sometimes youre drowning, and youre just drowning, and the water is filling your lungs, and youre scared but at the same time you think you might like it, and if you really focus on what you feel on the inside then you might figure out if you do, but if you focus on how you feel on the inside then you ignore how you feel on the outside and that is scared and cold and in pain and drowning, so you cant look inside, and sometimes you wish that someone would throw you a life preserver so that you can stop drowning and figure out if you want to succumb to the darkness or not, and you know you can get someone’s attention, but what if they don’t throw you the life preserver? what if they just think youre asking for attention? that youre not really in trouble? or what if they do? what if they do and you finally realize what you want and you realize that you never wanted to surface and cough the water out of your lungs but its too late now so all you can do is kick, and pull, and hope with all your being that the person with the life preserver will realize if they dont let you go theyll drown too and theyll let you go and youll finally get to drown, and what if they do let you go, just like you thought they would, and youre alone again and they hate you now. and sometimes youre drowning, and youre just drowning, and the water is filling your lungs, and youre scared but youre not scared of dying, youre scared of death, because youre already dying and death is the only unknown in this scenario. and sometimes youre drowning, and youre just drowning, and youre drowning, and youre drowning, and youre drowning, and youre drowning, and youre drowning, and the water is filling your lungs, and youre scared but at the same time you know you like it, and youre drowning.