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cavedwell

This has been going on for thousands of years! It doesn't change.

—Robert Bly, Keeping Quiet / Half Man (2026)

caliborousss

ngl I think if some of the passionate and studied researchers on DID would shoot themselves in the head if they saw how absolutely frothing at the mouth RABID some of you are to use the verity of the traumagenic model of DID just so you can turn around and weaponize the sociocognitive model of DID to be rude to people. How do you even manage that shit

caliborousss

So many of you will just uncritically spout direct sociocognitive model talking points about endos. Like. You know that's what you're promoting, right? You know that you evidently LOVE the sociocognitive model of DID? Or are we just saying whatever we want without knowing where our ideas come from all the time

ngl I think if some of the passionate and studied researchers on DID would shoot themselves in the head if they saw how absolutely frothing at the mouth RABID some of you are to use the verity of the traumagenic model of DID just so you can turn around and weaponize the sociocognitive model of DID to be rude to people. How do you even manage that shit

#i don't know how to explain to you that running around screaming that our population is actually full of iatrogenics is ableist #and by all justifiable accounts false??????#i understand that it's painful but someone with a disorder that causes warped and inaccurate perceptions of their life story and the world #having a warped and inaccurate perception of their life story and the world #isn't actually like the nail in the coffin of our fucking community getting treatment literally what ????????#have you people actually read any scientific literature yourself or are you just parroting what other people say #presses my fingers into my temples #actually did #cdd system #otherspeak.cal #osddid #did osdd #endo neutral #if you're such a hard traumagenic DID truther literally HOW do you believe that there are so many 'fakers' that DOES NOT MAKE PHYSICAL SENS #it's as if you read 'traumagenesis real' and refused to take in absolutely any other information from the papers at all #basically HALF of those papers are like DEDICATED to explaining why any sociocognitive model of DID is shit #and you pudding brains are just like circle jerking about your supposed oppression by fellow plural people like 'ungg my fakers..'#YOU PEOPLE ARE INSANE!!!!!!#complex dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder

duckmessiah

i still like homestuck

sennamaticart

Last Night in the Garden

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kasophism

I was scrolling through the persecutor tag because I'm in a mood and a post/sentiment kept coming up that really fucking grates on me:

"It's never okay to lock another alter up! You're violating their rights! There is never any possible explanation or justification of deliberately repressing another alter! This is not nuanced at all, and if you try to introduce any nuance to this conversation, I'm talking about you!"

And this sentiment is supposed to be in defense of persecutors.

Maybe I just don't fucking know what's going on in other systems. Maybe my persecutor's role is just wildly different than other persecutors for some reason.

But isn't the person locking other people up in the system usually a fucking persecutor themselves doing their fucking job?

"There are other ways to deal with people's bad behaviour than locking them up!"

Why are we assuming that all the people who get locked up in a system are receiving that treatment because they've done something wrong?

My persecutor's main role in my system is making sure other parts stay locked up and repressed. Because they cannot fucking be here and us stay safe and sane.

Because, newsflash, not all systems are in a fucking place where they can behave in the most healthy way possible! It's almost as if dissociative systems, which sums up the majority of the circumstances which create the plural population, is an adaption; and becomes a maladaption when it's not needed anymore.

Have you ever in your self-centered little world considered that SOME of us still fucking need the boundaries and repression of dissociation to survive without completely collapsing; or worse, getting genuinely fucking beaten or kicked out of our own homes, by our family, landlord, or the state? That some of us would be incarcerated in ACTUAL mental or criminal prisons if we didn't maintain our internal prisons?

I'm not going to pretend that I believe in carceral and punitive justice, because I don't, and I do believe that is a violation of a person's human rights.

I'm also not going to pretend that I don't believe the interactions between system members is fundamentally different than the interactions between individual-bodied humans; and not all incarceration in systems is an attempt at protecting non-system members safety or preventing unethical behaviours.

Stop pretending that repression and incarceration is the same thing. All system members are people with rights, yes, but the communal society we live inner-system is VASTLY different than the society between individual-bodied humans. It's frankly fucking disgusting to me to compare "locking-up fellow alters" to outer-world incarceration and say with your full chest that they're the same thing and violate the same rights.

You're comparing my persecutor to an actual fucking cop and prison warden because he does his job of keeping high-stress parts out of the already high-stress environment we live in; for the safety of fucking all of us, THEIRS most of all?

FUCK. OFF.

and keep my name as a persecutor out of your filthy goddamn mouth.

#otherspeak #persecutor #did community #plural #multiplicity #endo safe #endo friendly

harmful-alter-userboxes

#ngl these are all sexy as shit #otherspeak.cal #very you clai

iyamifucker

“I can fix him” I couldn’t fix him and I don’t want to. I think he grew prone to biting and scratching in order to get by in a harsh world, and to me his resilience is part of what makes him so beautifully himself. I could be kind to him, though. I could show him gentleness. I could, slowly but surely, in the same way one earns the trust of a skittish stray cat, convince him that my touch will never come accompanied by pain. That, around me, he can allow himself to be soft. To relax. I could be the one he associates with warmth and safety, the one he longs to be held by after a hard day. I could be his home.