Wiatt

c-did sys • minor • he/him

[sayruq]

[fullmetalswift]

translation:

if i die and leave and get martyred in this war, i will not forgive the Arab leaders who failed us. we lived through difficult days without food or water, and my hair is turning white even though i'm so young. may god never forgive you or give you relief. i swear i will tell the creator about you.

forgive me, mom. i love you so much. please don't be sad when i die.

my message to the people of egypt, yemen, jordan, algeria, libya, lebanon, tunisia, sudan, somalia, malaysia - please don't leave Gaza alone. please, please promise me to take care of her. i love you all, please don't leave us.

if anyone finds my message, please spread it.

the martyr, godwilling, Mohammad Abdulqader Husseini

25/03/2024

[multipleabyss]

system ask game for traumagenic systems!

reposted due to us deleting our previous sysblog <3

remember that you are free to decline any question if it feels too invasive, this is for fun and you are not forced to answer anything 🤍

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

[cdd-systems-support]

don't know if someone would be interested in our system, but if would, feel free to send asks

[b0dyb4g-help]

feel free to send in asks! we love talking about our sys experience

[system-community-corner]

Feel free to send in asks, you aren't obligated too, so don't worry :]

[disabled-sysboxes]

feel free to send asks. we're bored lol

[caged-canines]

really dont know who'd care to ask but we need reasons to post sooo! feel free to send in asks :3

[sys-polls]

What do you believe is the MOST harmful misconception about DID & other complex dissociative disorders?

The "evil alter" stereotype.

DID makes you statistically more prone to being violent.

"DID is suuuper rare! Almost no one has it!"

DID & schizophrenia are basically the same thing.

DID is ALWAYS overt/obvious to those around you.

DID is "created" by therapists whose clients are very suggestable.

"Everyone is faking DID for attention nowadays!"

DID can be developed at any age.

Unsure/I genuinely can't pick.

Other misconception not listed here. (Add in replies/tags?)

[Not a traumagenic system/See-results button]

Voting ended onJun 10, 2024

I believe it goes without saying that all of these misconceptions about CDDs are harmful to the recovery of those affected by a CDD. If you still believe one of these, please make sure to do your research (with trustworthy sources), or send an ask & we will compile some research for you! - Fervour.

[caged-canines]

"ur too young to be a system!!!!"

genuine thing we've been told. and seen like everyone we know get told. wtfdym too young????

[reminders-for-systems]

I love you father figures in systems. I love you if you don't align with the "ideal" version of masculinity. I love you regardless if you're cold presenting or openly affectionate or don't align with the masculine gender. You exist out of love and survival. You mean the world to your system.

[caged-canines]

APPRECIATION TO AUS AND SHADOWW!!!!! LOVE THOSE GUYS!!!!!!

aus is our lile #1 father figure and has been in the system for years and shadoww is our main memory keeper whos adopted quite a few of us. neither are exactly men but are at the same time, aus is overly affectionate and willing to do anything for those he loves and shadoww will just give you a blanket and thats their love

[sys-polls]

has anyone - who was unaware of your CDD - ever jokingly said you have a "split personality"?

yes, once.

yes, this has happened multiple times.

unsure/don’t remember!

nope.

other (explain in tags?)

[not a traumagenic system/see-results button]

Voting ended onMay 19, 2024

bonus question: who was it & why do you think they said it?

- amaranth.

[caged-canines]

our sister used to say this and she would often describe different like emotions as our "moods"

[sysboxes]

[Text: This user has too many Wilbur Soot introjects.]

Like/Reblog if you save or use

[caged-canines]

THIS IS LITERALLY TARGETTING US WTF

WHEN WE SAY WE HAVE TOO MANY WE MEAN TOO MANY LIKE. PEOPLE WHO KNOW US PERSONALLY KNOW WHAT THE BUR HOLE IS....

[lefluoritesys]

[caged-canines]

two bingos !!

the theatre kid one is a maybe though because idk if we're actually good at it-

[caged-canines]

lately we've been remembering more things, not many but still more than we did before. i dont know if im just a trauma holder or if the brain is just revealing stuff now, but im the one who started remembering things- like, we knew stuff happened with our doctor as a kid, but i have a few specific memories of it. we also are finally coming to terms with the fact that the dream we had a few months ago was a flashback and not just a random dream. we knew it was probably a flashback but we didnt want to accept that because it was really low detailed and blurry, but our dreams are normally high detail anyways so-

we're also starting to question our dads role in our trauma. we knew he gave us trauma and we know for a fact that he is the reason our ex host formed, but now we're questioning if he might've had more to do with it all even before what he did.. mainly because of that flashback again. something in us tells us that was his friend, but we cant be sure. we havent seen any pictures of his friend in a long time and we have no recollection of what he looked like, and in the flashback we can barely make out any details at all about the person in it. all we know is it was dark, we were laid on what felt like a leather seat, it was a man and we cant tell the exact skin tone but it was at least more tan than our dads is (which isnt hard because he is super pale). its all been really stressful. we arent even 100% sure any of this is real, like if any of it is real memories or our brain making something up- we seen something on a ramcoa website (we arent ramcoa but we are doing research since our psys is) about how child victims remember things how it appeared to them as a child, so it probably isnt 100% accurate but still shows something happened.

