad choices. And the same exact night when I get home, my dad doesn't get mad at me but "calmly" talks to me about how I've been an ungrateful child. Ofc I was annoyed at their lectures, but it's BECAUSE they care for me that they do this. That they tell me what is wrong and take their time to deal with me. They're right and yet it's SO hard for me to change. I'm spoilt. I'm a liar. I'm selfish. I'm irresponsible. And I take everything for granted. So many times I'm forgiven and still loved and I know that I couldn't get through life without them. WHY do they stay with me? With someone LIKE ME? I need to change.

[omgthatstotallyme]

[whychrysti]

My life right here

[whychrysti]

What the hell did I ever see in him? Maybe I was just desperate...LOL

[omgthatstotallyme]

[iglovequotes]

http://iglovequotes.net/

[whychrysti]

Isn't that the matrix...?😶

[whychrysti]

I need someone to push me. Not off a cliff. But down the rabbit hole full of new possibilities ✨

[whychrysti]

Don’t mind me, I’m just venting

[whychrysti]

Why do girl friends look down on other girl friends, constantly compare to see who's better, and talk behind each others' back?

[whychrysti]

Sometimes I feel like my girl friends are fake and just need you to boost their self esteem. Or that when you're no longer fun, you're no longer needed.

[whychrysti]

Why do I keep making the same mistake over and over again?

[iglovequotes]

http://iglovequotes.net/

[whychrysti]

💔 idk

[whychrysti]

Remember. You're not perfect and so aren't they.

[whychrysti]

Shoulda Coulda Woulda but Didn't

I purposefully put myself in denial and run away. I don't want to look pathetic and I don't want to be embarrassed. I stop myself so I don't regret looking like a fool. But. As a result, I regret not trying, missing my chance, and fool myself into denying what I truly want. Losing something that could've been. I don't want to be hurt and so I run away. I run away and deny everything. Cut off my feelings. I've become so pro at it that I don't know what it is that I truly want until I've already lost it. I know this and yet I do the same thing over and over again. I'm sad 😢💩 It's like I'm cutting myself off.

[ourbodiesglow]

[whychrysti]

My pride won't allow it