Confessions of a troubled man

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Bye-bye November hello December photo dump . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #photodump #photoshoot #photostreet #photoedits #photooftheday #bestoftheday #lifestyle #photographi #ruleofthirds #photofotheday #photography_love #life #photocreative #photoofthenight (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/CloLIKlITYe/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Well hello November: did I tell you guys ⬇️⬇️ That I am 49 years old That's right This is what my 49 years on this earth Looks like You see me skipping Going gym Acting like the biggest kid in the room sometimes What is my secret? 1️⃣ stay away from processed foods 2️⃣ avoid negative people 3️⃣ set your personal boundaries 4️⃣ yoga & meditation & stretching 5️⃣ stop watching the news and other media for hours on ends 6️⃣ recognise past traumas and try to heal I could go on but that’s enough for now 7️⃣ social media can be lonely Place at times watching other people lifestyles can lead you to feel anxious about your own But just remember what you are seeing is peoples best bits and strangers you don’t hardly know so don’t be judging your life on theres . . . . . . . . . . . . . #trustthejourney #trusttheprocess #divinetiming #yoga. #findjoyinthejourney #itsallcomingtogether #makepeacewithyourself #allowinglifetoflow #morningmeditations #giveyourselfgrace #meditatetoelevate #bepresentinthemoment #jogging #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #manifestyourdreams #getoutofyourownway #findyourpurpose #transformyourmind #loveyourtribe #selfawareness #believeinyourself #loveyourself #running  #psychotherapist #emotionalintelligence #poledance #poledancer #howareyoureally #iamhereforyou (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/CkbIFZ_op-2/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Who goes to Notting Hill Carnival on their own? This year I was quite adamant that I wasn't going to Notting Hill Carnival A few friends invited me and I was like I am just not feeling it this year Then Monday afternoon, at about 4 pm I said to myself Let me go to Notting Hill on my own And it's was a really different kinder vibe Enjoyable I bump into a lot of people I knew and jam For a bit then kept it moving And just at the point when I said being on my own is boring now The boys just appeared On a real I was there in real life And had lots of fun Some of the clips your seeing on the internet makes it look like the worst place in the world . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #carnival #trinidadcarnival #nottinghillcarnival #miamicarnival #solotravel #travelsolo #travelalone #travelingsolo #solotraveldiaries #solotravelers #solotravelstories #partyplannersolo #partywithapurpose #partyplanner #partytime #mygrind #mybirthday #myhappybirthday #gym #workout #running #runningislife #yogajournal #yogalovers #yogastudent #meditation #youareyouronlylimit #ownyourlife #liveyourbestlife #bestyearsofmylife https://www.instagram.com/p/Ch6n1HgoGud/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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The captions don’t match the photos Or may be they do I told my self Stop dwelling in the past Take a moment to live in the moment Cold showers definitely make you Know your present Sunsets make you feel like your present # Smell flowers and breathing your current reality All so I had a strong word with myself about the people I have around me Unfollowed a few more people on social media and In real life 😃😀 Have you set some healthy boundaries for yourself ? Please believe it or not i trying to spend a little less time on social media Quick little burst of replying and posting then I am out So if I have not reply to you don’t take offence I will do as so as I can . . . . . . . . . . #sunsets #sunsetsky #sunsets_captures #sunrise_and_sunsets #sunrise_sunsets_aroundworld #sunsetshots #sunsetstrip #chasingsunsets #sunsetskies #aura #yoga #yogainspiration #yogavibes #yogabody #yogafamily #running #runningcommunity #runningday #runninginspiration #runninggoals #poledance #poledancers #poletricks #poleexoticdance #poledancestyle #poledancewear #aerialist #choreography #dancetraining (at Phoenix Theatre London) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cg19BngI2aF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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That moment that you feel you don’t have Time to take a break Is the very moment you should take a break 🙏🏿 # P.s I don’t wanna sound or come across like I’m preaching but if your not catching at least one sunset a month Your not living life right 🙏🏿🙏🏿 .. . . . . . #sunsets #sunsetsky #sunsets_captures #sunrise_and_sunsets #sunrise_sunsets_aroundworld #sunsetshots #sunsetstrip #chasingsunsets #sunsetskies #aura #yoga #yogainspiration #yogavibes #yogabody #yogafamily #running #runningcommunity #runningday #runninginspiration #runninggoals #poledance #poledancers #poletricks #poleexoticdance #poledancestyle #poledancewear #aerialist #choreography #dancetraining  (at Cutty Sark) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgyPZQxILb6/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Anybody know where I took this photo? .. I had the warning signs I was on my way to a little burn out I listen to my body and slowed