Finding myself

currently self diagnosed ADHD. this blog is for learning myself and finding validate.

[yrraovivent]

Keep saying: it will be over eventually. But i'm running out of patience and i don't know when will my misery end.

I just want to end it all right now. I just don't know, I'm tired. I want it to be over

[kenjo-arts]

“You’ll have to put me down”

Collab with @dr3amofagame I did lineart and flat colours and they rendered!!!

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you can have mental illness and still

think positively,

work on making progress,

encourage other people,

enjoy the little things.

it may be hard, but lots of things in life are when you’re struggling with mental illness. they’re still doable and worth it even in small doses.

[yrraovivent]

You wish you could die in a headache and never wake up.

I wish.

I'm so tired and tear didnt even go out

[tiktaalic]

one of my beloved friends (very autism) was in.. not denial but ignorance sounds mean. but that abt themself last time you brought up the raads r test so i sent it to the gc (full of autism) and they were like psh. fake test no one could get below 100. they know now but i think about it so much

The thing is. When you take the autism test. And you see your score is in the 100 to 160 range. You think. Oh this is probably the middle? Middle autism. Tinge of autism. Your relatives calling you bright but shy autism. Just a whiff of autism. And then you see the score ranges. And you go. This test is lying to me there is absolutely no way the majority of people score under 65. The 65 number is such a low cutoff and so many of these experiences are clearly universal a score under 65 is something they made up in a lab. People who score under 65 are obviously scoring just under that mark from 59 to 64 and they’re also obviously lying or purposely misrepresenting their experiences as less severe than they are. And then you find out there are real people who get a 20 or 30 or 7 on it. And you go. Ah

[murphysletsdraw]

Here's a link if people wanna take the test

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

being in a relationship when both people are struggling with mental illness is hard. it takes work and energy and communication. it can be frustrating. reminder that you shouldn’t only have each other to lean on and that it’s okay to seek help from other loved ones and professionals, and your partner is not and cannot be your therapist or only support. not doing well mentally doesn’t mean they don’t make you happy. it’s a struggle for both individuals. you both still deserve so much love from each other even if you don’t feel worthy or like you can give “enough”.

[yrraovivent]

I don't know why do i want to vent, i promise i won't do it somewhere people can see.

I don't know, why am i such a shitty person, why am i an asshole and how do i fix it

I don't know what's wrong with me and i hope i can stop trying to figure out why bc i'm tired and i tried.

I'm so tired. It will go away soon, i'm just so tired and i promised to not say anything about it

[just-bex]

I can feel everyone getting sick of me, and to be honest I don’t blame them, I’m pretty sick of myself at this point.

[yrraovivent]

I will try to change myself as a person. In hope if i can't delete myself then maybe if i act nice and happy enough everyone will forget the old me and let it die

[the-chosen-half-of-one]

Achievement unlocked: discovered piece of media at exact right time in your life to experience maximum peak emotional impact and infatuation

[yrraovivent]

All I can do is trying to act nice and happy because i know people on this world has too much negative to deal with mine too

[notdesignedforthis]

| oc | rb allowed |

[just-bex]

I can feel everyone getting sick of me, and to be honest I don’t blame them, I’m pretty sick of myself at this point.

[yrraovivent]

I've been struggling but i don't see that i should struggle, and i hate myself for that bc i can't be strong, i'm weak and i hate everything about it and i hate myself and i just want to die i can't see the future trucking in a sink and im drowning futher and futher

[sickdelights-deactivated2023091]

Don't ask me "wyd" i really just be in my room going insane and being a danger to myself

[my-road-to-existence-deactivate]

It feels like I am dying, but I can't talk about it.

[tonysopranobignaturals-deactiva]

OH you know what? let's do controversial mental health/psychiatry opinions.

• forcibly institutionalizing psychotic people in times of crisis can not only worsen the situation but create lifelong trauma and further distrust in medical professionals and medication. it should not be a go-to option. believe it or not we still have human feelings despite a disconnect from reality.

• children should not be identified as 'sociopaths' both because antisocial behavior in childhood can be treated and because it's often a sign the child is being abused or neglected.

• people should be able to admit they're suicidal and/or self harming without fear of being institutionalized. with threat of institutionalization they won't get better, they'll just hide it more.

• not wanting to take certain medication does not make you hopeless and 'anti recovery', there are valid reasons why someone may be apprehensive towards medication as treatment and it doesn't make you delusional.

• everyone deserves autonomy in treatment, including psychotic people

• can you tell this post is partially personal rage

• oh well i'm still right about everything