[remanence-of-love]

[wordsbykristen]

damn it, I deserve better. We all do.

[wordsbykristen]

Life sometimes feels like drowning even when you know how to swim.

[wordsbykristen]

I don’t write much these days, I’ve tried sleeping the pain away. But even in sleep, I don’t dream anymore Not like I used to anyways.

At first I tried to drown it out with words And music and art that made me feel something. Now I drown it out with cigarettes and alcohol and I feel nothing at all.

“Your brain is going to take you places,” my teachers once said. But just yesterday my therapist told me “Your brain is a dangerous place.”

I’m starting to think I’d be better off erased. Gone. I wish depression could be eradicated like the  measles but, even that made its come back.

Somehow I still hold out hope, hold a candle in the darkness even if the wick is down to my fingertips and the wax is burning my skin. Lord why did you give me enough strength to hold on but not enough strength to pull myself back up again.

I pray and they tell me it’s not worth it.

[iidontnoo]

[wordsbykristen]

I don’t write much these days, I’ve tried sleeping the pain away. But even in sleep, I don’t dream anymore Not like I used to anyways.

At first I tried to drown it out with words And music and art that made me feel something. Now I drown it out with cigarettes and alcohol and I feel nothing at all.

“Your brain is going to take you places,” my teachers once said. But just yesterday my therapist told me “Your brain is a dangerous place.”

I’m starting to think I’d be better off erased. Gone. I wish depression could be eradicated like the  measles but, even that made its come back.

Somehow I still hold out hope, hold a candle in the darkness even if the wick is down to my fingertips and the wax is burning my skin. Lord why did you give me enough strength to hold on but not enough strength to pull myself back up again.

I pray and they tell me it’s not worth it.

[wordsbykristen]

“We’re all facing the same odds.
We’re all doing the best we fucking can. We get up every morning hoping today will be better than the last three weeks that have let us down. We want to give up but we keep going, trying to make today better than yesterday and hope for the same tomorrow because it’s
all we can really do. Hope and fear are both four-letter words, so which one do you choose?”

[wordsbykristen]

Life sometimes feels like drowning even when you know how to swim.

[wordsbykristen]

i wanted to kiss him with everything i had in me. my soul could feel the fire in his bones, it’s what kept me warm most nights. i fucking loved him and he was just existing in the world without a god damn clue.

[cardboardkeyboard]

[wordsbykristen]

why can’t we dm you

I’m not sure but I think I fixed it!

[understands]

[aseaofquotes]

[aseaofquotes]

David Gemmell, The Sword in the Storm

[thehonestauthor]

“Cool, you’re a writer! What all have you written?”

[maddwinter-deactivated20171008]

daydreaming is often a coping mechanism for people who are often lonely or don’t receive a good amount of love in their life, so they make people inside their heads that will love them so they can feel the right amount of love.

[veneno-kiss]

[wordsbykristen]

I need to surround myself with more people who read bukowski and drink straight from the bottle under the stars and realize that we only have 100 years on this planet if were lucky, so they don't take everything so serious.

[wordsbykristen]

i get worried when im not losing my mind.