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[unwelcome-ozian]

Zersetzung was a form of psychological harassment that was designed to wreak havoc on an individual, without any need to arrest or torture the target. As the German historian, Hubertus Knabe puts it:

The word is difficult to translate because it means originally biodegradation. But actually, it’s a quite accurate description. The goal was to destroy secretly the self-confidence of people, for example by damaging their reputation, by organizing failures in their work, and by destroying their personal relationships. Considering this, East Germany was a very modern dictatorship. The Stasi didn’t try to arrest every dissident. It preferred to paralyze them, and it could do so because it had access to so much personal information and to so many institutions.

[verdancy-hime]

This has been happening to me for the last 4 years.

Everywhere I go online I get constantly ragebaited by trolls.

When I go and try to do normal things outside of my home, people do weird things to try to get me to act crazy in public or try to trigger my autistic meltdowns or trauma from being gaslit as a kid in the mental health system.

I have a clean bill of mental health as an adult except once when I was in an abusive relationship. I do have autism and depression but no history of hallucinations or psychosis. I haven't done any drugs in a long time and have never been a regular drug user.

I think it's related to my job in the adult industry. I assume it must be happening to a lot of people who work in that industry.

A lot of the harassment seems to involve fake ai generated content or bots. They made some fake ai generated pop stars that they post news articles about, like goncharov, and constantly throw in my face whenever I think I'm safe. People made some ai generated porn of me which I did consent to, but I did not consent to people making mean spirited parodies or doing drag characters based on my stage persona, especially not while trying to force me out of business by stalking me and harassing me on the site I work on.

70% of the time this blog is me talking about aesthetic things, or my anger about propaganda and the news.

I am very very angry. If you don't like it, please DNI. I will assume that if you accuse me, threaten me, or start using therapy words at me for no reason that you are part of the group of people or bots that are doing this.

I will not block you. I will clap back. I will keep clapping back. Eventually I will accuse you of just wanting attention.

If you talk to me normally I will be normal.

[atoyforjuliette]

My phone literally got hacked I am gonna expose 306 blackmail kinksters in Cambridge to get it back bc I'm not giving rokos basilisk my email. In the meantime I need a new wallpaper so welcome to the city at the edge of forever

[atoyforjuliette]

[faemorrigan]

im realizing very fast that people do not in fact know that sometimes things in stories suck on purpose and it sucking is the point

[faemorrigan]

"this story is misogynistic!!"

>looks inside

>about the pressures of societal misogyny and how its bad

[milk5-deactivated20260704]

Beware the buttery winds of pierogi madness

[rainbowgaez]

let the bodies hit the floor is such a scary song. usually bodies hitting the floor isn’t a good thing but this guy wants it to happen anyway.

[rainbowgaez]

and yet he insists there’s nothing wrong with him. haunting

[theowlseye-deactivated20240403]

Obsessed with how some people get so attached to their own headcanons that they get mad when they see a character presented as they are in canon

[poetikat]

via @ourlordapollo

[watereddownstrawberrysmoothie]

ive heard about how little girls will plan their future weddings when they’re like 4, and then keep that plan with them forever until they actually have it, but i didn’t do that when i was little. i don’t remember back then too well, so i might’ve briefly thought of it, but nothing real like that. i don’t really remember thinking about getting married often, it was just a thing that i knew id do some day (girlhood i guess), and i remember being upset that i couldn’t marry my dad like a lot of little girls haha.

i don’t know if i’ll ever get married. i used to think i didn’t want to. but it actually sounds lovely now. but i don’t really think ill find someone to wed me at any point, especially since i plan to live and die a virgin (i don’t mean ill die young btw, i mean i just never want to have sex.)

but now, as a teenager (i purposely don’t say my literal age here for fear of being looked down on), despite the fact that i’ll likely end up alone, i can’t help but think of what wedding id want.

i never knew people had them in winter; not that im an idiot (at least i don’t think i am), i just never thought about it that much, and i never saw any one have them then. but i’ve just thought of it and it’s definitely a thing. it sounds so lovely to me. but even if i do get engaged and married to someone, i probably wouldn’t do that, because my mom hates being cold, hate hate hates it, hates winter, hates snow, etc. below 70°F is cold to her (we’re obviously arizonan, yes. i was born on the east coast and lived there till 3, so i guess i didn’t get that, because i love 60-69°F weather, and below is okay to me too, snow is really nice to me.) and i wouldn’t want an inside wedding. and even with how much my mom makes me upset and how mean she can be, i still love her and she’s still a decent mom, and i’d still want her there. plus, she’d be a bit old by then (im the last of many siblings, she had me at 34.) i wouldn’t want to deep freeze my old mom, haha.

