joy to be hidden // disaster not to be found

at least there's plants 🌱 I think maybe she/they actually. hm

[chompasaurus]

I should probably mention this somewhere, so: my original/non-reblog stuff is tagged #chompa post if you want to look at it, and you can add #photography or #my art to filter for that (the art one includes some other creations of mine that aren’t exactly art but I like them)

you can feel free to send me a message/ask (doesn’t have to be a question) anytime! I’m always happy to get to talk/interact with people more :]

often I’ll like a bunch of posts and then decide which ones I want to reblog later

[footlongdingledong]

idk man not to sound like a cartoon hippie but if your entirrrrre blog and dash is about how the world sucks and everyones bigoted i think you are going to give yorself brain worms

[footlongdingledong]

"ah but all of this is important and true and if i dont reblog all of this important stuff waga baga THE WORMS! THATS WORMS! THE BRAIN WORMS!

[footlongdingledong]

i do not think you are doing activism chief i think what you are doing is sitting in your room flagellating yourself expecting something to happen

[chompasaurus]

well really I’m almost constantly overwhelmed with stress and can barely function and the recent "productive" periods where I had a job/school I only got through by running on a cycle of "stimulants to deal with the too-heavy workload + sleep deprivation -> knocking myself out to not die of anxiety -> repeat" but I’m sure that’s fine. right?

[chompasaurus]

sigh. if I happen to be doing well/in a good mood then living with my parents is fine and I can have enjoyable conversations with them, but the rest of the time it’s all just arguing/them getting mad at me for not meeting (often arbitrary, if I’m even made aware of them) deadlines and/or doing things "wrong" (aka differently) and I feel I need to get out of here. except even if I could somehow magically afford my own place I really doubt I could manage everything on my own, so that’s a bit of a problem. I certainly wouldn’t be eating well/keeping things as clean/having any semblance of a sleep + meal schedule… I guess if I’m gonna be stuck here for several more years at I at least like this house/location? >_<

[chompasaurus]

and then I start worrying it’d be like this regardless and I’m just too easily upset + particular about things to be compatible with anyone, which isn’t exactly an encouraging thought. I’m lonely enough already :(

[chompasaurus]

sigh. if I happen to be doing well/in a good mood then living with my parents is fine and I can have enjoyable conversations with them, but the rest of the time it’s all just arguing/them getting mad at me for not meeting (often arbitrary, if I’m even made aware of them) deadlines and/or doing things "wrong" (aka differently) and I feel I need to get out of here. except even if I could somehow magically afford my own place I really doubt I could manage everything on my own, so that’s a bit of a problem. I certainly wouldn’t be eating well/keeping things as clean/having any semblance of a sleep + meal schedule… I guess if I’m gonna be stuck here for several more years I at least like this house/location? >_<

[urie]

stop calling it a girl dinner and call it by its formal name: Fend For Yourself dinner in an ingredients household

[queer-reader-07]

[reallyreallyreallytrying]

no fucking way

[chompasaurus]

does anyone else sometimes try to bite leaves that are hanging over the sidewalk/path as if they were a deer, or is that just me

[sobcat]

[tpwrtrmnky]

Tbh I think the "but data centers are important infrastructure, not just AI" talking point misses that like

Ok so roads are important infrastructure. A lot of stuff that's important happens on roads. Now, let's imagine that quadrillionaire Matt Stench has decided that the next big tech innovation is the Wide Car. It's a car that takes up six lanes despite seating only one passenger.

The Wide Car is supposed to be the future, and everyone's going to be driving Wide Cars, even though nobody who makes Wide Cars is turning a profit. Employers are offering Wide Cars as an employee benefit, and getting "nah." Some employers are going as far as demanding their employees drive Wide Cars, and the result is that people take time out of their workdays to get in the mandatory gas usage for their Wide Car before driving home in a regular car.

In spite of the fact that the Wide Car is clearly set to fail, there's an enormous push to expand to twelve-lane roads to accommodate a bunch of Wide Cars that simply will not materialize. This is not an organic response to demand, but a speculative investment that amplifies the existing issues with road development for no good reason.

That is the problem.

[tpwrtrmnky]

Oh and the road infrastructure project is buying up resources other people could have used for literally anything else. With money they promise they'll be making from Wide Car sales any day now.

[tpwrtrmnky]

Okay so what I'm getting from the notes is that when you try to transplant some techbro nonsense into an offline equivalent, you have to be careful to avoid simply inventing something the Americans are already doing in real life

[marsupials-of-mars]

Everyone on tumblr has Conditions. maladies. I log onto tumblr and my mutuals are unwellposting. Conditions I didn't even know existed and sound like dark curses but I will see a post from friend like "died about 60% today, fine now. Made egg on toast #yummytoast". There are so many people in this world with life experiences

[chompasaurus]

I should really start trying to do some more gender stuff, huh. yeah it’s scary, but at the same time the other day someone told me "thank you sir. or ma’am. shouldn’t be assuming anything, sorry" when the only indication from my appearance was dangly earrings and an asymmetrical/half-short haircut so like. wow, maybe I can actually do this. I still have no idea where to begin but holy shit

[geopsych]

Who wants a walk in the woods after a rain, July 2020?

[gender-savvy]

No bad ideas in brainstorming, but some ideas might be more cost prohibitive than others.

[chompasaurus]

I finally finished a project that I started in may! the concrete in my backyard had developed some "potholes" and I decided to teach myself how to do tiles (incorrectly, I’m sure - I really hope it lasts and doesn’t just start falling apart) to fix it nicely, inspired by some mosaic repair type thingies I’d seen before \o/

[chompasaurus]

I’m. holding it together. I think

most things seem to suck, no matter where you go :/

my camping trip starts tomorrow and I’m too damn stressed to be productive/get all the gear ready, I’m hoping I can afford the few food items I need to buy for it, and I still haven’t fixed my tent, FUCK.

[jbt7493]

has anyone noticed that sometimes you take incorrect or undesirable actions instead of the correct and desirable ones? what's up with that