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Snuck into the #PlayaBonita #DreamsDelight for a fun morning! Later for lunch we snuck into the main lunch room 15 minutes before it was opened bc I thought the dessert room was the open snack bar....we were the only ones sitting and eating...and I didn't have a clue that I was in the wrong spot! https://www.instagram.com/p/BrixOhxn4gbYd9y8iNzP7EV6_J0rdKN9o1rwic0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12wshzr8kh8pr
City 2 Surf 2015
I did it! 14km from Hyde Park Sydney to Bondi Beach. Beautiful sunny day, unlike last years clouds. I walked the whole way, mostly unassisted, at 32 weeks pregnant. =] I made the first half, even up the ‘Heartbreak Hill’ unassisted, but then I started to slow down so I got some pushing help when we were walking up the smaller hills. Mostly so we didn’t get too slow. I did it in 2 hr 49 min. Less than 3 hours! Woo!
The toilet lines were horrendous, one after another I looked and had to walk past. Until I gave up, I said I’m not waiting just to pee a trinkle! So I found a bush and peed right behind it, super easy, super simple, mother natures way. =] Then 30 seconds further on I found a little boy doing the same thing, lol.
My leg muscles were totally fine, probably due to the pilates. I was extremely cautious about my peroneal tendon and my plantar fascitis/arch pain and my ITB pain. So I wrapped up my left foot totally completely with KT tap and had some ITB taping as well. Well, I didn’t get those pains at all during the walk! Prevention and taping is key!
I DID get hip pain. That is the pregnancy talking. Walking at a nice pace made it manageable.
After reaching Bondi Beach, met up with friends and child, ate Burritos at Burrito Shack and drank shots of Tequila and sangria (not me of course). And slowly the crowds faded away, the streets opened up, the sunshine faded down, and most importantly the bus line dwindled down. Twas time to head home. Such a good day, calm ending, and as usual, the first 3 kms seemed the slowest, and then after that you just get into it and keep pumping away and BAM you’re done!
Next race: Racing to finish my uni assignments before baby ‘arrives’! Eek!
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I'd like a homemade almond macadamia milk spiced chai latte with a side of broken eggs and kale. Literally, we were part of the mass influx of yuppie/yuccie/hipster couples eating at this place. I drank a 'twig genmai' tea...yea, twigs!
Those who have not found their true wealth, which is the radiant joy .... and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth. They are looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfillment, for validation, security, or love, while they have a treasure within that not only includes all those things but is infinitely greater than anything the world can offer
The Power of Now
I’d like to say a few words...
...or maybe a lot of words.
I’ve started pregnancy yoga and pilates. Pilates made my calves hurt the next day, but my abs were completely fine. Well, it was my first day, so I’m hoping my next session tomorrow will lead to better/more pain. Although the last 5 minutes of class were SO HARD.
I also really enjoy pregnancy yoga, but I have a confession to make. I really don’t like the typical aussie woman in the class! I don’t know, they just seem to whinge and complain so much! I’m more in tune with the quiet asian types. I just don’t connect with complaints of eating sugar kid food (oh wait I do, I love eating cereal)
So I’ve got two nights a week of strength/core/re-motivate myself to sit/stand straight throughout the week. If I can manage to do some morning walking on the weekend, that would make it excellent.
Winter season frisbee starts this week. I CAN’T BELIEVE I’M MISSING IT! I feel so horrible about it, but in a mild way. I don’t really care about it, I know I can’t play. But, I just hope I can be ready enough in time for start of summer league! Woot woot!
That is all.
Pregnancy Yoga - Japanese style
My local yoga studio focuses on “Japanese yoga”, which focuses on different parts of the body depending on the season. We don’t do typical poses like the other yogas or hold poses for long lengths at a time. Rather, we tend to do stretches/exertive movements that focus on certain parts of the body. Most of the time there is a move that works on the hip adbuctors, which is my WEAK SPOT!
Pregnancy yoga is a bit toned down, and there are obvious parts of the body that we can’t really work on (like abs/crunches/upside down moves).
FIRST SESSION
It was good. Got a bit light headed during repetitive kneeling thigh lifting moves. But I noticed how weak I had gotten, and how my back of thighs hurt slightly for two days after. Even holding my arms up straight for a few moments burned.
