randy (badly) topping benson <33 all nervous and shaky and oh so sweaty itās like kinda embarrassing.. whining and pouting cuz this is so hard!!! and the only reason heās doing it is because benson wants to teach him how to fuck and make him act like a big boy (#punishment) benson loves seeing him struggle!!!
This is the only way I accept top Randy!!!! His heart hammering so fast and his body so sore all over its making him nauseous and scared heās gonna get sick on top of Benson. He has to do it with his eyes closed so he doesnāt get dizzy. So nervous and overthinking it all he canāt stay hard but heās not allowed to pull out.
Benson wonāt ride him either. He refuses to do the work for Randy, ācause this isnāt about pleasure for him. Itās a control exercise. All disappointed and mean, spitting the worst insults he can to make Randy want to move, want to go harder, want to hurt him even. But Randy knows that and doesnāt want to participate in Bensonās sexual self harm <3 The sex is miserable and Benson makes it happen anyway for as long as it takes for Randy to eventually do a good job. Not allowed to get what he wants and bottom again until he makes Benson cum from fucking him.
One time Randy trying too hard and ignoring his bodyās limits and warning signs, accidentally peeing while heās still deep inside of Benson. And not being allowed to pull out despite the mess cause he hasnāt finished. Itās always messy really cause it takes SO long and they both get so sweaty and sticky. Randy hates the sensory experience of all of it.
The aftercare is SO sweet though because Benson is SO proud of Randy for meeting this standard he has in his mind for him. This is necessary for him! Itās training Randy to be assertive and pushy and take what he wants! Hehe letās hope that doesnāt backfire with a misunderstanding that makes them both wanna kill themselves š
But I canāt get over the initial image of Randyās bony back curved over Benson, his skin so flushed because heās so sensitive and pale, his face all concentrated but blissed out and the combination makes him drool. Sweaty all over, shaking all over too, and heās sniffling and whimpering every time he moves because itās all too much for him. They do it from behind for a while but the second Benson catches that beautiful look on Randyās face heās gonna make him face him from then on. Heād correct him on not being so pathetic, make little comments on how heās still being the bitch even though heās on top, but heās secretly relieved Randy doesnāt actually change all that much. If thereās one thing about Benson itās that heās a hypocrite.
The pleasure for him isnāt about having something inside, thatās uncomfortable and overwhelming for him too. Itās that Randy will do whatever he tells him. His guilty conscience will make an appearance and heāll get sick to his stomach thinking about how many times Randy has begged to go back to the other way, how he cries and pleads all the way through his tearful, miserable topping. Constantly switching between pity and anger. But he loves on and dotes on that boy no matter what. Him being bad at this isnāt his fault and heās gonna fix it!!
The first several times they did, opposite of not being able to make himself cum, Randy was probably shooting off the second he got even the tip inside Benson. But he wasnāt allowed to stop even if he shot off too soon. Cause then he wasnāt learning his lesson! Muscle spasms and over stimulation making him so weak heās breathless and draped over Benson boneless but still jumping his hips pathetically cause he knows he has to. Being the noisiest boy ever and not even knowing heās crying and groaning out loud.
