a snippet of a fic i am writing where sofia thinks she is a bad person because of the amulet
"Mr. Cedric...?"
The workshop's door gently creaked open. The little visitor by now was so accustomed to this place that she knew exactly which cobblestones would wiggle beneath her feet and which would not. She approached Cedric, her dearest mentor and friend, and with little trembling hands, she held out the amulet.
Cedric was confused. He lowered his wand and turned to face Sofia. He could not bear to look down at the amulet when her gentle face was so sorrowful.
"Princess Sofia? What's the matter?" he asked, "Is the amulet broken? Do you need me to fix it for you?"
Sofia shook her head, squeezing her eyes shut and holding her hands out farther from herself. The amulet gleamed right in front of Cedric. A few years ago, this would have been a dream come true for him. But now, the necklace was only a necklace, and his dear little friend was hurting. Something needed to be done.
"I'm not taking the amulet until you tell me what's wrong," Cedric said with tenderness that surprised himself.
So, Sofia sat down. Since she had come to visit so often, Cedric had conjured up a little wooden chair that looked just like his own. She sat in it and brought her knees to her chest, hugging them tightly. Her bare neck felt strange.
"Mr. Cedric?" Sofia asked quietly, "Why do people act good or bad?"
Cedric was astonished by the question. He scrambled to come up with an answer that might satisfy her.
"I suppose everybody has different reasons," he floundered pathetically, "I'm really not sure, Sofia. That's something that I thought you would know more about than me."
"That's just the thing," Sofia whispered, her voice teeming with misery. "I don't know more about it than you, or anybody else! I don't know anything about how to be good or bad!"
Cedric put his hands on top of Sofia's, which were clasped tightly around the amulet. Power hummed from it, as if to warn Cedric of something.
"But how can you say that?" Cedric asked, "You do more good deeds than anybody I've ever met. You're always running around helping people or giving things away instead of keeping them for yourself or showing people how to be good. I can't think of anybody in Enchancia who isn't living a better life because of something you have done for them."
"But I haven't done anything!" Sofia protested, and she clutched the amulet tighter. "The amulet has. You know just as well as I do that the amulet rewards me when I do something good and punishes me when I do something bad. The amulet guides me towards people who need my help. It helps me talk to animals, so that way, I know how to help them. If I had never gotten the amulet, would I be any good at all?"
Cedric did not know what to say. But something must be said. So, he spoke.
"I've never thought of it like that," he said slowly, "The amulet chose you because you're already good, Sofia. I'm sure it wouldn't go to all the trouble to make somebody bad less bad when it could just help somebody good act more good than they already are."
Sofia chewed on her lip, resting her chin upon her knees.
"That's not the point, Mr. Cedric," she said, "The point is that everybody thinks I'm so good. Last week, at my birthday, it was all anybody could talk about. Amber is going to be a queen, and everybody talks about how responsible and smart she is. James is going to be a knight, and people talk all the time about how he's so brave and ready to lend a hand. At my birthday, nobody would stop telling me about how kind and good and special I am. They kept saying that I would be a perfect diplomat, and that I could solve any problem."
"I don't understand," Cedric confessed, "Aren't those good things? Aren't you happy to hear such things about yourself?"
"Not when they aren't true," Sofia whispered, squirming in her seat. "Amber is responsible and smart because that's who she is. She doesn't have a magical amulet giving her magic powers when she does something queenly. That's not like me. How would you feel if somebody praised you for something that you didn't do yourself? Anybody with this amulet would act as good as I do. I'm just...something that amulet speaks through."
"That is not true!" Cedric interrupted, "You aren't some soulless vessel, Sofia!"
"I am," Sofia mumbled miserably, "And I know that if I didn't have the amulet punishing me whenever I did bad things, I would do bad things more often. I don't always like being good. And if I don't actually like being good, doesn't that make me bad?"
(TO BE CONTINUED)
(please let me know if i can improve in any way as a writer! i've never published a fanfiction for stf before so i know i have a lot to improve upon.)
I have nothing against yumeshippers or people who like to ship themselves with fictional characters, but sometimes they take the obsession WAY too far. I'm talking about when they have full-on meltdowns all because they saw someone else ship themselves with the same fictional character they like, and you have people ENABLING this behavior by saying, "Don't worry, so-so loves YOU and YOU only!!"
These are hand-drawn/computer-animated characters that DON'T EXIST. They can't feel anything! I find it unhealthy to be THAT obsessed over something to the point you feel intense negative emotions when there's "competition" over a non-existent fictional character who don't belong to anybody but their creators.
People who enable mental health issues and encourage behaviors that worsen these conditions just to avoid hurting someone's feelings are doing more harm than good.
Cedric is like "don't talk to me or my kids ever again! πβ
no but really, i freaking love Cedric's dynamic with his students so much!! I do think not only he wants to be a great teacher for them but also wants to treat them as if they were his own kids. heck he even went protective mode when that goo monster attacked! He made sure his students were all behind him and far away from the monster! He cares about them them so much! Like hey, if he decided to treat Sofia like his daughter, then so he can with his students. I can wait to see more moments between him and his students, although I do wonder how his dynamic with be with Devin π
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