There were other preggers in the class, all more developed than I am, some even go to normal yoga classes. I won’t, my blood pumping ability is poor.
I think I will continue. I need to do something to replace my running I used to do. I don’t run anymore. It’s so discouraging. I always ran because of the good feeling I got, because of the progress I would make every week, because of the schedule I would follow and my little goals I gave myself. I liked the ability to choose a hill-based run or a long run or a fun local route or exploring the neighbourhood run, or 7km Bay Run trying to beat my previous times on completely flat running track. But without all that, doing my half walk - half jog just seems lame. IT SEEMS LAME! I know it’s not, I know it’s me giving myself some fitness, but compared to my previous ability, it’s so sappy, degrading, discouraging, frown inducing, smile dissolver....
PILATES
I have a one-on-one consultation on Monday for my first session. We’ll see how it goes. Normally I wouldn’t do these types of things, but as a replacement for aerobic running-ness I’ve recently decided to do strength/muscle strengthening things. I’m so bad at doing stuff at home, esp. now that my exercise space is covered in a queen-size mattress. (For most of you, this exercise space would normally be your living room...but as we don’t have a couch....yeaa.....)
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I WENT FOR A RUN!
For the first time in a month! Actually, I probably only ran for a total of 5 min, but it felt good! So, I imagine myself as an overweight person, so I did what an overweight person would do if they were starting out running for the first time: I did the first session of a couchto5k podrunner interval 9-week training schedule. The first session is essentially 25 minutes of walking with about 6 or 8 x 30 second intervals of “fast-paced” running/jogging. Normally, this insanely easy, mundane, boring workout would totally be horrible....but because now I have the fitness of an overweight person, it was absolutely perfect!
Another reason I had to start on the absolute beginner workout is because I have lost track of how to be a balanced person I don’t know how to take it easy, I don’t know when to let up, I don’t know how to ease back into running. I just keep pushing myself saying” no, no I just need to turn around the corner and come back, then touch that rock over there, oh, and now this is the halfway point so let’s just finish up by running all the way back home again.” yea, and then I get super lightheaded and pass out and smash my head on a rock (I imagine).
So, it was a good workout, the 30 second runs were just enough for me, and the walking in between was not as easy as it normally feels. Walking hasn't been as easy for the last 3 months.
Now, I feel good and super motivated to set lower challenges for me which can be feasible. Yea, half marathon is still on the plate, but that will be pushed in the back burner, not for another year. BUT, what IS attainable is the city 2 surf! If I’m correct, you are allowed to walk the whole 14km race. SO, my goal is to slowly build up my fitness over the months (I know they say you shouldn’t try to actual train for anything, but can you really call it “building fitness” if I’m going from running every week, to just trying to WALK! GEEZ MAN!) SO, I think walking 14km shouldn’t be a big dealio, especially if I have someone to help me. =] AND, this will continue my record of doing the city 2 surf EVERY YEAR! That is my new goal! I read this snippet of a book where this man did the city 2 surf every year for 40 years in a row, well, I really want to do that. I don’t know why, but I feel like it! I guess as long as I live in Sydney, right?
Also, NY has so many half marathons, like every weekend once spring starts, its ridiculous. Sydney has, what three half marathons?
Blarbing a lot, I don’t who would want to read all this gargling.
Gargle out!
Feeling not good
Many feelings. #1) I’m sick, and that sucks, and I hate having a cold, and I hate taking sick days from work, I’ve taken two days already this week, and friday is a public holiday, so essentially I’ve only worked 5 days in the last two weeks...stupid.
#2) I feel like I’m letting EVERYONE down.. I’m letting work down - I can’t perform as well, I can’t do as many outdoor tasks, I can’t lift as much, I can’t stay healthy for work, I get super tired and I don’t have the energy I used to. I used to be able to do a full days site work then come back to the office at 3 and do some computer or office stuff for an hour. I can barely stay awake after a day outside, I go straight to bed at 5pm.
I am letting down my frisbee team - I can’t play anymore, at least not competitively. It’s just too dangerous I think
I am letting down my band. I will have to quit. After two blackouts two weekends in a row, I don’t want to go through that again. Yea, maybe my diet isn’t the best, but it is what it is and my blacking out makes me feel bad, and I hate it, makes me feel incapable of doing all the normal things I used to do.
