undead-ish

we/them, dissociative, always angry and a bunch of other random stuff.

[aetherial-boy]

Some days, DID looks like constant spacing out and never seeming fully there. Missed bits of conversations and a memory that doesn’t seem like it wants to work.

Sometimes it looks like talking to myself, constant internal noise and heightened sensory sensitivity.

Some days DID looks like being emotional for seemingly no reason, crying, laughing, anger over something I don’t know, emotional bleed-through from other alters.

Other days it just looks like severe PTSD. Avoidance, spacing out, needing help to ground myself. Flashbacks that I honestly can’t remember the triggers of, or remember the full event of, but that I know are flashbacks.

And sometimes it just looks like nothing at all. I seem put-together and relatively normal. You’d never know I had a dissociative disorder.

The day-to-day severity of my symptoms do not determine what mental illness I have. I still have DID and I still struggle with it whether you can see it or not.

[yellowsou]

genuine question

so, i had a relationship and broke up because all i felt was confusion and was uncomfortable the whole time. i identified as aroallo before that, but i got so much worse with dissociation that i just forgot who i was for some time. after that i started to feel that i was betraying myself for being committed to someone who was clearly in love with me and i loved him for his friendship and support, and that’s it.

now that i’m a little less stressed after breaking up, i feel like i failed the aro part of myself, i feel like i don’t quite fit under that community because i simply don’t deserve it anymore.

i don’t feel grossed out by other people romance and relationships, but i still rather stay out of that for good now.

i’m even more confused than i already was. anyone else?

[writeformesinpie]

Hi there,

I would like Ikons reactions to this, cruising in your vehicle Ikon are along for the ride, their song comes up on the playlist, Skip.

😀

Lol lol lol

You and I are the only people on this site that like Ikon lol 😂

[trashlord-007]

Hey now!! There's at least 3 of us!!

[yellowsou]

this makes us 4!

[sapphire-reblogs-and-rambles]

[sensationalsrecord]

jaeyoon wife club 💞 do not edit.

[perfectquote]

“I know that feeling. You have to do something. You have to change something radically, because you can’t stay like you are for another second, or you’re going to explode.”

— Jennifer Echols, Forget You

[yellowsou]

that actually mad eme think a lot and relate not just in an aro perspective, but in a familiar, friendly and personal way too

[yellowsou]

so, valentine days is in 2 days from now here in Brazil, and i spared a little bit of my attention to observe people being all romantic and cheesy and i realized: damn, i really don’t want that lovey dovey shit.

[kittyking445]

Bc i know for a fact we probably won't b seeing a lot of posts Abt us:

Happy pride 2 aro lesbians and aro gays and aro mspecs nd 2 any non-sam aro and loveless aros and any other aroallos who feel like ur not seen nd only see aro pride when paired w ace. Ur all doing amazing I hope u have a great pride <:]

[fleshdyke]

aros and poly ppl are allies. no further questions

[yellowsou]

Eng: if i look back two years ago i can’t understand how i lived without a clue of what it meant to be aro, pan or poly. i grew up in a place where all that i was forbidden even to talk about it. nowadays i still don’t have the respect of my family for being who i am. so for all of you celebrating pride month out there: im proud of you! it’s not easy to be yourself, to own who you truly are, so even if you’re still trying im proud of you! 💚 you’re doing great.

PT: se eu olhar dois anos atrás não consigo entender como eu vivi sem saber o que era ser aro, pan ou poli. cresci em um lugar onde é proibido até falar sobre isso. e hoje em dia eu ainda não tenho o respeito da minha família por ser quem eu sou. então para quem está comemorando o mês do orgulho por aí: estou orgulhosa de você! não é fácil ser você mesmo, aceitar seu verdadeiro eu, então mesmo que você ainda esteja só tentando, estou orgulhosa de você! 💚 está se saindo bem!

