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Hi, i write twilight fanfiction and this is my masterpost.
i dont even know where to begin with the fancy fanfic formats of posting fic directly to tumblr, hOwever, i wanted to post about my au here because it rolls a shit load of my special interests into one lovely thing. (and it gives a place for my readers to chitchat with me if they want!! :3)
so, anyway.
my fic is called Solar Flare, and its based on this tumblr post that talks about how much more depth new moon would have if edward had been the one to attack bella.
in it, bella's human friends aren't useless meat blobs and rally around her when she's deserted. i take it as not only an exploration of mental health. its influenced by my background in psychology and own experiences, but generally its simply a silly little passion project that i love dearly and intend to work on until its done regardless of how long it takes. i consider it a fix-it fic.
and, of course, its jacob/bella. because they deserve better. i try to update monthly. with varying degrees of success :')
Playlists & Other Bits and Bobs Below :3
this is practically a song fic with the way i use playlists to function creatively. you'll notice that the chapters are all lyrics or song titles.
the first song of any playlist i make is considered a "synopsis song" that all of the other ones present serve to flesh out. take that how you see fit, and enjoy at your leisure as you read <3
solar flare!au // edward cullen & bella swan // bella swan's (time period accurate!) heartbreak jamz // my good bitches: edward cullen // ladies and gentlemen: jacob black // what bella falling in love with jacob feels like // bella swan's manic episodes // reunion, forgiveness, and other things. // malice incarnate // to break or bury // the short second life of bree tanner
and, last but not least,
The MegaMix
i continue to add on to and take out things as i see fit, though, so be warned lol.
finally, i wanna give a special thank you to @edwardsvirginity for writing their wonderfully inspiring post that spawned one hell of a plot bunny for me, and another big honkin' thank you to my beta, @william-jennings-bryan who recently jumped on this sinking ship with me and has done immeasurable and irreparable good for this silly little project i'm so eager to share with the greater twilight fandom. i hope i've done y'all proud 🫡
my problem is if i enjoy something enough i will be nitpicking. i Will have things to say about where and how it failed. out of nothing but love straight from my heart. unfortunately this often makes me indistinguishable from a hater who has never experienced joy or kindness. such is the amateur critic's burden.
all of my favourite things are like beautiful racehorses that trip over their own feet a hundred times. but they get back up again. and goddamn, you should see them run.
I don’t think we ought to normalize or justify bullying as a means to keep people from being annoying — a sentiment that in and of itself could make for a whole article’s worth of conversation — but I do think we should make a habit of politely but directly telling people “hey I didn’t like that”, “that wasn’t funny”, “you are mistaken”, and the like if it’s called for, and more importantly, you should be able to take a “that wasn’t funny” for instance without taking it personally, because protecting a polite harmony where no one can criticize each other, not even politely, is also really, really bad.
listen i consider myself an empathic person but after a certain point i get sick of other people’s problems. my friend is always talking about how the jewel-eyed skull on their mantlepiece is tormenting them w its sinister beauty and im over it. like dude i don’t want to talk about this anymore. get rid of the fucking skull
a deeply underrated part of the gay taylor swift conspiracy theories is that if they're right and she really has spent over a decade sending subliminal messages based on minute details for people to decode then she's uuuuuh. I mean she's insane. she's jigsaw. she's the riddler. her dad bought her career because if she didn't have music to distract her she would have started building deathtraps.
Racist user who hears that Native Americans that cannot afford health insurance nor new school supplies believes they will magically have money to move out of their reservations
This is where the phrase "going off the reservation" comes from. From pass systems that restricted the movement of certain ethnic groups. (aka segregation)
A reserve is not a city slum, it's more like a tiny country. Some are extremely remote.
Some reserves are only accessible by ice bridge, or barge, or bush plane. Some reserves still largely don't speak English or French.
1: a reply by roguesynapses that says "tell that to my cousins on the Rez who are 40 miles from the nearest hospital, don't have health insurance, and have been using the same school supplies for 20 years" maknaaafalti replies, saying, in all caps, "move to fucking seattle!!! you are a citizen with equal rights! you are not racially segregated to the fucking sticks."
2: tags by ablednt that say "undescribed. obsessed with you are not racially segregated to the fucking sticks. like. yes they literally are??? guy who uses most narrow definition of segregation physically possible to pretend racism was fixed in the 60s" end ID
The first rule of sewing is you can fix anything if you have patience, creativity, and a little bit of extra fabric! The second rule of sewing is AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
i just remembered this British backpacking youtuber wanker who went to chechnya (he straight up said it like "chech-nyar") and he was getting a taxi ride and complimenting the car and saying it meant the guy was rich and this Chechen guy was like "you've come here from England and can pay for taxi rides, you are rich. I'm literally a taxi driver" and the guy got so fucking huffy about it because his whole brand was how low cost tourism he was. really helped cement my dislike for cunts who go to a much poorer country, start acting like they're in and savvy with the locals (while gentrifying their eating spots etc) and getting all white guilty about their position as a tourist with money in a strong currency with strong wages. what a cunt.
or like ppl going to thailand or Vietnam and being like "holy shit can you believe it? if you pay enough you can shoot a cow!" like of fucking course you can. you're the Yankee tourist waving US dollars around for whoever fulfils your stupid requests. no matter how much you want to feel better than rich tourists you're still wealthy compared to the lady giving you a manicure or the guy riding the bike.
really makes you wonder why they're so shocked about sex tourism, like of course you can do depraved shit you're waving money (valuable money too) in front of poor imperialised people. it's almost less empathetic to be shocked by it than to understand why it's such a common thing.
and the attitude that tourists get like "oh everyone's just after my money" and paranoia around getting robbed like of fucking course people want your money you're wearing a luxury watch in front of subsistence fishermen, you're showing off how much money you have even just as a regular citizen of empire to people who'll not only never see a cent of it, but who actively are exploited to make your country rich.
rich cunts i went to school with boasted about having a house in Vanuatu and their mum complained about "how dirty the natives are". actually evil. like knowing how much easier it was for them as rich Australians to buy a house there than the people who literally live there. fucking hell.
he would not fucking say that, but with disability.. he would not fucking be able bodied. sick n tired of characters walking away from multiple life changing injuries without a scratch. let’s get some natural consequences in here.
give that knife/sword fight survivor nerve damage. give the character who was shot in the gut a stoma. give that fire survivor lung damage and an oxygen cannula. give that leg injury survivor a cane. give that starvation survivor gastroparesis. give that spinal injury survivor a manual chair or powerchair.
while we’re at it, give your characters congenital disabilities too, just because. give them intellectual and development disabilities. give them acquired and postviral illnesses. dare to make somebody bedbound. for me.