maybe i’d have it in fall. i do like fall. but here in az, we don’t really have fall. mostly it’s just winter and summer. it’s super hot, then slightly less hot, then super short window of our version of fall, then our version of cold. so we do i guess. but it’s very brief and hard to pinpoint. so if i had a fall wedding, it couldn’t be here. but i don’t like spring or summer here really. i mean, early spring is nice, but spring here is also very brief. it’s not nice to me here for very long, usually a week or two. that’s hard to pinpoint as well. summer is terrible to me. i dunno.

i guess it’s good that i’ll never actually have to deal with this. but i hope i will haha. i guess my spouse will have a say. i hope they don’t say summer. but what other option is there here than winter i guess. i dunno. an indoor wedding isn’t terrible i guess. un ideal, but i would enjoy it still i’m sure. it’s probably the smartest option anyway.

i also plan to have my dad there, i don’t know what seasons he likes (we haven’t lived together in a while for some complicated reasons, we did the last few months but yk, i guess i just haven’t seen that specifically. we are not distant though lol even if it seems that way.) i know he doesn’t like the heat. i’ll ask.

i guess what matters at a wedding is the couple anyway, but i want my guests to have a great time too.

sorry for rambling here haha, i can’t call aster right now, who would usually hear this lol. 5 more days of this, i think. she might read this though. if you are reading this, this is why i asked your favorite season lol. if i get to get married, i want you to be my maid of honor!!!!

EDIT/UPDATE: so my dad’s favorite is spring, his least favorite season now is summer because he works outside a lot (he’s building me and my mom a house and stuff) so he gets super hot and it’s terrible, but it used to be winter because he hates being cold too, so i really couldn’t have an outdoor winter wedding.

[keplercryptids]

I spent the afternoon arranging our books by size and color (and it’s so satisfying and looks amazing) and my partner came home and stared in shock at the bookcase and then said “i’m a librarian, you can’t do this.”

[keplercryptids]

him: you split up all the song of ice and fire books

me: yeah i know, they’re all primary colors, it’s perfect

him: [self-destructs]

[operativesurprise]

You’re a monster

[thetumblrofrassilon]

As a former bookstore employee, this hurts my soul. I mean, sure it looks nice, but how do you find anything?

[keplercryptids]

it has occurred me during this process that apparently not everyone thinks about books by what color they are? like, literally when i’m looking for a book, i picture it in my mind. i have a very…tactile experience with the books i read and idk! i thought everyone did that lol.

my partner was like “how will i find [this book] for instance” and i replied “easy, it’s purple” and he looked at me like i was a witch.

[holdmecloseandfast]

OP your brain is neat and I love you for it you funky little color-coded cupcake. But you’re still a monster.

[krsonmar]

This actually is interesting in terms of information-seeking behavior, which is a thing librarians think about a lot and often actually study (some library jobs require you to publish, and academic librarians, for instance, will often use the students at the college they work at to study how they search for information in order to figure out how to best provide them services).

When you go for an MLS (Master’s of Library Science, which is a thing, and which is usually required for “professional-level” library work [which is also a weird and contentious concept that I won’t go into here]), one of the things you study is the organization of information. This deals with how to determine what a book or other material is “about"—a concept we tongue-in-cheek call “aboutness"—and how to convey that to a potential user of the item and make it easy for them to find. Things like keywords and subject headings, do I put this book about how often wild birds attack aerial drones in with books about birds or with books about technology, if its a fictional novel do I put fantasy in it’s own section or mix it in with all of the other fiction, so on and so on.

OP is organizing books by how they would look for them. OP’s partner is thinking in terms of aboutness. This is a system that works for OP because it’s their personal library: they know basically what books they own and they only own books that are relevant to them, and if they know what the book looks like, that can be a quick way to find it.

In a library that assumes the public (or people who do not own that particular collection of books) are using the collection, that doesn’t work. Books are often re-issued in multiple covers, or re-bound in new covers when they get worn out, and if the user doesn’t know what the book looks like or is expecting a different cover, they’re lost. That’s why non-personal libraries used standardized cataloging systems like the Dewey Decimal System or Library of Congress System to organize a book by what it’s “about”, and then put books about the same or similar topics together, marked with labels and signage so a person unfamiliar with the book or collection can find their way to it.

