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so um

i've sort of come to the grudging realization that i much prefer the company of prose and the imaginary to the bizarre noise of socialization, tbh

and i guess it raises the question--am i content with these vicarious thrills, these abstract secondaries? myers-briggs told me i was more of a hands-on experimenter, but i guess you learn something new about yourself everyday

i guess it's like i'm treading the knife's edge between loneliness and being alone--bc i really don't know the answer anymore. i like being alone. i like being independent and sitting in tea shops reading by myself and walking down the street alone, tilting my head back and looking at the blue blue sky and marveling at the beauty of the world. that experience is wholly, genuinely mine. it would be tainted if i were to share it with a companion.

because most of the time people don't make sense, and it's hard to find the ones who do. the ones you really, really resonate with. though admittedly when you do it's pretty great.

i really don't know anymore. am i just trying to rationalize away my fear of rejection/vulnerability/etc? i really just want to read my eggers and my sakuracentrics and my journey!fics in peace, and not feel like i'm missing out on anything--because, you know, they make me happy.

but maybe this isn't the right happy? the right type of fulfillment?

ugh idek anymore im goin to sleep

#i blame this on the heat #insomniatic thoughts #word vomit

bookmania

Books are, let’s face it, better than everything else.

Nick Hornby, The Polysyllabic Spree (via bookmania)

#ugh basically

dumbpost

do you type differently depending on the person you’re talking to

arribaarribacabron

My grammar goes from formal essay to wat the fuck did u jst say u lil shit

banananut-blog

YO BASICALLY cept the XD's and =]]]'s etc have started diffusing into my ~normal everyday speech~ too?????? so im pretty sure everyone i chat w/ thinks im a fkin psycho / 12-year-old white girl........

#if i talk to u in shorthand thats probably a good sign #or im mockin u #either way =]]]]]

kinxsonic

dishonora

sarahreesbrennan

This is awesome. It’s true women aren’t meant to think good things about themselves—men, and other women, tell you that you suck all the time, and are unworthy of attention, and disagreeing with the fact that you suck makes you SO MUCH WORSE.

Every which way, you suck. A woman talking as if she expects someone to listen is a target. A woman looking pleased with how she looks is a target.

It’s an awful lot of energy, spent convincing women they are worthless, and should act like it and accept that. If we’re worthless, then what does it matter if we accept it or not?

Why, it’s like they’re lying, and we matter after all, and people are terrified we’re going to realise it.

the-goddamazon-deactivingsoon-d

Men who are threatened by women who are confident in their own identity are taught as boys to instill doubt in defense of their own ego.

That’s how you weed out the weaklings. When they say shit like “Oh you think you’re so [this or that]” simply because you exist.

banananut-blog

YES, thank you. Could not have come at a more opportune time.

Storytime, assholes: The fact that we revel in our identities as smart, confident, self-assured women does not mean we're attempting to upstage you, or make you feel stupid, or otherwise pander to your whims. In fact, we literally don't give one fuck about your myopic little opinions. This is not about you. So cut the narcissism and the shaming and suck it the fuck up.

#ugh #we don't fucking care if you like it #you're damn fucking right i'm brilliant #not letting your pathetic ego hold me back #feminism #rage against the patriarchy #srsly

grayskymorning

sooothe

ICED CARAMEL MACCHIATO » Milo and Me

banananut-blog

am drinking this right now!!

Amy Poehler was new to SNL and we were all crowded into the seventeenth-floor writers' room, waiting for the Wednesday read-through to start. There were always a lot of noisy 'comedy bits' going on in that room. Amy was in the middle of some such nonsense with Seth Meyers across the table, and she did something vulgar as a joke. I can't remember what it was exactly, except it was dirty and loud and 'unladylike.' Jimmy Fallon, who was arguably the star of the show at the time, turned to her and in a faux-squeamish voice said: 'Stop that! It's not cute! I don't like it.' Amy dropped what she was doing, went black in the eyes for a second, and wheeled around on him. 'I don't fucking care if you like it.' Jimmy was visibly startled. Amy went right back to enjoying her ridiculous bit.

Tina Fey, Bossypants

#tina fey #bossypants #amy poehler #we don't fucking care if you like it #rage against the patriarchy #feminism

for our class we were all asked to choose one person/topic about which to research/give a 10-minute presentation. i chose "Phillip K. Dick," since the professors mentioned that he tinkered a lot with history and the future—basically, alternate universes? and i love love love love AUs that mess with the timeline like that!

and here's a line from his wikipedia page:

"I want to write about people I love, and put them into a fictional world spun out of my own mind, not the world we actually have, because the world we actually have does not meet my standards," Dick wrote of these stories. "In my writing I even question the universe; I wonder out loud if it is real, and I wonder out loud if all of us are real."

SCREAMS THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL ABOUT FANFIC AND LIT AND WRITING AND THE FUCKING UNIVERSE IN GENERAL I CAN'T WAIT TO READ HIS STUFF AAAAAHHHHHHH

#phillip k. dick #alternate universes #summer@brown #best class ever

coketalk

Yeah, Robert Pattinson really did give me his electronic cigarette at the Beyonce concert tonight. When I asked him for a lighter, he thought I was fucking with him. Honestly though, I assumed it was a one hitter until he showed me how to use the damn thing. Bizarre little moment, and of course, he’s a total sweetie.

banananut-blog

maybe it's the gold strip, maybe it's the serif lettering, or maybe it's the crazy nails--but this picture fucking exudes class

dearcoquette

Just because white people have always been the dominant cultural group in most societies does not mean that reverse racism doesn’t exist. If you look at this as an example; a white couple get told they “don’t belong" in an Asian restaurant, that is discrimination against a ‘race’ or group of...

#love her