[yikesola]

✨yikesola's fic reference guide✨

Hello hello! To celebrate writing 300 fics I thought I would compile in a single place links to the videos or instas or whatevers that the particular fic is referencing/based on :) Enjoy—

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[bugbugxo]

cuties <3

[yikesola]

as Slut Summer™️ 2.0 has been thriving through pride month, I’m really coming to the conclusion that I’ve gotta stop fucking women who don’t believe in fluoride 🚬🫩

[yikesola]

Wait someone unfollowed me alskfkflsk do you think they hate sluts or they hate fluoride ??!

[yikesola]

as Slut Summer™️ 2.0 has been thriving through pride month, I’m really coming to the conclusion that I’ve gotta stop fucking women who don’t believe in fluoride 🚬🫩

[yikesola]

The audacity of dan and phil to be all ~ha ha hee hee yeah like I’m desperate to save these tomodachi vacay photos to my device, what purpose could that serve~

when they have a literal printed out, framed, and cherished photo of their final fantasy catboy characters

they’re insane and I love them 🚬🫩

[yikesola]

The idea of the Lesters rocking up to an Applebees in Florida, sun-drunk from a day in Gatorland and fresh off an afternoon nap at the airbnb, ready to get absolutely lit on giant american overpour cocktails and to split a bunch of ultimate trios and 2for$25s, it’s so visceral an idea that I feel as though I myself were their server, in fact I feel as though I still am~~~~~

[mayhasopinions]

doodle of the fleece boys because they make me happy

[icedteaforme]

boys looking for a ghost in a bog

[yikesola]

✨clang clang clang gofundme link!✨

I know I spend a lot of time complaining on this blog about my medical calamities, but I wanna wave my hands in the air for a moment here to draw some eyeballs to a friend’s plight if y’all’d all be so good— obviously I’m never expecting or demanding that anyone donate something they can’t, but the main source of healthcare in the US does continue to be crowdfunding as a grim tradition and if you’re at all able to then it helps more than I can properly express✨💞

https://gofund.me/322ada935

What’s goin on: my friend Olivia was on an island in Spain with the gals when the pain in her head finally became unignorable, and the last thing anyone ever expects to hear happened— the doctors said “there’s a tumor in that brain! We’ve gotta dig it out before you even consider flying home” 🫨🫨🫨🫨🫨 Olivia’s community is stalwart and have been round the clock reaching out to all the medical and governmental and insurance-ental officials they can, while also making sure Olivia herself is as loved and cared for as possible. This lil post here is the bit that I can do for her. I know this is simultaneously a bizarre case in terms of its random chance-ness and a tale as old as time in terms of its huge expense with insurance gleefully giggling in their cloud of cigar smoke, so I’ll reiterate that any donations and/or reblogs are so very very appreciated! ty ly bb!!!!!!!!💋

[yikesola]

Hey friends!! I’m gonna give this a lil rb because today is surgery day ✨ Olivia has entered hour 5 of what will be a ~9hr surgery!

Her parents are there on Mallorca with her but all her friends had to fly back stateside unfortunately. The gofundme is going so amazingly well for such a short amount of time, Olivia has truly fostered such warmth and support amongst the people around her! But there is still a home stretch to be raised— she had to pay $80k up front for the surgery alone! That’s not including the other medical care, her parents’ last minute flights and lodging, and what will be their three flights home, the time she’ll be unable to work during recovery, etc etc. There’s more detail on the page itself but that’s the elevator pitch right there for you

Anything that can be done is so so so so helpful, be it donating to the gofundme itself or sharing the link in some way. Obviously obviously if you’re not in a position to put forth money, everyone understands this and please do not think I’m writing this with expectations lacing the words! I’m not in a position myself to donate (and in fact I agonized for like 30hrs with my therapist and several friends about whether I could Force myself to have the brain juice to open up fanfic commissions like I did back in the olden days so I could donate that money before having to admit that at this time my own disability disables me too much to be able to support my dear Olivia in that way🫩) however, like I said, sharing the link is very very helpful and that’s primarily the way I have been contributing! So if you can only share too please know I get it I get it and I thank you dearly !!!!!!!!

