Saccharine.

Blog for two partners to share their experiences; Calista and Ethan; Calista is panromantic asexual and goes by she/her and Ethan is pansexual/romantic and goes by he/him.

[wispycanidae]

lol.

We figured out that we were actually gf and bf the whole entire time!! So ya know, we still love each other just as much but we're gonna continue this relationship as gf and bf ;) -Ethan

[wispycanidae]

Sleepytime.

Not a serious post this time- I’m just a bit tired. I know you’re tired too, working on school stuff- but you know? I’m happy to be here with you. Even though it’s just a call. I know I’m not saying much, but I’m enjoying the moment. Enjoying hearing your voice, the little sighs you make while you work. As I sit here, soft light coming from my desk lamp, I stare up at the ceiling in a comfortable silence. And I wonder what the future holds.

- Calista

[wispycanidae]

Light.

You’re like a flame.

Somehow simultaneously like the soft glow and light of a candle..

And yet the cozy warmth of the fire in a fire place.

The soft pink and purple of an early morning sunrise, peacefully fending off the darkness of night. Bringing the promises of a new day and many more in the near and distant future. 

Like the slight flickering of stars. The pictures they paint. The gorgeous bits of hope among a deep, and beautiful dark sky.

But also the moon, who controls the tides. Who is much much more important than people give it credit for. Much more loving, accepting. If only people would make the effort to stay out late enough to be able to appreciate it fully.

Like the flicker of light off of loving eyes.

The light reflected off of water.

And I see a bit of you in every one of these things.

You’ve brought your light to my life.

Given me hope.

- Calista

[wispycanidae]

Beautiful.

We've achieved something beautiful together. Something I've never had before with friends or past partners. We have a relationship without judgement. One where we truly try to and succeed in understanding each other.

Comfort.

Calmness.

Relaxation.

Those words are what I feel telling you the darker things about myself. I don't fear being judged or hated for things from the past or problems I currently deal with because I know that you'll always be understanding. Earlier today I brought up the difference between puppy love and true love, the difference between a matured relationship and an immature one. This is that difference. This is what makes our love real and so mature despite it's relatively young age, and it'll keep getting more and more mature as the months turn into years and the years into decades. Here's to a happy, peaceful life with you, my precious Calista 💚 -Ethan

(p.s. happy three months baby 💚)

[wispycanidae]

It's been less than fifteen minutes since you left my house and I can already feel the crippling weight of how far apart we are. I had it such a short time ago but I already long to feel your touch again; I long to see those beautiful, heavenly green eyes and that adorable, heart-shattering smile just once more tonight. I love the way you talk to me, the way you look at me so lovingly and longingly, how sweet you are to me and everyone else and the world around you; I love seeing the way you react to all the subtle things I do or say. It hurts like hell to have that ripped away again; to have the only one who truly energizes me yet calms me down at the same time pulled away as I desperately grasp and call out your name and how much I love you as you drift into the darkness. I love you, Calista, love of my life; and I can't wait for that inevitable, welcoming message from you in a few minutes telling me that you got home safely 💚 -Ethan

[wispycanidae]

The Little Things.

It’s the small things you do for me.

The book you want to read for me.

Asking me to teach you how to dance.

Carrying me around, because you know that’s something I enjoy.

You send me sweet messages every now and then after I head to bed, giving me something to read when I wake up in the morning.

You help remind me, that its the little things that make the world go around.

So I’ll take my time to enjoy them, now that I have them.

-Calista

[wispycanidae]

God, it's only been a couple of hours since we talked and only a couple of days since I've seen her but I miss my baby so much. -Ethan

[wispycanidae]

This might not be nearly as adorable or poetic as her previous post, but late at night after she's went to bed and I press the home button and get greeted by her smiling face I can't help but smile myself 💚 -Ethan

[wispycanidae]

You.

My other half.

Sweet. Caring. Lovely.

You don’t see what I see.

Your eyes speak a thousand words. A story you can try your best to convey to me.. and although I love reading and hearing what you have to say to me, nothing will compare to the look you give me.The blue. Yellow.

After all, the eyes are a window to the soul they say.

Passionate. Giving. Hopeful.

The sound of your voice. There’s a certain emotion I can hear with each tone. I could listen to you for hours. There’s something comforting to it.

Protective. Safe. Gentle.

How I long for your embrace. Warm and cozy. Comfortable.

You remind me of many things.

Soft rainfall. Thunder. String lights and bunk beds. Blankets and hugs. Security.

Chopin.

Nocturne op.9 no.2.

You remind me of a lot of things.. but the feeling of peace this song gives me is something that reminds me of you the most.

I love it.

And I love you.

- Calista

[dialgafury]

I'm gonna just be honest, I miss the hell out of my girl :')

[dialgafury]

There has never been anything more bittersweet than having to say goodnight to my qpp. I love her more than anything and getting to tell her that after a wonderful day of being with her is amazing, but it's also a melancholy experience as I know that's the last I'm going to get to hear from her for the rest of the night. It does, however, help to remember that as soon as I wake up I'll get to jump right back into messaging her. 💚

Goodnight @swirlingidiocy 💚

[wispycanidae]

You’re such a sweetheart- every time I read one of your posts, my heart melts 💚 - Calista

[dialgafury]

Nothing like laying down and snuggling w/ your queerplatonic partner with some YouTube in the background 💚

[dialgafury]

Queerplatonic relationships are so much better than romantic ones. I've found so much joy in my qpr that I can't find anywhere else. The amount of safety and comfiness is sublime. Not only is this person your partner, but they are also the best friend you've ever had (seeing as that's literally the point of the relationship). The physical aspects are better; the hugs are better, the kisses are better. All the little talks you have are better. Even the normal conversations you have day to day with them are better. The emotions behind every action taken between the two of you are deeper since there's no romance or intimacy there just for the sake of being intimate. It's all pure, raw emotion physically and mentally. There also isn't nearly as much room for conflict or secrets; this IS your best friend afterall! It's just.. It's magical. I wouldn't trade mine for the world.

p.s. Love you @swirlingidiocy . You mean more than the world to me. 💚