I did death to my own life.
-C.H.

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I did death to my own life.
-C.H.
Are you
Dead
Inside
Do you
Need to
Hide
Just to
Finally
Try
When you
Want to
Die
Mentally
I'm dead
Physically
I'm alive
My body
Is
Working
Fine but
I only
Think to
Ask why
Right now
I am
Actually
Sick
A common
Cold
Or some
Other
Shit
That'll
Pass
And I'm
Also on
My period
So the
Red demon
Is here
And so are
My internal
Ones
And none
Are alone
They're a
Whole trio
Sitting on
Their
Thrones
No remorse
No regrets
They let me
Rest
Occasionally
But I
Digress
I'm dead
On the
Inside
Outside
I'm dying
My blood
Is leaving
My body
And my
Mental
State is
Really
Declining
Hardships
For us
All
I guess
It's not a
Test
Just to
Let you
Know
That's just
How life
Is and it
Is horrible
I hate it
I don't feel
Right
Nothing
Feels right
The whole
World is
Just
Existing
Barely doing
That
I hate
Feeling
Like this
But this
Feeling
This eternal
Wrongness
Always
Seems to
Come back
I don't feel
Alive
Nothing
Feels alive
Nothing feels
Alright or
Normal
It's all
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong
-C.H.
One more
Look and
You will
See
There are
People
Waiting
For me
I'm trying
To stand
Tall
So that
They don't
Know
I'll stand
Tall for
Forty years
Or so
Can't let
Them see
That I'm
Falling
Down
Can't let
Them see
That I'm
Crawling
Through
Can't let
Them see
That those
People
Waiting
For me
Are
Depending
On me
Expecting
Me to
Do
To do
Um
I don't
Know
I'm standing
Tall but
What is
It that
You want
From me
I'm standing
Tall but
I don't
Understand
Why I have
To plead
My case
I'm trying
To stand
Tall but
I only ever
Seem to
Fall
I'm still
Trying
To stand
Tall but
I really
Need to
Fall
I'm sorry
I can't stand
Tall
I know
It was
Important
To you
I haven't
A clue
As to
What me
Standing
Tall had
To do
With you
But I
Tried to
Stand tall
I really
Tried to
Stand tall
But the
Only thing
To trust
Is the
Fall
I swear
I tried
To stand
Tall but
I fell
Before
It all
-C.H.
Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!
Yayyyyyy!
-C.H
Is it my words, or just how they're written?
Is it the fact that I rarely use punctuation?
You tell me because I can't tell you.
Nor can I say if my thoughts are ever true.
True to my soul they may be, but not typically things
That are whispered in the trees.
Lovely is what I know them to seem,
But that's only to me and I haven't a clue what anyone else thinks.
My words are scarcely liked and that is okay,
But I still find myself to wonder if it is due to
What they are saying, how they are said, how people read them,
How people understand them, or if it's just how they are placed.
I haven't a clue what to say when my heart is not stated.
My mind will continue. It races and it races.
No need to hurry or feel bad not to read.
I'd simply like to inquire as to why there's such a scarcity.
-C.H.
My poems
Are narrow
As I want
To be
Thin and
Skinny
Magnificently
Pretty
I love to
Skip lines
And spaces
Just move
Onto the
Next
Punctuation is
Rarely needed
When I
Consider
My writings
An abstract
Mess
Take it
As you will
And read
It in your
Head
Because
No one
Will truly
Understand
What these
Words mean
To you
Or what
They mean
To me
When said
-C.H.
I know
You are
Forever
Asleep
And in a
State of
Eternal
Slumber
But I am
Not
So I will
Continue
To say
Goodnight
Because
Though you
Are gone
You still
Deserve to
Have a
Goodnight
And a
Peaceful
Rest
-C.H.
To anyone
Who ever
Thought
I'd be
Somebody:
You were
Wrong
Fuck you
Fuck you
For giving
Me hope
When I
Was right
Not to
Have any
-C.H.
I want to
Fall
Down a well
Break my
Neck
And go
To Hell
Hug a tree
And hit
My knees
Scratch my
Eyes
Out of
My head
Sink
Below into
My bed
Blow my
Mind
With a
Gun
Run downhill
Fly above
Like a
Wingless
Bird
Talk to
A wall
Just to
Share
Fall off
A cliff
Into a
Swamp
Remind
Myself
That
Everything
Ends with
A
Womp
Womp
-C.H.
HAHAHAHAHA
None of my
Friends
Read my
Words
My deep
Totally
Insightful
Words
On
Here
So I shall
Enjoy the
Freedom
HAHAHAHAHA
I feel very evil
I'm also very
Happy right
Now because
Today is a
Good day
So far
Whenever days
Start like
This
They always
End up
Getting so
Much worse
I really hope
Nothing bad
Happens
But there
Is some
Foreshadowing
That I recall
From yesterday
So we shall
See
I guess
We shall
See
-C.H.