And one more thing you can do for Olivia that I’ve been doing every day since we learned of this ding dang tumor last week is you can send your good vibes, you can cross your fingers, and you can cross your toes— ty ly bb!!!!!!!✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨💋💋🥰✨💞🤞🤞🤞🤞

[yikesola]

I missed a lot of the gabbing about Shane’s mango allergy but the gist that I’ve gleaned is very good in terms of his incredible need for self control and discipline vs his “perverted” desire to give into pleasure (wow Shane, no other humans are so greedy, how dare!) (this is also a self callout shut up) as well as very good in terms of the idea of being Born Cursed, being Born Othered, born autistic born gay born with mango allergy 😞, and an end of season reward Mango Day where he pops some benadryls and just knows it’s gonna itch and prepares to put up with it anyways and fucking indulges in slorping on that good good orangey yellowey fruit, eating that bitch out while eating so he still smells it hours later all over his sticky face. It’s all so good!

Aaaaaaaaaaand it’s another moment where I painfully am this with Shane “glory glory glory to the night” Hollander:

Because you see I have a banana allergy 😞 well ,, a banana sensitivity i argued for like 20 years, before my roommates insisted it get added to my medical chart as an allergy along with morphine (a darn shame, I hear that’s the fun one 🙃) because it’s Not That Bad really ! My lips get pretty swollen….. my lips get kinda itchy.. my eyes get kinda itchy.. that’s pretty much it! So far. Allergies can always progress :/

So I keep cetirizine in my purse along with my other emergency meds, and I assure y’all it is 0.02% for just in case I encounter all other allergens, and 99.98% absolutely in case I am at a restaurant for brunch and see bananas foster pancakes on the menu! Like !!!!!! I’m not not eatin that !! Allergies be damned !!!!!!!!!!!! So I get you, mango allergy Shane. I fucking get you, for sure. Let’s raise a toast of our antihistamine pills🥂 and get to indulging ! 🥭🍌

[starofhisheart]

Happy pride to those 5 seconds where Charlie Swan thought Jacob was coming out to him in the most insane way possible

[yikesola]

@cloudabserk — if you do not approve of your Very Good heated rivalry art being altered/bastardized in this way, pls let me know and I’ll absolutely delete!!!!! But when this twilight moment crossed my dash all that echoed through my head so clear and so sharp was a bone-weary Charlie surmising “I guess I just thought you were crazy.” so I had to memeify it🙂‍↕️✨

[diphowell]

[amid-fandoms]

man i'm so not ready for "here's some of my fave pics of you" this year

[yikesola]

My therapist and I have really been honing in on my ocd this year and we talked off and on about turtles all the way down bc it’s the only John Green I hadn’t read (I haven’t gotten to tuberculosis yet either but my excuse there is that she’s just very new!) and I had been thinking I hadn’t gotten to turtles yet for no special reason, just timing y’know of when it came out and when I was in a ya fiction mood or not and when I was in a podcast mood or yada yada yada im one of those very annoying people where sometimes media has to “feel right” for me to consume (terrible I know) but the thing is, i didn’t Know I had ocd until like ,, december-ish last year I think? Maybe November-ish? Really really recently! So I wasn’t not reading turtles for the subject matter or anything — but now that I do know I have ocd, well……. It’s a little different 🫪

Like one of the times it came up between me and my therapist was me asking her if it’s even a good idea for me to read it, like if it might fuck me up, because I know sometimes with certain conditions, that reading some media about it does more harm than good. And I know that’s a broad as hell statement I just made but yeah it’s because it’s only sometimes and only certain conditions and only some media. But regarding me and turtles, my therapist has no hesitations a few months back when I asked about it, she said if an author who I like and trust and who I know also suffers from the same condition and therefore who I trust to represent it thoughtfully has a work available to me that could make me feel less like I’m on an island by myself where I darwined myself into the only lonely girl to ever have a brain be evil to her, then by all means yes I should totally read turtles all the way down —!

And I haven’t, yet.. I mean to! I will ……

It came up again in our Thursday appointment. My therapist brought it up this time, and it was definitely less in the permissive sense and now more so in the suggestion sense .. because she asked me why I hadn’t yet, and I told her the truth because I always do and said that I’m kinda fucking scared. Kinda really fucking scared. I’m scared that it will hurt to read a book about someone with ocd, written by someone with ocd, who I know writes well and intentionally. I think that it will hurt me. Now, to everyone’s credit — my therapist’s and john green’s — I think that hurt will be a good hurt. I think it will hurt me because I will feel very seen and I will feel a lot of Same Hat™️ and I will feel a lot of there but for the grace of *hand gesture* go I and that at my full strength that good hurt would hit soooooo fuckin right!!!!!! But the thing is ,, I’m not remotely at my full strength right now. I’m like. I’m not well. I’m physically really far gas tank been past the E for like 15miles now and there’s a gas station on the horizon but idk if we can coast to it y’know?, I’m mentally really guitar string so taut she’s about to snap but we’re still out of tune so we gotta keep twisting. So I don’t know if I can like fucking bear the hurt y’know? Even the good hurt.

