IV: Remember me (M)
𝗦𝘂𝗺𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘆: You and Jaemin were in your 2nd year of dating, everything was going smoothly stable and you thought that everything's going perfectly smooth not until he was asked to go back to his hometown and he had no choice but to ask his friend Jeno to look after you for a week. Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months and when he came back he acted as if he didn't know you and your two years of dating didn’t actually existed.
𝗣𝗔𝗜𝗥𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦. med student!Jaemin x med student!reader
𝗚𝗘𝗡𝗥𝗘(𝘀) & 𝗧𝗥𝗢𝗣𝗘(𝘀). angst, crack, fluff, smut, college!au, established relationship!au, lovers to exes to lovers!au
𝗪𝗔𝗥𝗡𝗜𝗡𝗚𝗦. explicit language, mentions of amnesia, mentions of alcohol, jaemin is confusing, hc x yn moments, haechan is a flirt, jeno x yn...? hmm
WORD COUNT. 5K
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“I will never forget you.”
“You lied.” You whispered, eyes watering as Jaemin passed by you. A wide grin plastered on his face as he talked with his friends, ignoring your presence, yet again, as if you were invisible.
He suddenly stopped on his tracks, grin faltering as he turned his head to look at you, “I’m sorry, are you talking to me?” He asked.
You flinched, hearing his voice so near to you. You immediately blinked, trying to hold back your tears as you look at him, “Uh, no. I was talking to myself.”
“Oh, okay then.” He said, he smiled at me before walking again. I just stared at his back, tears once again brimming on my eyes the longer i stare at his happy face.
The smiles that you are no longer the reason.
You smiled bitterly knowing that he’ll never probably look at you the same way again, and you will never have whatever you have back.
“I miss you, Jaemin.”
A week ago, Jaemin came back to the campus acting as if nothing has happened and he didn’t leave you and other of his friends leaving you hanging.
“I’m sorry, but do i know you?” He asked, looking at you up and down with his forehead creased in confusion.
Your mouth dropped at this, looking at him in disbelief before awkwardly laughing at him and even hitting his arm slightly to which he winced in pain.
“Stop, i’m not in the mood to joke. Where were you? Why haven’t you been replying to my messages?” You asked, eyes watering the longer you stare at Jaemin’s eyes who’s looking at you with confusion in his eyes.
“What? What are you talking about? I’m sorry, but i don’t really know who you are..” He softly said, you stared at his eyes and it was empty as it looked straight at you confusingly.
The eyes that never lies.
“This has got to be a joke, right?” You chuckled humorlessly, eyes once again brimming with tears as you look at Jaemin and then Haechan.
Haechan was looking at you with defeat, it’s like as if he was telling you that he was saying was true.
“THIS HAS GOT TO BE A FUCKING JOKE, RIGHT!?” You repeated, voice now more harsh and violent as your tears started to drop continuously.
You once again looked at your boyfriend and he was looking at you with worry and confusion in his eyes.
“Jaem, i have no time for your fucking jokes! Tell me, y-you— you r-remember me, r-right?” your voice broke as you tried to catch your breath, you slowly walked towards him again, but he took a step back the moment you were two steps away from him.
It broke your heart, of course it fucking broke your heart.
“B-bub—” Seol had stopped you even before you could even finish what you were saying, she hugged you, stopping you from going anywhere near Jaemin.
“S-seol, t-that’s Jaemin, right? I… i-i’m.. I’m not just hallucinating, right?” You asked, you sniffed looking at Jaemin before glancing at your best friend, a tear dropping on her cheek before she hugged you even tighter.
“L-love, love! It’s me! It’s YN! I’m your girlfriend!” You said once again, you saw how Jaemin’s eyes widened hearing your name before he tightly shut them, a hand going on his head as he groaned in pain.
Your eyes widened at this and immediately dashed towards him, he was crouching as he held his head tightly, his groans becoming louder and louder until he passed out in your arms.
“Love, please remember me..”
“Hey, girlie. What are you doing?” You heard someone asked, you lifted your head to see Jeno looking down at you with a cute smile plastered on his face.
