She/They | 26 | Fanfic Writer | Goth Nerd š¤ AO3: xXTheVampireQueenXx Current Fandoms: My Hero Academia (Dabi) and BG3 (Durgetash), South Park 18+ Only Blog
āif you love this character then you must make him happy in your fics, right?ā wrong. the horror. suffering. internal hemorrhage. hospital. immediately
Hereās a hill Iām willing to die on: Dabi/Touyaās villainy was way more justified than Endeavorās āredemptionā
Part one of many probably cuz I have a LOT to say on this topic.
So, the fact that Endeavor realizes his mistakes demonstrates that he had the capacity to change all along.
It seems like the main reasons that initiated his āchange of heartā were All Mightās retirement/ becoming the no. 1 hero, and also to some extent the scrutiny he was getting when all of the abuse he put his family through was surfacing.
Okay so, getting the thing that he prioritized and was obsessed with getting the whole time (which was a main motivator for his shitty behavior), but not in the way he wanted (inheriting the no. 1 title instead of properly āsurpassingā All Might). And secondly facingā¦ dun dun DUNā¦ THE CONSEQUENCES OF HIS ACTIONS???
Like, the change was never ACTUALLY motivated by the impact his trash behavior had on his family.
It feels like the equivalent of *mediocre analogy incoming* a child throwing a temper tantrum jealous that another child has an ice cream cone that they beat up the other kid up and steal their ice cream cone, only to feel like now that they have the ice cream cone, it doesnāt have as much appeal as before they had it. Then the adults or whoever come in, and the kid who beat the other kid up and stole their ice cream cone gets scolded for what they did and THEN the kid acts all apologetic.
And honestly though, I could MAYBE look past it if it were not for the fact he DROVE HIS OWN SON to the point of self-destruction, and (at the time he would have believed) LITERAL DEATH. And THAT was not enough to make him realize how abhorrent his behavior was.
I think it is such a crucial detail to remember that the actual turning point of Touya becoming Dabi, was NOT Endeavorās abuse nor when he lost control of his powers leaving him on the brink of death and his body permanently mutilated.
It was the fact that when Touya returned home, NOTHING had changed, Endeavor still perpetuated the same shitty, abusive patterns that lead to what happened to Touya. Not even HIS OWN DEATH would have motivated his father to change.
Itās only through becoming a villain that Endeavor ACTUALLY acknowledges the impact that his behavior might have had on Touya. But again, it seems to largely only follow after he gets scrutinized by the public.
And then what is the response? How does Endeavor ātake responsibilityā for Dabi? By saying that he will fight himā¦ By just resigning to kill his son a second time (I know itās ultimately Shouto who fights Dabi, but still).
I could go on, but I think Iāve demonstrated my pointā¦
I kinda have this like... Ideal gray area between Fanon Dabi and Canon Dabi in the "family relationships" department.
Like, part of the horror of what Endeavor did was ruin thier prospects of healthy sibling relationships and of course there's a lot of resentment and complicated feelings and yeah that's more realistic than him just uncomplicatedly loving and wanting to protect them but I feel like there's some stuff in canon that legit doesn't make sense to me and feels like it was just added to turn the audience against Dabi (ie trying to kill Natsuo to make Endeavor sad when Dabi has no actual reason to think Endeavor gives a shit about the guy).
So... yeah. It should be acknowledged and explored how thoroughly Endeavor fucked all of this up BUT I also want the prospect of reclaiming what they all should have gotten to have to feel genuinely plausible, y'know?
A small detail that is so tragic, but so intriguing about Durgetash is that it feels like they were fated to always end in tragedy no matter what route they took.
If Durge had rejected Bhaal, then he would have killed them; if Durge had accepted Bhaal, then they would have been expected to kill Gortash.
Even in-game, there is no way to keep Gortash alive. Even if the Dark Urge allies with him up until the end, he is ends up getting killed by the Nether Brain.
I think that Durge and Gortash are not stupid, and probably were aware that it couldnāt possibly end well going into it.
Both of them lived lives where their fates where decided for them; Dark Urge by being the child of Bhaal and Gortash by being sold to Raphael and being made to feel that power was his only means of survival.
A relationship with each other, even if it could never end as they would have wanted was one thing that Durge and Gortash could have chosen on their own terms.
Itās simultaneously beautiful and also so incredibly sad.
Dabi lowers the cigarette, but doesnāt move away from youā¦
The heat in the air between you lingers, charged and electric.
Your eyes drop, taking in the detail of the metal staples along the edges of Dabiās mouth. They almost seem to glow in the moonlight, a perfect pairing with his bright blue eyes that have caught your attention so frequently as of late.
Absorbing all of the period cramps of all of my followers. You're welcome, females. You're welcome, theys. You're welcome, brotherhood. Menstrating for ALL OF YOU.
When he transcended to lichdom, Emmrich Volkarin told his lover that he feared mourning her foreverā¦
Sheād called the thought ridiculous, unknowing of the fact that fate would snatch her away from him much sooner than either of them had anticipated.
Almost sixteen years later, an introverted young Watcher seeking to understand his own grief, crosses paths with the Lich Lords of the Grand Necropolis, and in doing so, uncovers a buried secret that may change, not only his own life, but the undeath of one particular Lich Lord who thought heād lost everything years agoā¦
Just for funiziesā¦ Favorites aside (which I know is hard to do lol), which Mystic Messenger character do you think would actually make the best partner/you would actually be most inclined to date irl? (Iām including Rika and Vanderwood cuz I want to).
Which MysMe Character Would You Actually Date IRL if you had to Choose?
Not sure how much of my AO3 audience keeps up with me over here, but I wanted to post an update just in case anyone was curious.
I havenāt posted on AO3 since December, HOWEVER I have still been actively working on projects. The biggest thing is that I just donāt have a ton of time; my job is ridiculously busy and on top of that, all of my AO3 work is written 100% by me (I write and edit everything myself and absolutely do not and will not ever use AI). Given all of that, my posts on Archive are often fewer and far between.
But I do care a lot about these projects, and like I said, have been working on them; just not actively updating.
Starting here, since this one seems to have the largest consistent readership. Itās definitely coming along! The next few chapters are going to wrap up the first main plot point of the fic, and Iām working on making them really good. I promise, itās coming as soon as I have the time to get it finished/polished!
Loving the Tyrant Lord: An Evil Dark Urge x Enver Gortash Fanfiction
https://archiveofourown.org/works/59670727
I have been working on this one minimally, to be truthful. It is definitely by no means done, and I plan to come back to it eventually. However, I donāt have as clear of a vision on how I want to story to progress, as of now, so Iām going to wait until more inspiration hits me on this one. We could consider this one āon hiatusā for the time being.
Emmrich x Rook Fic (Dragon Age: The Veilguard)
COMING SOON!!!
This project has been taking up a majority of my writing time, and Iām very excited about it. I have the full story pretty much mapped out and have been jumping around writing different parts as opposed to writing it linearly. Currently itās at around 10K words. This one is going to be on the shorter side (maybe 5 chapters or so). It centers around Mourn Watch Rook and Lich Emmrich, and is going to be very angsty. Itās going to take place mostly post-canon events of the game, and not to spoil too much, but I was very inspired by the in-game argument where Emmrich says āIām afraid Iāll mourn you foreverā. Thatās all Iām gonna say for now. I hope some people will be interested in this one!
Let me know if this update was helpful! Thaaaanks~~ š¤š¤
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