Angelayn

Journal and Stationery Enthusiast | Ph Instagram: @art.gelayn

[art-gelayn]

Hello! Welcome to my blog!

I mostly post journal and art related content, but I do have some more random stuff in here. I'm trying to expand my interests through this platform, but only time will tell.

Feel free to browse through or message me (if you want). Some of my journal content can be found with the tag art.gelayn You can also follow me on Instagram

Take care and good luck!

[velvetnightgallery]

Flowers from Shakespeare's garden: a posy from the plays (1909) illustrated by Walter Crane

Part II

[depsidase]

[awriterinthenight]

support your local library!

[art-gelayn]

I want more accessible libraries in the Philippines. There are libraries here but most of them are only open during the weekdays, at office hours. I want bigger libraries that are accessible and open to the public.

[stuckinapril]

Always always always tell people you love they are so smart and capable. I will die on this hill. More often than not people are raised in unforgiving environments that tell them they are inherently “stupid” and not good enough for things, whether that be parents or cruel bosses or unsupportive friends. An underrated way of supporting people is reminding them they are brilliant no matter what anyone has ever said about their intellect and potential. People can do wonders when it’s affirmed to them their limiting beliefs are just that: limiting beliefs.

[neozhelps]

ㅤㅤㅤ✧ﾠ—ﾠ⋆ ﾠ BUTTERFLY PNGs PART TWO.

from pinterest.

[pixiecorpse]

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[vixvigil]

it’s never a normal temperature anymore it’s always some fucking bullshit

[rosslynpaladin]

I need you young people to know it was almost never this hot when I was a child. Millennials and Gen Xers are all nostalgic and excited about summer because it was about ten to twenty degrees cooler to experience it back then!

I cannot express to you how FAST it has gone. I grew up in a world that does not exist now. We're starting on the path to reverse it, globally. You might not know how much solar has EXPLODED in the last decade or two. It's gone from a side thing, a weirdo novelty that was just Not Viable... to whole countries investing in infrastructure. but we have to keep fighting big oil and fascism everywhere we can in order to keep on this road to a new better less scorching burning earth.

But any time you wonder wtf the weather is doing- THIS IS NOT NORMAL, NO. THIS IS NOT WHAT IT WAS EVEN TWENTY YEARS AGO.

[slipng]

꧁❤︎ᩙhollyhocks collection꧂

Hollyhock; symbol of compassion, patience and healing.

[art-gelayn]

Feeling lonely is not new to me. But sometimes it hits harder than most days. After I've just finished a journal spread and I think of sharing it to other people, but then I remember my friends won't appreciate how much effort I've put on that spread, because they don't do journal spreads. I think of making art collages and sketching besides other people who do the same but then I remember I don't know a lot of people with the same hobby. I know one or two but they are busy and they live far away from me.

I've always had this sinking feeling that I'm different. With the internet I've found people who are also like me. But sometimes I still yearn for that physical distance. That tactile feeling of someone being close, with that eye contact saying, I get you. I understand.

[asoftwrongness]

BENEFITS OF BUYING MY ART FOR YOURSELF OR A FRIEND:

- You’ll have walls decorated in unique collages made by a real human person and not produced by some AI overlord

- My fine art prints are high quality, vibrantly colored, and large enough to be able to pore over the subtle details in a way that’s hard to achieve through a tiny phone screen

- You will be supporting a small business and not a huge faceless corporation!!!

- The small business meaning literally just me, an independent artist attempting to pay my bills and put food on the table

- Which in turn allows me to continue making and sharing my art and connecting with so many lovely people like yourself

If any of that sounds good to you,

visit my shop here!

[spiceupyourfcknife]

Jennifers body is a masterpiece and ill die on that hill

[art-gelayn]

Same

[pawpsiclesncarrots]

ZOOTOPIA 2 (2025): They're so Rapunzel/Eugene coded!

