Not.Gone.Yet

Hi. I’m No One Special. I’m a mother. I live with BPD, FND, and the aftermath of more trauma than I can name. This isn’t a wellness blog. There’s no glitter here. No morning routines or self-care tips. Just survival. Raw and uneven. Some days I’m still suicidal. Some days I cook dinner and laugh with my kids. Some days I’m both. This is about what it means to stay. To still be here when everything says you shouldn’t be. To mother through the wreckage. To break, and break again—and still not be gone. If you’re here, you probably get it. You’re not alone. Even if it feels like it. Welcome to the mess.

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Title: “Sometimes I Cry in Silence Because I Don’t Know What I’d Say If Someone Asked”

What would I even tell them? That I’m tired? That I feel nothing and everything at once?

So I say nothing. And I cry quietly. And then I move on.

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It’s 2AM and the thoughts won’t shut up.

You’re staring at your screen, hoping something numbs the ache. You’re not alone in this moment. Someone else is wide awake, too. And someone out there is still rooting for you.

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The worst feeling is needing help and having no idea how to ask for it.

Not because I’m prideful — but because I’ve been rejected too many times.

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What looks small to you feels massive to me. And I hate that.

But I’m still trying. Still waking up. Still showing up.

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I learned to suffer quietly — because loud pain made people leave.

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I crave connection, but I flinch every time someone gets too close.

Because being loved still feels dangerous.

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Don’t fix it. Don’t minimize it. Don’t make it about you. Just stay.

Sit with me in the hard. That’s all I’ve ever wanted.

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I’m the strong one. The dependable one. The one no one checks on.”

And I’m so fucking tired of it.

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Pain changed me. Silence shaped me. Survival sculpted me into someone fierce.

I miss the girl who used to hope easily — but I love the one who learned how to survive.

🔥 Reblog if your scars made you unrecognizable, even to yourself.

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I’ve had people promise to love me and still walk away like I was nothing.

So now I flinch at kindness and brace for the ending before it begins.

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I don’t need fixing. I just want to feel safe.

💭 Reblog if you’ve ever just wanted someone to sit with you in the hard.

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I ask how you’re doing because I know what it’s like when no one does.

But when I go silent? No one asks.

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I disappear when I’m hurting, not because I don’t care — but because I don’t know how to ask for help.

And I wish more people understood that.

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I push people away just to see if anyone cares enough to come back.

Spoiler: most don’t. And every time, it hurts just as much.

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The moment I say it out loud, I can’t take it back. It becomes true.

So I carry it like a ghost — always there, but never spoken.

💬 Reblog if silence became your survival skill.

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It’s not that I’m okay now. I just got tired of hearing silence after opening up.

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You don’t have to solve me. Just stop making me feel like I’m too much.

Sometimes all I want is to say “I’m not okay” and hear, “That’s okay. You don’t have to be.”

🔁 Reblog if you’ve ever needed someone just to listen — not fix.