You sighed as you show him shit tons of paperworks to do, you once again rest your cheeks on your palm as you lazily scan the paper you were holding.
“Did Jaemin—” He stopped talking once you shot him a look of disbelief, it’s been weeks since that incident happened and you tried to persuade him the following days, but whenever he sees you he just awkwardly smiles at you and tries to get away from you as far as possible, when someone mentions your name he would immediately react by tightly gripping his head and would loudly groan in pain as if something was tearing his head apart.
You couldn’t stand it and so you decided to just leave him alone, but you were convinced that something had happened in those months while he was away. How could Jaemin forget you?
You shook your head, shaking the thoughts again even before it can completely take over your brain for the whole day.
You sighed and tried to focus on the paper you've been holding when you felt that someone was looking at you and so you glanced at Jeno and saw that he was watching you.
You arched a brow at him and he snapped out of his trance, you chuckled as you saw him blink multiple times before looking at you, confused.
“What’s wrong, Jeno?” You asked, a smile still plastered on your face as you look at Jeno. He made a noise of confusion, which he does often when he’s, well, confused.
“Nothing, uhm, it’s just.. A-are you- are you fine?” He asked, hesitance laced in his tone. The smile on your face vanished the moment you heard his question, but you tried your very best to bring that smile and nod at him.
“Yeah, absolutely fine..” You softly said, you can tell that he wasn't convinced with your answer, but he didn't push it and you’re thankful for that.
“Anyways, wanna go later at Chenle’s? Says he want us to try his new recipe before he decides to put it on his menu.” You smiled at this and eagerly nod your head.
Nothing tastes better than free food.
“What time—”
“Jeno.” You were cut off when you heard a familiar voice coming from behind you, you froze as you don’t know what to do.
Jeno saw your uncomfortable state and he quickly look up to ask, “What's up, Jaemin?”
“I’m sorry, i don’t want to disturb you, but do you know where’s my book in anatomy?” He asked, you frown at this. Jaemin isn’t really the type to misplace his belongings or even forget where he placed his belongings, especially his med books.
So, why is he suddenly asking this? Jeno, for sure, wouldn't mess with Jaemin's things because Jaemin gets easily annoyed when someone tries to touch his things without his permission.
The math is not mathing, something really happened in those months he was gone and you need to find out what it was.
“Oh, you placed it inside your locker earlier, right?” Jeno answered, forehead creasing in confusion. Unsure whether what he remembers is correct.
“Oh, okay then.. Thank you.” You heard him answered, you refused to turn your head and look at him, but when you felt his hand on your back you unconsciously turned your head to glance at him.
“Hi.. YN..” He softly greeted you, you smiled at him but that smile didn't last long when you saw how his face contorted in pain.
You stood up and held his arm, “Are you okay? Do you want me to bring you to the clinic?” You asked, worry laced on your tone.
You felt his hand gripping on your arm, he shut his eyes tightly for a moment before opening it and shaking his head, maybe to shake the pain away.
“I-i… i’m fine..” He said, you were about to let go of his arm when he held yours tightly, your eyes slightly widened at this and you looked at him only to see him smiling at you.
“Thank you..” He softly said, the two of you stared at each other before Jaemin finally looked away, letting go of your arms before turning around to walk away.
You were fucking confused. What was that for? For the past few weeks, he avoided you like you are the plague, but now he was… he was like the old Jaemin you met.
“O-oh.. Uh- uhm.. W-welcome?” You awkwardly said, you saw how his shoulders shake because of laughing and so you felt your cheeks heating up.
You sighed as you sit on your chair lifelessly, you spaced out staring on the book in front of you.
“Still alive?” You snapped out of your trance when you heard Jeno’s voice, flinching a little before slowly turning your head to give a questioning look to your best friend.
“Barely breathing..” You said, resting your cheeks on both of your hands, Jeno chuckled at this and stood up to ruffle your hair.
You really don’t have the energy to nag him and so you just let him mess with your hair while you stare at the tall bookshelves in front of you, sighing as every second pass by.
