Army life Blog

My Fiance is serving in the British Army and this is about the real affects it has on us x

[anarmyguysfiance]

It's hard!!

The worst bit is after having a huge argument the wifi runs out and you dont hear from them till the next day. In that 24 hours crying constantly incase they are going to leave you, dreading what they are going to say when you next hear from them. Cant have a conversation about them without bursting into tears (from someone who doesnt normally cry in front of people). Not being able to sleep. Not being able to eat. The fear of them breaking up with you is strong. After all it would be a lot easier for them to do it when they are thousands of miles away. But then getting to hear from them the day later and you manage to sort things out to then not be able to speak to them for 3 days and all you've got is to hope that things are sorted and you will both make it...

[anarmyguysfiance]

Bit of a funny one!

[anarmyguysfiance]

So happy right now!!

So tonight isnt much of a blog but just thought I'd share some exciting news. My fiance was keeping his r&r a secret so he could surprise me but hes told me he will be here in time for our anniversary!!! I GET TO SEE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IN JUST UNDER 6 WEEKS!!!!! I dont think its fully hit me as I know the army can change things last minute but even that hope has made me so lucky. It may only be for 10 days but that's enough for me! I'm so fricken excited and so happy. We've been able to video chat the last two nights because he is somewhere at the minute with more wifi and it's so nice to be able to just have a gossip and laugh about anything because we arent so restricted to wifi (he gets 9gb a wifi a month where he is just now). Such a happy girl 💕

- A x

[anarmyguysfiance]

[anarmyguysfiance]

No one tells you...

No one tells you what to expect, no one tells you that you will cry yourself to sleep every night, no one will tell you how paranoid you will get that they will leave you, no one tells you that you'll feel empty, no one tells you that you will be glued to your phone in the hope to hear from them, no one will tell you about the sleepless nights you will have, no one will tell you that your sleeping pattern will be messed up, no one tells you that you will forget to eat, no one tells you that you will cry that hard you will throw up. These are all emotions you learn for yourself and wonder how to deal with them, most of the time we deal with them ourselves. For a lot of us its hard to open up to others because we will just get shut down with 'that's what you get for being with someone in the forces' etc. Some of us feel like if we open up then our significant other will think we are struggling too much and it will put pressure on them and the relationship. We have to be the rock but who do we turn to? Who do we talk to? Who's shoulder do we cry on? I've got friends but I still feel like I cant open up to them, even if they are going through the same experience. Opening up is hard. Making yourself vulnerable is hard! We count down the days till the missing piece in our hearts is back, till our right hand is back. We have to survive on strength, hope and love and each day hope that that is enough!

- A x

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“Your boyfriend belongs to you, mine belongs to the military. You complain you haven’t seen him in a few hours, I will go months on end without seeing him. You haven’t heard from him in a couple hours, I will go weeks without hearing from him. You get mad and ignore his calls, I would do anything for just 5 minutes. You take him for granted, I don’t.”

— Military Girlfriend

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I had a good day, but you stayed on my mind. I wish you were here so I could tell you about it.

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Isn’t that true!

[anarmyguysfiance]

Always and forever, for as long as you'll have me 💕

[anarmyguysfiance]

It's not all bad

Hello everyone, so as my last post was kind of a bit doom and gloom I thought I'd share the good parts to because there is plenty. So tonight I got a random video chat from my fiance and I became like a little school girl again, jumped up and down in my seat. That feeling was amazing. Yes it was only a 20 minute video call and the signal was awful but I really dont care. Just getting to see his face and hear his voice was AMAZING!! He is growing a moustache whilst deployed but let's not go there 😂. Its amazing just to know that even though you're thousands of miles away you are still on their mind. I wish I had some notice because I had been at the gym and looked a mess but he doesnt seem to care! A simple random video call can make you remember why you're doing this, yes it's hard but it's so so worth it in the end. Saying goodbye is always the worst, never knowing when the next time he can video chat is the worst but right now I'm happy because I got to speak to him! Hope you're all having a good night 💕

- A x

[anarmyguysfiance]

This is why we do this! 💕💕

[anarmyguysfiance]

The truth

Yes we knew what we were getting ourselves into but does that make things any easier?! NO! It's hard only getting a couple messages a day. Not getting to tell each other how your day is. Not getting to have a proper conversation with each other. Not getting to see each other whether it's in person or via a video chat. Feeling distant. Feeling like you're single again. Feeling fearful that they will end things. It's hard keeping the love going. It's hard to feel close while you're thousands of miles apart. Sleep? You can forget about that. If you're not waiting up in the hope of hearing from them then it's because you're crying because you miss them so bad. It's not being able to sleep in your own bed because it doesnt feel the same without them. It's not eating consistently because your routine is completely messed up and you're not used to cooking just for yourself. It's not eating because you feel so sick because you're upset. When they get deployed it feels like you've lost a bit of yourself. You've lost your safety net because you only feel safe in their presence. It can cause you to become lazy when it comes to you keeping up your appearance. Overall we dont enjoy them being away but why do we do it? Because we love them so much. Because we are supporting them in their career. Because they are our life and our future. We have to be their rock when they are away but who is our rock?

[anarmyguysfiance]

Introduction

Hello everyone, now I dont know if anyone will follow my blog but I'm going to try post as much as I can. I'm engaged to someone who's currently deployed abroad with the Army. For people who have never experienced it we always get told 'you knew what you were getting yourself into' and that's true but it doesnt make things any easier. I'm going to be posting how it can really affect a spouse/family member and I hope some of you can relate to this. If you have anything youd like to send for me to post then please feel free! We've all got to stick together 💕

-A x