[arozaur-deactivated20220722]

happy pride month to aromantics 💚

[yellowsou]

i feel something really out of the ordinary looking at this, any insights/thoughts/reason?

what color is this?? i feel hopeless and embraced at the same time by this.

does anyone recognize the photographer/artist?

[aroaceconfessions]

You know how seemingly all aroaces say they are oblivious to flirting? Well, i have the absolute opposite experience. Since I was young, i've always been hyperaware of people flirting with me

It's not like i can magically tell if someone likes me, but when they try to make like "a move" ñsaklflña i can sense something is off. Like if i'm talking to someone i can always pinpoint the exact second when suddenly something changes. I've never been able to explain what it is, but i know when the person i'm talking to and i are no longer in the same wavelength? Like, i don't notice it because they're more attentive or kind or nice or funny to me, it's not that they're paying especial attention to me, it is almost the opposite really, like all of the sudden i can tell they're no longer listening to what i'm saying or something. Like in a second they're no longer looking at me, they're looking through me. They're no longer there, it's like they get lost in though or something, it's hard to describe. But i can always tell. It's always been like that for me, something changes and i get weird out i guess

When i was a teen i tried facing them, like being direct and shit, but i don't do that anymore cause a few times i was like "you seem distracted, are you okay, are you listening?" and i've had people answering shit like "not really, i got lost in your eyes ñlklsdjdfñlk just typing that was so cringeee i can't omg lol and then i was absolutely disgusted and went like "well... please don't, that's rude" lol so to spare everyone the cringe nowadays I take it with a pinch of humor and i play a game of how to redirect the conversation until i find a turn off for them? but like everyone's different so i need to try different things so sometimes i go with the stereotypical basics like talking about like their mothers or my mother lol, other times if i know the person i redirect to a topic i know they hate, and sometimes nothing works and i have to try and make myself look dumb or arrogant or gross and i talk about that time in elementary school when i had lice or something lol until the weird feeling is gone and it's hilarious cause i feel like Kate Hudson in How to lose a wo/man in 10 days except it's How to turn off the allo in 10 minutes, just desperately trying to make myself insufferable for them in increasingly elaborate ways, it's hilarious

But yeah, i can always tell when someone's flirting, it's like a weird queer superpower, like a spider sense but aroace flavored and i love it

[yellowsou]

OMG YES!!!!! TOTALLY RELATE TO THIS. I actually mentioned this to my sister and she was like "that's not even possible, you must be noticing their behavior or smt", but it's just a tingle like spider senses or our lizard brains starts tingling, like Dexter LOL

[yellowsou]

Nightmare meaning anyone?

I had a nightmare where i was in a relationship, we got haircuts together and then went home, it was not cool, everyone, not cool at all (*cries in Portuguese*). Woke up looking for the meaning online, anyone tell is not about getting in a relationship so i can ease myself pls 

[aro-culture-is]

Aro culture is giving the best adivices about love and relationships but adding "btw I'm aro and don't actually understand what you are going through" so people can't sue you if the outcome goes wrong

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[yellowsou]

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[dogkin]

The aromantic community really needs to get rid of it’s obsession with platonic love :/

[yellowsou]

I was talking to a friend at work today and he’s going through some rough divorce and etc, so he said he would be single for at least 2 years after it, but then corrected himself saying in 3 weeks he would be dating again. I asked him why he did that to himself and he explained saying he didn’t liked to not know the person better, and then i asked him again why, cause that’s something you can do as a friend too. he didn’t quite understand so i asked him again in a different way the following question:

“what do you miss so much that can’t let you be single and enjoy yourself?”

his first answer was that he “liked to be intimate (physically and he emotionally)

so i asked him again “okay, but what is it that you miss, that you feel the lack of and enter another relationship?”

his answer again was “it’s cause i don’t like to feel like i’ve ignored the persons feelings”

then i said to him: “you told me what you like and dislike, but didn’t answer my question, why and what do you miss so much about being compromised?”

then he just gave up and told me he didn’t know, he just couldn’t be single and not do anything romantic.

what do you guys think about this?