“Stop being dramatic, he’ll remember you in no time. Gotta go now, Jaemin seems out of it since he came back so i need to look out for him.” Jeno said, you just nod your head without looking at Jeno and when you felt his hand was gone on your head, you let your head drop on the pile of books in front of you.
“Will you ever remember me, Jaemin?”
“Hey! Still up for that lunch you promised me, princess?” you flinched hearing Haechan’s voice from behind you, you shook your head when you saw the coy smirk on his face.
“I was planning on ditching you..” you sighed as you fake a sad face on him, acting unenergized as you placed the last notebook inside your bag.
You heard him make a noise of disapproval and you lost when you saw his face morphed into something that represents as disbelief.
“You’re mean..” he muttered, frowning as he looked at you. You just laughed at him before finally closing your bag.
“Where do you want to eat?” You asked, you saw how his face glimmered as you say those words.
You were shocked when he suddenly snatched your bag away from you and slung it in his.
“I always thought your bag’s heavy and i was right. Damn, you must have gained some muscles from carrying this thing around.” Haechan groaned when he felt the weigh of your bag. You laughed at this and tapped his back.
“I guess this is where Jeno gained all of that muscles since i always see him carrying this around for the last few weeks..” He added, you puckered your lips at this and nodded your head.
“Maybe..” you said, Haechan laughed at thus before the two of you walked out of the room.
“So… place?” You asked once again as you and Haechan reached the exits.
“Why don’t we go to Taeil’s diner? I miss his greasy foods, not gonna lie..” Haechan said, your eyes glimmered at this and nodded your head with so much enthusiasm.
“Taeil's diner sounds great! I miss their cheesy bacon burger..” you said as you felt your mouth watering at the thought of Taeil’s famous cheesy bacon burger.
“Ooh, yeah! That was such a classic, i love it!” Haechan then added, you nod at this with a wide grin plastered on your face as you agree with everything he says about the foods in Taeil’s diner.
You were happily walking as the both of you talked about your own memories on that diner when a memory flashed through your head back before you were working their as a part timer.
“Hmm, i’m not so sure since this is my first time coming here.. Can you recommend something good to eat?” The guy infront of you kindly smiled as he waits for your answer.
You arched a brow at this before answering him, “Hm, i recommend cheesy bacon burger..”
“Right. I’ll take that.” He said, you nod your head at this before saying the total amount he has to pay.
He smiled at you before handing you a bill, you were about to give him his change but he beat you to it.
“That’s a tip, keep it.” He said, you were about to protest but he just took his receipt before walking away.
That’s when you started crushing to a certain guy named Na Jaemin.
“Hey, YLN. Still with me?” You snapped out of your trance when Haechan flicked his fingers in front of you, you blinked multiple times before looking at him.
“Oh, sorry.. was thinking about that one assignment that is due tomorrow..” you lied smoothly, Haechan scoffed at this before shaking his head.
“Wow, we just got off of school premises and yet you're still thinking about school works.” He said, tone laced with pure disbelief.
You just shrugged at this before chuckling, “I’m sorry that i’m such a hardworking student…?”
He just laughed at this, shaking his head before putting his arms around your shoulder to pull you closer to him, “You’re so cute, i want to keep you as my little sisterrrr.” He said the last words while pinching your cheeks.
You winced at this and was about to pull his hand off of your face when someone beat you to it.
“What are you doing?” both you and Haechan were shocked to see the guy standing beside you while holding Haechan’s hands.
He was frowning as he looked at Haechan before looking at you, “Jaemin?” His name slipped off of your mouth with a questioning tone.
“Are you hurt? Is he bothering you?” He asked, worry visible on his face as he checked on you.
You were speechless as you watch him worriedly looking at you, a hand caressing your hair as he scanned your whole body and when he looked at your eyes it’s as if something snapped inside him and took a step back, clearing his throat.
“I- i'm sorry.. i didn't know why i did that, i just..” He was stuttering as he tried to explain, you are still looking at him dumbly before Haechan stepped in between the both of you, patting Jaemin’s shoulder.
“That’s just normal, dude. I'm guessing you were worried because you think i’m hurting her?” He asked, a hand still placed on Jaemin’s shoulder as the other nod his head cluelessly.