it all down Then a self-inflicted injury put my out the gym When your my age it will do you good To really listen to your body And look after your body @rush_athletics mate up to now the things don’t turn up brother inbox me your number 👣 . . . . .. #sunsets #sunsetsky #sunsets_captures #sunrise_and_sunsets #sunrise_sunsets_aroundworld #sunsetshots #sunsetstrip #chasingsunsets #sunsetskies #aura #yoga #yogainspiration #yogavibes #yogabody #yogafamily #running #runningcommunity #runningday #runninginspiration #runninggoals #poledance #poledancers #poletricks #poleexoticdance #poledancestyle #poledancewear #aerialist #choreography #dancetraining #aerialtricks (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgjneUNIQQ_/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I am old enough to remember when people used to just post pictures on Instagram 😁😃 Went to find a lovely sunset tonight waiting for the weather to cool down a little bit and went for a recharging bike ride For me, it's important to find a little peace when things are a little stormy . . . . . . . . #sunsets #sunsetsky #sunsets_captures #sunrise_and_sunsets #sunrise_sunsets_aroundworld #sunsetshots #sunsetstrip #chasingsunsets #sunsetskies #aura #yoga #yogainspiration #yogavibes #yogabody #yogafamily #running #runningcommunity #runningday #runninginspiration #runninggoals #poledance #poledancers #poletricks #poleexoticdance #poledancestyle #poledancewear #aerialist #choreography #dancetraining #aerialtricks https://www.instagram.com/p/CgK32xzoao5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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You actually know your self more then you think Trust your intuition . . . . . . .. . . . . . . . . #proaging #antiagingproducts #agepositivity #bodyimagepositivity #dailyaffirmations #dailyhealthaffirmation #spiritualgrowth #higherfrequency #selfempowerment #universalguidance #highervibration #spiritualbeing #spirituallifecoach #chooseyourthoughts #higherself #poledancing #polefitness #poletricks #poledancingmotivation #running #nikerunning #runninggoals #jogging #yoga #yogalife #yogaeverywhere #yogafitness #yogavibes #yogajournal #yogastudent (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeKznETo3GH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Some of you know me and some of you don’t What you are looking at are the best parts of my life But I all so known that there are people that can tell you that I am not a perfect human being I can also tell you about the hurt and pain and I have caused And I am at peace with that . . . . . . #proaging #antiagingproducts #agepositivity #bodyimagepositivity #dailyaffirmations #dailyhealthaffirmation #spiritualgrowth #higherfrequency #selfempowerment #universalguidance #highervibration #spiritualbeing #spirituallifecoach #chooseyourthoughts #higherself #poledancing #polefitness #poletricks #poledancingmotivation #running #nikerunning #runninggoals #jogging #yoga #yogalife #yogaeverywhere #yogafitness #yogavibes #yogajournal #yogastudent (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd6z0blIsVa/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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It’s all about having balance Its definitely about finding some Inner peace . . . . . . . , . . . . #proaging #antiagingproducts #agepositivity #bodyimagepositivity #dailyaffirmations #dailyhealthaffirmation #spiritualgrowth #higherfrequency #selfempowerment #universalguidance #highervibration #spiritualbeing #spirituallifecoach #chooseyourthoughts #higherself #poledancing #polefitness #poletricks #poledancingmotivation #running #nikerunning #runninggoals #jogging #yoga #yogalife #yogaeverywhere #yogafitness #yogavibes #yogajournal #yogastudent (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd3N43moLcX/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I can’t Actually believe the amount of time some of us are spending on line Like we pick up are phones And before we know It Hours have gone past Off line is the New luxury The new way to find a little peace Please be mindful about the amount of time you spend online and make sure you don’t burn out . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #proaging #antiagingproducts #agepositivity #bodyimagepositivity #dailyaffirmations #dailyhealthaffirmation #spiritualgrowth #higherfrequency #selfempowerment #universalguidance #highervibration #spiritualbeing #spirituallifecoach #chooseyourthoughts #higherself #poledancing #polefitness #poletricks #poledancingmotivation #running #nikerunning #runninggoals #jogging #yoga #yogalife #yogaeverywhere #yogafitness #yogavibes #yogajournal #yogastudent (at Brixton) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cdc0PGTITaB/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Guess what I just realized after looking at a few old pictures Am I even that same person any more Before this whole lock down I was all ways looking for the next Party or night club to be at And to be honest I actually not been in a Night clubbing like I used to Been to a few day time events Think that might be the way forward I actually love waking up early 🙏🏿🙏🏿 Happy Monday people 🙏🏿🙏🏿 #proaging #antiagingproducts #agepositivity #bodyimagepositivity #dailyaffirmations #dailyhealthaffirmation #spiritualgrowth #higherfrequency #selfempowerment #universalguidance #highervibration #spiritualbeing #spirituallifecoach #chooseyourthoughts #higherself #poledancing #polefitness #poletricks #poledancingmotivation #running #nikerunning #runninggoals #jogging #yoga #yogalife #yogaeverywhere #yogafitness #yogavibes #yogajournal #yogastudent https://www.instagram.com/p/CdVQNtyoJp-/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Inescapable shock something I am learning about today The mare opportunity to escape does not necessarily make traumatised people want to take the Road To Freedom Now I know of late I been feeling a little delicate because I'm writing a journal and digging into my trauma pass But I struggle today to get over the cruelty that has been done to animals in order for humans to get a better understanding on mental health and trauma I put the book down for now to try and processed this fact 👁️‍🗨️🙏🏿 . . . .. . . / / . . . . . . . . #shadowhunters #energyhealing #healingvibrations #healingherbs #healingfoods #shadowworker #shadowhunters #innergrowth #shadowwork #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #manifestyourdreams #getoutofyourownway #findyourpurpose #transformyourmind #loveyourtribe #selfawareness #believeinyourself #loveyourself #running  #psychotherapist #emotionalintelligence #poledance #poledancer #howareyoureally #nlpcoaching #nlppractitioner #iamhereforyou #jogging #running #yoga (at Clapham Common) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdLRypzIivB/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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This is not an easy things to do but I asked @authentictruthmotivation for some recommendations of some books to read One of her recommendations was #thebodykeeepsthescore by Bessel van der she also recommended I write a journal Now I am only a few chapters in But emotionally this book is letting me dip into a few traumas that are no way near heeled So much so That I booked into have some type of therapy which I have the consultation for tomorrow I want to level up And be a better person So this is the journey that I accept and Embrace the matter how hard an emotional rollercoaster it will be . . . . . . . . . . . #trustthejourney #trusttheprocess #divinetiming #yoga. #findjoyinthejourney #itsallcomingtogether #makepeacewithyourself #allowinglifetoflow #morningmeditations #giveyourselfgrace #meditatetoelevate #bepresentinthemoment #jogging #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #manifestyourdreams #getoutofyourownway #findyourpurpose #transformyourmind #loveyourtribe #selfawareness #believeinyourself #loveyourself #running  #psychotherapist #emotionalintelligence #poledance #poledancer #howareyoureally #iamhereforyou https://www.instagram.com/p/CdGdjZcoy_8/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Never apologize for trusting your intuition your brain can play tricks, your heart can blind, but your gut is always right. . . . . . . . . . . . . #trustthejourney #trusttheprocess #divinetiming #yoga. #findjoyinthejourney #itsallcomingtogether #makepeacewithyourself #allowinglifetoflow #morningmeditations #giveyourselfgrace #meditatetoelevate #bepresentinthemoment #jogging #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #manifestyourdreams #getoutofyourownway #findyourpurpose #transformyourmind #loveyourtribe #selfawareness #believeinyourself #loveyourself #running  #psychotherapist #emotionalintelligence #poledance #poledancer #howareyoureally #iamhereforyou (at Clapham Common) https://www.instagram.com/p/CczrdYTI0bW/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Your ego is how your consciousness experiences itself within the very limited human framework of your physical body, belief system, personal perspective, agenda and identity. Your soul is how your consciousness experiences itself without any of these limitations, from the perspective of eternity. It's time to strip the ego a lot more . . . . . . . . . . . #shadowhunters #energyhealing #healingvibrations #healingherbs #healingfoods #shadowworker #shadowhunters #innergrowth #shadowwork #yourvibeattractsyourtribe #manifestyourdreams #getoutofyourownway #findyourpurpose #transformyourmind #loveyourtribe #selfawareness #believeinyourself #loveyourself #running  #psychotherapist #emotionalintelligence #poledance #poledancer #howareyoureally #nlpcoaching #nlppractitioner #iamhereforyou #jogging #running #yoga (at Clapham Common) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcvNIlqqdoo/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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We made it to Friday I do hope everyone had a great week? it's not easy juggling work free time and gym life And it's fairy easy to get distracted when we have a task to do Here are a few things I'm trying to implement I hope you find this helpful . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #contentcreation #creativeentrepreneur #instagramtips #businessconsultant #businesssavvy #brandbuilding #crative #buildyourbusiness #creativemx #marketingstrategist #contentmarketing #contentmarketing101 #strategist #youngbusinessowner #creativeentrepreneur #instagramforbusiness #brandbuilding #growyourbusiness #solopreneur #onlinepresence #creativemarketing #businessadvertising #businessstrategy #captamedia (at London, United Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcpvJLcoSg5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=