[yikesola]

@amid-fandoms — oh fuck…… I hadn’t considered media needing to feel right being part of the ocd at all aksjfkd (like I said, she’s a Very New diagnosis 😭) I absolutely thought it was just part of my orneriness but it makes so much sense and knowing you’re Same Hat™️ about it and described it so exactly correctly like the agony of knowing the thing will matter so much to you once you’ve let yourself have it but you can’t yet but whoops it’s been a lifetime of that now so the little pile is now a mountain and your lungs can’t inflate fully underneath it anymore and it’s just too ,, embarrassing (?) for lack of any other word ?? Thank you for this response so much :((((((( it might just encourage me to watch one of the many many dnp uploads I’m behind on alskfkdks

[yikesola]

My therapist and I have really been honing in on my ocd this year and we talked off and on about turtles all the way down bc it’s the only John Green I hadn’t read (I haven’t gotten to tuberculosis yet either but my excuse there is that she’s just very new!) and I had been thinking I hadn’t gotten to turtles yet for no special reason, just timing y’know of when it came out and when I was in a ya fiction mood or not and when I was in a podcast mood or yada yada yada im one of those very annoying people where sometimes media has to “feel right” for me to consume (terrible I know) but the thing is, i didn’t Know I had ocd until like ,, december-ish last year I think? Maybe November-ish? Really really recently! So I wasn’t not reading turtles for the subject matter or anything — but now that I do know I have ocd, well……. It’s a little different 🫪

Like one of the times it came up between me and my therapist was me asking her if it’s even a good idea for me to read it, like if it might fuck me up, because I know sometimes with certain conditions, that reading some media about it does more harm than good. And I know that’s a broad as hell statement I just made but yeah it’s because it’s only sometimes and only certain conditions and only some media. But regarding me and turtles, my therapist has no hesitations a few months back when I asked about it, she said if an author who I like and trust and who I know also suffers from the same condition and therefore who I trust to represent it thoughtfully has a work available to me that could make me feel less like I’m on an island by myself where I darwined myself into the only lonely girl to ever have a brain be evil to her, then by all means yes I should totally read turtles all the way down —!

And I haven’t, yet.. I mean to! I will ……

It came up again in our Thursday appointment. My therapist brought it up this time, and it was definitely less in the permissive sense and now more so in the suggestion sense .. because she asked me why I hadn’t yet, and I told her the truth because I always do and said that I’m kinda fucking scared. Kinda really fucking scared. I’m scared that it will hurt to read a book about someone with ocd, written by someone with ocd, who I know writes well and intentionally. I think that it will hurt me. Now, to everyone’s credit — my therapist’s and john green’s — I think that hurt will be a good hurt. I think it will hurt me because I will feel very seen and I will feel a lot of Same Hat™️ and I will feel a lot of there but for the grace of *hand gesture* go I and that at my full strength that good hurt would hit soooooo fuckin right!!!!!! But the thing is ,, I’m not remotely at my full strength right now. I’m like. I’m not well. I’m physically really far gas tank been past the E for like 15miles now and there’s a gas station on the horizon but idk if we can coast to it y’know?, I’m mentally really guitar string so taut she’s about to snap but we’re still out of tune so we gotta keep twisting. So I don’t know if I can like fucking bear the hurt y’know? Even the good hurt.

[yikesola]

I have to take one car in for service today and another in on Monday which means I’m fuckin locking in babey !!!!!!! It’s gonna be me and my headphones and a little snack and a phone charger and I’m gonna lock in ! I’m gonna write phanfic for danny boy birthday! I’m gonna answer my very patient anons! I’m gonna finish my dinosaur mtg deck that has ostensibly been “almost done” for like 18 months now lol hell yeah it’s gonna be great —! I just need to lock in💋✨

[yikesola]

Second appointment is today, gonna totally for sure lock in !!!!!! >:| I mean it this time !!!!!!!!!!!!

[phanforeverandever]

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