“Her face says like she was hurting, i got worried for a moment..” He softly said, Haechan nodded at this before patting his shoulder once again.
“That’s normal.” He said once again, he looked at you before looking at Haechan, confusion visible on his face.
“What do you mean?” He asked.
“It’s because he’s your—” you knew Haechan was about to say something about you being Jaemin’s girlfriend and so you beat him to it, pulling him by the collar of his shirt.
“Nothing! It’s just normal because you thought he was hurting me, that’s normal, right?” you said, your grip on the back of Haechan’s collar tightening as you wait for his answer.
“R-right..” Haechan drawled, coughing as he tried to tap your hand that was holding the back of his collar, you looked at him and saw him having difficulty with breathing because of the tight grip and you immediately let go.
“Oh my! I’m sorry!” you immediately let go, straightening his shirt before looking at him worriedly.
“Are you alright?” You asked, worry visible on your tone as you looked at his face.
He was wincing as he massaged his throat, nodding at you, “Yeah.. I-i'm— i’m fine..”
“I’m really sorry..” you were still straightening the crumpled part of his shirt when a hand gripped your hand, pulling you away from Donghyuck.
“Hey!” You exclaimed, brows furrowed together as you look at the owner of the hand. Your face immediately softened when you saw Jaemin’s frowning face.
“Come with me?” He softly asked, you were hesitant for a moment before looking at Haechan, he smiled at you nodding softly.
You once again looked at Jaemin before looking at him, “Okay..” you weakly said, almost like a whisper.
He smiled at you before pulling you away from Haechan, you looked back to see Haechan smiling at you.
He winked at you before gesturing a kissing action with his hands, you rolled your eyes at him before sticking out your tongue.
“Bub?” you heard Jaemin called you, your head abruptly looked at him as you heard the familiar endearment slip off of his lips.
“What?” you asked, looking up at him with your eyes wide. He glanced at you for a second before looking straight again.
“Why?” He asked when he saw you looking at him with confusion painted on her face, he wanted to coo with how cute you look when confused, but he stopped himself from doing so.
“N-nothing..” you stuttered, looking away because you couldn't handle his stare anymore longer.
You always got lost with his eyes, his eyes that looked like it held the whole galaxy when looking at you, it still looked like it for a moment, but you know it’s different.. It’s different now.
“W-where are you bringing me..?” you squeaked, voice tiny as you were to shy to even stand around him because you fully know you're gonna do something stupid when you’re around him.
“To a date.” He answered bluntly, your eyes were blown wide when you heard what he said, he felt as if you got stiff and turned his head to see you looking at him with shock.
He chuckled at your reaction before he stopped walking, turning around to look at you.
He cupped your face with both of his hands, lifting it so you can look straight into his eyes.
“I thought you’re my girlfriend, why are you going with another guy? Are you two going on a date?” you were dumbfounded by his words, mouth went agape as you tried to form a coherent word.
“I… w-we.. y-you.. w-wha- what?” you wanted to slap yourself across the face with the amount of stuttering you did.
“W-what are you saying?” You said, proud with how you managed to not stutter the last words that left your lips.
“You said you’re my girlfriend then why are you going out on a date with Haechan?” he asked, voice now low as he stared straight into your eyes.
You didn't know what to feel. Confusion turned into shock before it turned into annoyance.
“You don’t even remember me, why are you acting like this?!” your voice raising as you asked him, eyes swelling up with tears as you look at him pleadingly.
“You… you don't- y-you don’t even remember me..” you breathed out, tears falling on your cheeks as you looked down.
“why…” was the only words you can say before your emotions took over your whole system.
You feel your legs getting weak and wobbly before they gave up and you ended up sitting on the ground.
Jaemin’s eyes widened before immediately wrapping an arm around you to help you stand up.
Passersby were already looking at you two with curiosity in their eyes, but you didn't care, you just cried there, letting out all the pain your heart had been enduring ever since Jaemin came back and acted like a total stranger with you.
“I.. i-i'm sorry, YN.. I’m sorry, please, let’s go.. people- baby, people are looking..” Jaemin worriedly said, he was rubbing your arms.