Is this
Something
I should
Admit?
I don't know
But I hope
No one
Has a fit.
Anyways,
I guess you
Chose to sit,
Read,
And be hit.
Death is
Something
That I've
Attempted
On numerous
Occasions
By way of
Oral ingestion.
It was not
A fun few
Times
But as you
Can see I
Can still
Drink tea
And sit here
To type my
Mind out.
-C.H.
I do
Think
That
I be
A
Person
Fancy
-C.H.
Do I want
To know
What you
Do when
You're alone?
Do I need
To care
When you
Finally slow
To show me
Something
That I
Don't even
Know if
I care or
Need to
Know?
That's what
I thought.
You finally
Stopped
But not like
You said
You were
Going to.
At the shop
We fought
But I didn't
Want to
So I lost
So much to
You and you
Didn't know
The cost.
Just give me
A time so
That I can
Know when
You'll find
The start of
The line
That started
When we
Heard the
Chime.
The lime
Slime slid
Away because
You didn't keep
The lid on
And not
Away.
Today we
Might sway
But we'll get
Through it
Because there
Is no other
Way.
Maybe I'll
Finally listen
When you
Say not to
Pay for all
The people
That tricked
Me yesterday.
I'll get on
My knees and
Pray that you'll
Stay and not
Leave me
Again.
You told me
That you tried
But just
Couldn't find
It in you to
Lie or pry
Or die for
Anyone that's
Not your
Responsibility.
My heart is
Going off the
Charts
And I don't
Know when
To start
Dialing the
Police because
I don't want
You to dart
Because without
You I have no
Art.
I hate to be
Apart and I
Know you do
Too so let's
Resolve this
With a spark.
Please I really
Won't survive
A live without
The only one
That was
Keeping a lid
On all the
Thoughts
That I told
To get lost
So now I'm
Spiraling
Without my
Love
Without my
Angel from
The sky up
Above.
I love you
Like you're
A beautiful
Dove.
No matter
How much
You call
Yourself a
Thug.
It's cringe
And a lie.
Please don't
Say goodbye.
I'll be your
Alibi.
I don't want
To cry.
Spending
Another night
With you
Would make
Me want to
Die.
So I'll try
And try.
You didn't
Leave for
A guy,
So I'll fly
Across the
World just
To let you
Let me try.
I love you.
Please don't
Leave.
I can't handle
Another
Goodbye.
I really do
Not want to
Cry.
I didn't know
It was about
You until
I reminded
Myself of
How you
Would try
And of the
Rare times
You showed
Me your
Face when
You cried.
I never judged.
Never lied.
Please come
Back.
I can't handle
Another
Goodbye.
I love you.
Don't make
Me cry.
-C.H.
They sit so
Peaceful
In the
Kitchen
While I'm
In the
Bathroom
And slowly
Slipping
Deep into
The bowl
My guts
Are on the
Floor
My food
Has fallen
Forth
I need help
Before
Before
Be-
-C.H.
Imagine forcing yourself to throw up and then stressing your body so much that you start to get hives on your face.
Couldn't be me.
-C.H.
I listen
And listen
To them
Talk and
Speak
They do
It a lot
And then
They leave
All of them
They just
Leave and
Leave
My dad left
Before I
Was three
I don't
Remember
Seeing
Him leave
But he did
Gone and
I don't
Even
Recall
When or
How
Another man
Like a
Father to me
Stayed with
Us for
Years
No mysteries
Until I
Saw him
Leave
Tried to
Sneak
Away
Tried not
To say
Goodbye
He failed
But he
Still left
What do
You know
There's another
Not close
Like a father
But part
Of the family
No less
He was
Annoying
A little
Younger
Than the
Others
But sometimes
Still fun
Just a year
Ago
He walked
Away
Left people
In tears
After living
With them
For years
Now the
Young ones
Don't remember
His face
Finally, you
May think
And you'd
Be correct
If it was just
Men that
Leave
But alas it
Is not
Though that
Will remain
A story
For a later
Time
This one left
Less than
A year
With us
No competition
He was the
Best of
Them all
He left
To live
Better
And I can't
Be mad
But I will
Forever be
Sad to
Lose such
A friend
At least he's
Not dead
I hope
We have
Arrived
At the
End
Of the
Fatherly
Figures
That have
Left
Hope you
Enjoyed
Because none
Of us did
Oh, wait
I forgot
To mention
One of them
Is dead
-C.H.
Bazinga!