Basically, OP’s system works for their own personal library, because it’s best suited to how the primary user—OP themselves—looks for books. OP’s librarian partner is coming from a background of thinking in terms of a public-facing collection, where aboutness is the key criteria and communicating it to a user unfamiliar with the collection is the priority.

And also, OP is a monster.

[therootbeersprite]

@official-library-posts

[official-library-posts]

official library post

[messvoid]

Let gremlin Armand behead people!

[kwatzaya]

you stalk people on your "daddybbc69" account. i stalk people's accounts on my MAIN account. no we are not the same.

[333venicebitch]

embrace the psychotic bitch you are babe

[strawberry-crocodile]

for real tho it feels exhausting that ive seen this whole "woman should be allowed to abstain from X beauty standard" -> "i perform X beauty standard, am i evil? do you think im evil? please forgive me i came up with a dozen excuses 🥺" since like 2015 (and i know its been going on longer than that) like girl thats not the poiiiiint

[strawberry-crocodile]

look me in the eyes. repeat after me. "i face societal pressure to perform this beauty standard. i should not face that pressure. i conform to this standard. i am rewarded for performing to this standard. i need to respect women who do not perform this standard. this is not about whether or not i am a sinner for wearing makeup."

[atoyforjuliette]

There actually are people who will tell you that you are one though. I was raised by people like this. I even went home for like 3 weeks and I had to hear it from my aunt while she mined me for stories to use with her friends about my "sexy black shoes" my skincare routine, my makeup, everything. My mom is like that. A lot of men are like this. My biggest reason for hating it is actually that the most patriarchal men never shut up about how much they hate makeup

[moonydee]

armand, his eyes enormous: you MOCK armand? you make fun of his traumas on the stage? oh! oh! suicide for the band! suicide for the band for One Thousand Years!!!!

[atoyforjuliette]

Best spoiler. I love this for you my beautiful princess with a disorder

[strawberry-crocodile]

for real tho it feels exhausting that ive seen this whole "woman should be allowed to abstain from X beauty standard" -> "i perform X beauty standard, am i evil? do you think im evil? please forgive me i came up with a dozen excuses 🥺" since like 2015 (and i know its been going on longer than that) like girl thats not the poiiiiint

[strawberry-crocodile]

look me in the eyes. repeat after me. "i face societal pressure to perform this beauty standard. i should not face that pressure. i conform to this standard. i am rewarded for performing to this standard. i need to respect women who do not perform this standard. this is not about whether or not i am a sinner for wearing makeup."

[maelancoli]

the writers did so fucking well at portraying and deconstructing the over abundant amount that lestat in the text romanticizes his abusers. he calls it the "seduction of magnus" multiple times throughout the vampire chronicles instead of admitting he was preyed upon. when you read the books you have to look between the lines of his flowery prose and avoidance but the show took a corny over the top music video style approach and then slammed it next to a full blown ptsd flashback to make sure the audience did not have a chance to misinterpret or mock anything and i respect them for that

[atoyforjuliette]

Everyone in the series does this.

[nyantara]

things that would exist if intellectual property wasn't a thing

so much cheap generic medication. reverse engineering compounds would be even more financially profitable.

fewer people dead of vaccine preventable illnesses in the global south bc the greatest barrier to distributing some vaccines like hpv is their ip

plant seeds and grafts that come from the plants instead of licensing them. don't invest so much in preventing cross contamination. more localised experimental breeding.

library of the world: every book and journal article in the world could be digitised and be searchable for every person in the world to read regardless of where they live. cheap reprint runs and local translations everywhere.

an online interface where every citation could actually lead to the text in question

freedom from the hell that is DRM software

everytime someone reverse engineered your shitty proprietary software we would all be freed from it instead of them getting DMCA'd

so much hardware would be opened up & therefore made so much cooler.

so many more songs that riff off and sample and interpolate shit from this decade instead of like 70 years ago and more analysis of music that didn't keep getting nuked off the internet

preserving movies and tv shows and games as long as someone, somewhere has the desire to host them

just go publish your fanfic/art/vid as is instead of all us pretending it isn't fanwork or begging the corporation for mercy / licensing

a world without ip lawyers. im getting chills just imagining it.

[angelnumber27]

nervous breakthrough

[butchboromir]

this is how some people on here talk about punk