You sniffed, shaking your head before pushing his hands away from you. You stood up, brushing the dust away from your clothes before wiping the remaining tears on your face.
You sniffed, standing straight before looking at Jaemin dead in the eye, “Let’s talk next time..”
His mouth opened as if he wants to say something, but closed it immediately when he saw you turning around and walked away from him quickly.
“I’m sorry, YN..” he said, guilt written on his face. You nodded refusing to give a smile his way because you didn’t feel like it.
“I only get sudden flashbacks of your face.. I knew we had something, but i still need to know the rest of it because i don’t wanna go back without my memories.. I don’t wanna hurt you, bub..” Jaemin whispered into thin air as he watched you walk away from him.
He inhaled a big amount of oxygen, holding it in for a moment before heaving it all out as he watched you slowly disappear from his sight. He sadly smiled before turning the other way to walk back towards the campus.
“Hey, YN.” You flinched hearing someone whisper in your ear, you turned your head and saw Haechan standing near your table. You just hummed in response before my gaze went back to the open book you were holding.
“Can I sit here?” He asked, you just nodded eyes still trained on the words that were printed on the paper, trying your very best to understand what it says. Haechan pulled a chair to sit beside you before leaning in as he was about to whisper something, instinctively, you leaned in too.
“Are you coming to my party?” He whispered, your forehead creased finally closing the book as you turned your head. The gap between your faces was so close, but you didn’t budge because this was a frequent thing happening when you were still dating Jaemin.
“Party? When?” You asked, brows scrunching together as you looked at him in confusion. He just smiled at you, that smile that would brighten someone's day just by seeing it.
You opened your mouth, ready to blabber some nonsensical reason just so you don’t have to attend his party, but he suddenly stood up not giving you the chance to talk.
“Uh, tonight?" He said, you just raised a brow at him which made him break into a chuckle. “You’re cute, the party starts at 9 pm, but if you wanna be shitfaced before the party then you can come earlier.”
“See you later, sweetheart.” He said, standing up as he threw you a wink and when he saw how you grimace he just chuckled leaving you alone.You sighed, slouching as you rested your elbows on the table rubbing your temples as you feel your frustrations hitting you once again, you stopped when you felt your cell phone vibrate against the table.
It’s a text from Haechan. You huffed, opening his message immediately.
“Are you sure you're going to that party?” Jeno asked again for the nth time as he followed you around while you went back and forth inside your room and back to the bathroom.
Haechan: You need to come, okay? Jaemin wants you there. See u, princess. :)
You sighed hearing the question again, you groaned as you saw him about to open his mouth. You were so sure he was gonna ask the same thing again.
“Jeno, how many times do I have to tell you ‘I'm sure’!? Do you want me to translate it to other languages!?” you exclaimed, glaring at your best friend who was shocked at your reaction before raising both of his hands in defeat.
“Okay! Chill! Just wanna make sure..” He mumbled under his breath, you just snorted at this before continuing on doing your makeup.
You just opted for a light one since you don’t really feel like doing something dark because you might end up crying at the end of the night and you don't want to go home looking ugly with your smudged make-up all over your face.
You laughed to yourself as you tried to reason out why you don’t want to wear dark make-up when in fact you just don’t feel like applying heavy layers of makeup on your face.
But Jaemin’s there and you will be there and remembering how you lashed out at him earlier that week, it might happen again tonight because according to Haechan: Jaemin wants you there.
“Dude, one second you're laughing then the next you look like you’re about to cry any moment. Are you sure you want—”
“Jeno..” you called his name sternly, he immediately shut his lips.
“Can you please get my earrings on my nightstand? It’s just there, you’ll see it quickly.” you asked nicely, smiling at your best friend before looking back at the mirror in front.
You really just said that just because you wanted to kick him out of the bathroom since you know he’ll just annoy the hell out of you and will ask the same question the whole time you do your make up.
When you’re done doing your makeup you got out of the bathroom to check on your best friend and saw him still looking for your earrings on your nightstand.
You laughed as you walked towards Jeno, patting him on the back. He looked at you with wide eyes and a pout on his face.