we also didnt have many physical symptoms when this started but as im typing this and recounting the smallest bit of detail im getting a headache and my eyes are hurting/going blurry- so im gonna leave this post here since its already super long

[caged-canines]

wow, we havent posted in a minute- sorry for that !

we often do this thing where we forget we have specific social medias and we stop posting and by time we remember we think it's been too long...but hopefully we post at least sometimes from now on

for anyone following us who doesnt recognise us, our old names were 621-turner-lane and kuromis-lemondrops, but we've changed our system name yet again :'D

im gonna post at least one more post after this today, so at least there'll be two more posts !! have a lovely day to anyone reading this

[mapsareforbraindeads]

coming out as a system is so awkward. like what do you say? “hey, i’m that twink from death note possessing the body of your best friend” ??????

[caged-canines]

"hey um, im a silly british minecrafter who renamed himself after a weird substance"

-Ooblek

[abby-howard]

SORRY FOR THE VERY PERSONAL COMIC!!

This is my half of “Unhealthy”, an essay comic double header with the lovely and talented Sarah Winifred Searle. She and I both wrote about our personal experiences as overweight ladies with eating disorders, and her story is breathtaking! You can buy a physical copy of the book here: https://topatoco.com/collections/abby-howard/products/ah-unhealthy

Or buy a digital PDF here: https://abbyhoward.itch.io/unhealthy

[thisisthinprivilege]

A comic by an inspiring woman, whose story mirrors much of my own. -ATL

[thisisthinprivilege]

Time to re-up this one. Virtual hugs to everyone out there who has been told they shouldn’t live unless they are ashamed of being fat. You should. Please, live.

-ATL

[artofkhaos404]

Everyone should take the time to read this- but especially thin allies in the body positivity movement to end fatshaming who sympathize but haven’t experienced fatphobia directly. Great insight into the mindset of fat people who want to be healthy, but have bad relationships with food that have been pushed on them by society.

[boyburning]

[poetarchy]

Palestinian students sit next to the empty seats of their martyred classmates. 

[fallahifag-deactivated20240722]

الله يحرق الاحتلال

[caged-canines]

hiya, thought i would introduce myself (mostly since no one's posted here for a little bit)

the names john, or joker. i got a lot of sources and they're all relating to the joker but i mainly id with telltale

ill sign off with either 🟩 or my names

also be careful mentioning source w me but im ok with talking about some things

[skybound-system]

Dear [Alter]

Dear Caretakers, it's okay to worry that you're not doing enough. You are.

Dear Fictives/Factives, it's okay not to identify with your source. It's okay to identify with your source. Remember that you are your own person and that's all that matters.

Dear Gatekeepers, take a breath. I know that it's hard. It's going to be alright. We couldn’t do this without you.

Dear Littles, you're lovely. Keep it up buddy, remember that you're amazing.

Dear Persecutors, you are not evil. You are not a 'bad alter.' You are just as important as everyone else.

Dear Protectors, it's okay to take a break. You are going to make mistakes, and that's okay. You're doing your best and that's perfect.

Dear Self Destructive Alters/Trauma Holders, it's not your fault. It is not your fault. You don't deserve any hate, you don't deserve any of those awful things. You're deserving of the world and one day, some day, you will get it.

Dear Alter, you're going to make it.

[caged-canines]

reminder to all introjects

you don't have to be completely like your source, you're your own person. you can have different memories, different opinions, even a different look than your source.

I'm an American, raccoon version of Tommyinnit and share nothing in common with my source except for the people im friends with. My name is different, my eyes are different, my height is different, my name even.

so it's ok to be different from your source, whether that's just a few small differences or everything being changed.

-🦝

[reimeichan]

We have an introject of our mother. Of our father. Our middle school crush, our ex who was our partner of 14 years, a teacher, a friend of a friend. I wish people talked more about the introjects of the people around them. It took a long time for these parts of us to understand and realize they're not literally the people they introjected, and even longer to unlearn the behavior they picked up trying to be the source in our head. Telling us what to do and how to act.

They're replicas of our abusers and of people who are non longer in our life. A reminder of the people who affected us that we can't escape or ignore even when the person themselves are long gone.

And there's the introjects of people who are still in our life. How do I explain to people that I have a mirror image of my partner as a literal part of me? When that mirror image takes control of my mouth and body and eerily imitates the person they're based off of, in the very same room we're in?

I know the community likes talking about introjects of fictional characters or celebrities or streamers, people who you likely would never have a personal relationship with. I want more people talking about the introjects of people that existed in their lives and left such a mark that you carry them with you as a part of yourself. Maybe I just want to be less alone, being one of them myself.

[caged-canines]

this !! I'm an ij of a fictional character, so i don't want this to be less alone personally - but I'm friends with some of our factives who are of people who have been in our life. we have the exhosts ex as an alter, we have 3/4 of his current partners as alters, we even have our best friend- but none of them like to front because it's even weirder for them to be here than for a fictive. especially because only a few of them can tell the source of them that they're a factive of them.

-🦝