I really hate not feeling normal. I hate not being able to do everything I once used to do Maybe I grew up having an easy life, but this is by far the worst thing I’ve ever experienced in my life. Also, I don’t feel unattractive, but, I wonder if people will find me unattractive once my belly gets bigger...I dunno, just hypothesizing.
This is a really hard time in my life. I am having a really hard time accepting the present moment. I find it so horrible. It’s easy to say ‘accept the present moment’ when your life is so good. But when it’s bad, that’s when you need to listen to your own words. I don’t know what to do, what to help. I haven’t been cooking, so I don’t have much good iron rich food to eat.
I did start feeling better about it a few weeks ago, but the last week or two I’ve felt bad.
I just don’t know if it’s all worth it. That’s what I’m scared about. Maybe this will teach me to grow up. Not everyone grows up, and I don’t want to grow up right now.
I just had so many plans. I always have plans. I feel like my whole life has just halted for a year, or more, I don’t know. The truth is, I feel like I made a mistake. That is all.
Fainting Spell
So I blacked out again whilst playing my clarinet. This time it was in the middle of a concert. Actually, during the second to last song, I noticed the signs of impending doom, so I stopped playing...but the blacks squares kept crossing my eyes, and the black squares would enter my vision but wouldn’t leave through the other side, so more and more black squares kept filling my vision, until it was so hard to see my music. At this stage I had already stopped playing, the instrument was just in my hands, me sitting motionless, not playing. I thought I was fooling everyone and was “pretending” to be playing. In reality, I literally took the instrument out of my mouth and held onto it with a death grip, and everyone next to me could clearly see something was wrong because I was not playing a note. I thought I was fooling everyone, but I was only fooling myself.
Losing blood in your brain makes you really stupid!
Eventually, the music disappeared, but from what others said I didn’t actually faint, but no one knew that I was blind. The whole time I was dearly trying to see the music page, and I tried to put the instrument in my mouth but I just kept poking it into my cheek, like a drunk person with bad motor reflexes.
Eventually the notes starting seeping through the blackness, just in time for the ending, and I was like, ok I’ll play the last note. LOL. So I did, even through the partial black fog curtain. Wow. I still wasn’t thinking straight at the end, so my neighbours took the instrument away from me and said I wasn’t playing anymore, and made me put my head in my lap, and magically my vision reappeared!
I was somewhat embarrassed, but not much. I actually felt worse for letting the band down and not being able to play the last two songs. Oh well. Right after I felt weak and lightheaded and felt sick and horrible. Before the concert I was aggressive and mean and grumpy, after the concert I was in a delicate state, and in a helpless state.
Maybe drinking more and eating more could have helped, but, it’s hard to do these things when you don’t have an appetite to tell you to eat! Literally, I stuff food in my mouth.
Oh yea, and 7-11 Slurpees do wonders for me. I’ve already had 3 this week. I’m afraid it’s becoming a bad habit, but, the sugar and the coldness are so nice, and I like cold drinks now, especially ice water, and I’ve NEVER liked ice water!
I am not planning on running for a while. Not until I start gaining more energy. I mean, it’s not as hard for me to climb steps anymore, but that feeling has been replaced with an overall sense of fatigue all day every day. I could wake up, spend half hour doing something, and then feel quite comfortable going back to bed to rest. I go to bed at least 2 hours before bedtime most nights (when I’m not out late at band or dinner) to rest before I go to sleep. It actually feels horrible. Especially because I have uni. At least my mind is still working (Or is it?? o_O) And work (in the office) is the only thing that I enjoy anymore. I think I still enjoy it. I guess I will find out tomorrow, if I go. I still feel weak, and I only black out when playing my instrument, but, I haven’t really rested all weekend because I don’t let myself. I force myself to study.
You know, the other night I was SOO tired, my eyes were closing and I was falling asleep, but I was forcing myself to sit in front of my books and papers and answer the problem set questions. I had to do my assignment. It’s the least physical work I do in my life....at least I don’t have to act out my assignments, that would be painful and long.
Ok, I’m going to finish watching Mr Hollands Opus. And try to get some other good things to watch.
Sorry for the ranting text. This stuff just isn’t suitable for facebook.