“I can’t find your earrings..” He mumbled under his breath. You smiled, lifting a hand to pinch his cheek before shaking your head.
“It’s fine, I'll just wear another pair.” you said going to your dressing table to open the drawer where you put all of your accessories.
You immediately found a perfect pair that matches your look and wore it before looking at the mirror one last time to check how you look.
You giddily turned around, gesturing yourself to your best friend before asking, “How do I look?”
“Pretty as always..” He boredly answered before looking away, you giggled at this before standing on your tippy toes to give him a quick kiss on the cheek before gripping on his arm as you pulled him excitedly.
“Let’s go! I haven’t attended parties for a long time. I’m excited to have funnnn!”
“Yeah, sure. Funnn~” Jeno unenthusiastically cheered after you. You just laughed at him before pulling him out of your apartment.
“Hey, where are you going?” Jeno asked you when he saw that you were starting to walk away from him right after you arrived in the party.
“I'm gonna go get a drink! You want one?” you asked, shouting as the loud music started blaring all throughout the entire house.
Jeno just nodded his head before shouting back at you, “I’m just gonna go greet some of our friends. I’ll be waiting for you in the living room!”
You just nodded at this, showing him an okay sign before the both of you started walking to your destinations.
You were having a hard time pushing through the sea of people that’s been blocking your way, some of them way too drunk to be bothered by your struggle.
A drunk girl suddenly took a step back, not noticing you who was standing behind her as she was laughing carelessly for whatever the fuck reason it is and stepped on your foot.
She was wearing stilettos and that only worsened the pain you got from her stepping on your foot.
“Fuck!” You hissed, pushing the girl unconsciously as you gripped on your foot that’s been stepped on.
The girl didn't seem to notice what ruckus she had caused and continued laughing, you just glared at her before looking at your aching feet.
You tried walking but failed because of the pain, and the fact that you were also wearing high heels isn’t helping.
So, how are you supposed to go to the kitchen? Jump with one foot? If you can successfully jump your way to the kitchen with one foot while wearing high heels without falling flat on your face then you must be lucky.
You bit your lip, contemplating whether to push through your plan of jumping with one foot or ask someone to help you to walk you to the kitchen when a hand suddenly made its way under your thighs and the other wrapping around your waist.
“Hold tight, pretty girl.” Your eyes widened hearing Jaemin’s familiar voice, you immediately looked at his eyes to confirm your suspicion and when your eyes met he just threw you a wink and smirked afterwards.
“I thought you were gonna go with Jeno..” He whispered, glancing at you before looking back straight to avoid bumping onto people.
You were just staring at his face, confusion written all over your face.
Just last week he was avoiding you like the plague and these past few days he’s all over you.. What is happening?
You were brought back to reality when you heard a clicking of a door and when you looked around, you realized that you were inside a bathroom.
“W-what are we doing here?” You asked, eyes still roaming around the room as you refused to do eye contact with Jaemin.
He placed you on the sink, “Hm, let me see your foot. It might be bruised or worst wounded.”
He kneeled in front of you, slowly taking off your heels before examining your now bruised foot.
“I saw that girl's heels and damn it looks like you can stab someone with it..” He muttered, looking up at you. You immediately shifted your gaze when your eyes met and he chuckled at this, looking back at your feet.
“This bruise looks so bad, baby..” He mumbled, eyes focused on the bruise on your feet.
You felt your cheeks heating up as you heard the endearment, it’s not like you were new to this kind of endearments coming out from Jaemin’s mouth since he’s been calling you different endearments, but it felt like this was new to you since… technically, this isn’t your Jaemin.
You bit your lower lip, trying to stop yourself from talking as you watches him examine your bruise.
He lifted his gaze to look at you, you’ve been avoiding his gaze for the past few days but not this time. You held eye contact with him and before you know it, he already kissed you in the forehead.
“I missed you..” He murmured against your skin.
You closed your eyes, relishing at the comfort he’s giving you as you bask in his familiar scent. You knew that this was still the same Jaemin that doesn't remember you, but there’s nothing wrong with assuming things once in a while right?
He’s still your Jaemin afterall.
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