[housegoblin]

some sticker sheets I designed recently! These will all be available at TCAF :3

[inkskinned]

i was the exception to the rule. i should be the ambassador of the american dream. i did it all right.

we were dirt poor. my parents sacrificed a lot so i could be in an area where the schools were exceptional. we all bootstrapped. i paid my own way through college and grad school. i have student debt, but not a lot of it. it took me a long time and a lot of jobs and working and connections and luck and all of it.

now i make good money at a good (remote!) job with pretty good health insurance. I have vision and dental. they even offer pet insurance and 6 free meetings with a therapist. i work with an exceptionally sweet manager, i like my team, and i don't mind the job. i make much more than some of my friends.

so why the fuck can't i afford to eat.

i looked it up. ten years ago, my current salary would amount to 106 thousand american dollars. it was "well over" median wage.

my position's base salary (according to what i could find) has only increased by about 3 thousand dollars. after all, the work has not changed drastically. estimates say that for me to live "comfortably" in this city, i'd need to be making 139,776 dollars a year, before taxes. i am making half of that.

i always bristle when someone on the other side says something about how we just don't want to work, how it's really about me and my failure to succeed. that i need to be pushier, flashier, better; and then capitalism will work out for me.

in the car yesterday, she said that america is probably fucked. that the amount of damage trump is doing to america is largely permanent. i have difficulty arguing with her. prices went up during the pandemic, and then they just - stayed there. i want to believe in the inevitable rise of the human spirit (you know i'm an optimist) but the truth of the matter feels like a smeared handprint - i have no proof it gets easier.

elon musk becomes or unbecomes a trillionaire. we spend billions of dollars in a pointless war. health insurance companies kill people in cold blood. ai "takes over" jobs; assigns you a random number score for your resume so you are automatically rejected by the system. you're fired to make more profit for the shareholders; they rehire someone else for half of your pay. the government spends millions of dollars to destroy national monuments. the white house needs a ballroom. the fbi just posted that they can preemptively arrest someone for domestic terrorism for "extreme" beliefs about america. when i went to go check my facts about that - i found that the this fucking government website has an email sign-up popup that covers the entire page & i literally could not figure out how to close it.

so yeah, the price of eggs is not going to go down. the cost of RAM is not going to go down. why would it. in the free market, without regulation, all the companies really need to worry about is how else they can bleed a stone.

sometimes when people my age make fun of gen z or gen alpha for being unwilling to work; i think about the lie we've been telling them. because i am not an unusual case. so fucking many of us did it "right". so many of us put our heads down and agreed to the terms and conditions. this was how you do it, right.

almost none of my friends own a house. all of us are in our 30s.

it's apocryphal and likely didn't happen as written, but the myth goes that when Marie Antoinette was told that the general population was starving and had no bread to eat; her chipper reply was so let them eat cake.

there's a 250 foot ferris wheel breaking down on the national mall right now. i can't afford gas, but whatever. our nation's birthday is coming.

i am told to keep trying. do the impossible. solve the puzzle, open the portal. coupon your way to success, high yield savings, skip the coffee break. hustle harder, show up early, leave late. the problem is you, right. it's how you're living life. just keep going!

look forward to the cake.

[art-gelayn]

This is very... Well depressing and eye opening. I live in a third world country. I have a good job - I get paid more than my friends and there's a lot to do but I enjoy doing it. However - I'm very sad. Dealing with clinical depression, struggling to manage my diet and afford healthy food to manage my weight, chronic pain and not being able to go to the doctor because I'm tired, money is tight and I don't have time. I don't have lots of connections and I know the rumors that when u come from an exclusive high-end private university then you'll have a better salary. But I wasn't able to afford that and I'm too tired to manage a scholarship. Thinking about my tools and clothes and what to buy for practicality and convenience but balancing it out with the money I have and waiting for price drops and sales.

I'm tired. Almost all of my life is spent barely surviving. Life is better now than before. I'm now medicated and diagnosed. I go to therapy. I can make art semi-daily and be able to journal. I have friends and a loving partner.

But I'm still tired.

[bronzewasp]

• the back of cards

sorry for not posting in a while i’ve run out of ideas for the moment

[art-gelayn]

This is going to be heavy. The guy I've been dating for almost 6 years now, tried to force me to do an intimate act with him. I said no. He was sulking and begging. He held my body as if to force me into a certain position. It wasn't a violent act. I thought he was being playful. But I felt pressured - like my decision didn't matter. Like his arousal is my responsibility.

He told me he realized his mistake. He told me his action led me to have some form of trauma. He acknowledges it.

But acknowledgement is not the same as acceptance. It is not the same as changed behavior.

Trust does not easily grow after it has been trampled on for some time now.

[catrocketship]

bodies are just bodies. you can't mess up having a body.

[art-gelayn]

I'd like to add that even if there is no 'wrong' way to have a body - there are definitely ways to harm your body