war crime bnnuy lover

hi there i'm emmy and I write. check the masterpost if you wanna request a little something! this will mostly be a place to work on my writing, an ak blog, and aesthetics spot cause i'm tired. ty for understanding. 18+ only please.

[civilight-eterna]

fic request guidelines masterpost and tag library

fic commissions are [OPEN/CLOSED]; information on my carrd [here].

fulfilled requests quick link [here], Ao3 [here].

[the following section is a holdover from tumblr-based freeform fic requests. for information on commissions, please look at my carrd!]

things I prefer to do:

f/f ships

arknights

vocaloid

nsft(w) depending on prompt

my otp chenmiya (typically I age up amiya for these)

sweet and wholesome, sane and consensual

toxic and messy, insane and dubious

ticklekink trash

other ships I love; ch'en/blaze/amiya, ch'en/blaze, horn/mandragora, texland, abyssal hunters/each other/irene in any combination, scavenger/closure, leizi/blaze. I'll update this as I remember more but those are the top ones

characters I love, all the above plus; dorothy, scavenger, warfarin, closure, earthspirit, cantabile

things I'll do:

almost any f/f ship

star ocean 2 femslash <- and if you're a star ocean 2 fan i wanna be fwiends (つ≧▽≦)つ

ex astris girls

fandoms you know i know

polycules (abyssal hunters, nearl and the girls and most any others you can think of)

het on a case by case basis-there's a few I'm down with like whisperain/phantom (based purely on the op rec interaction being really cute) and...I can't remember any others rn. i'm not inherently opposed to a decent het.

I can and will write fucked-up shit. Don't be shy. You will not surprise me and I will not judge you.

examples: sexy cannibalism, sister incest, dub-con in the right circumstances.

gen-fic is okay too though i promise

au's are fine too

things I won't do:

self-insert or cis male!doctor/anyone. if I'm writing the doctor they are either female, nb or genderqueer in some way and they will be their own unique character

anything that goes so far against a character's personality that it's too difficult to write. if you want something specific you can get detailed in your prompt request though and I'll do my best to rise to the challenge!

lesbian-coded characters in het ships. I know this can be a little subjective so it doesn't hurt to ask if you're not sure.

blaze/greythroat. sorry. it's just an ick for me.

characters that are fairly obviously not even pre-teens yet. suzuran is too young.

some considerations:

amiya is kind of a special case. there's a lot the game suggests about her mental maturity vs. her age and i think in any setting aside from arknights i usually call bs because it's usually a lay-up to some kind of 'ship yourself with this underage character, look it's okay' kind of vibe, but arknights puts pretty exclusive emphasis on the familial relationships with amiya and the 'self-insert' character. i feel that as a pharmaceutical CEO with a lot of stress and centuries of grief and empathy stored in her body...girl can do what she's gotta do with the other characters. I do like to age her up a little bit to avoid the gymnastics of trying to explain everything every time though. I ship her with pretty much any woman in the game in the right contexts. update: please please PLEASE consider this carefully before you offer to let me come be in a server/come discuss story ideas anywhere. i write what i write because it matters to me and even if it didn't matter to me as much i really strongly feel that art is the safest medium in which we explore things that might be harder for people to understand otherwise. i am very clear and front-facing with chenmiya being very important to me and it's a pretty solitary existence at times because of it, so please don't invite me somewhere and then ask or expect me to amputate that part of myself because i will be very very hurt.

I do reserve the right to refuse a request for any reason. I do this for fun in my free time, for free, to work on my writing a little, and while I don't refuse things outright most times, please understand if I just lose a little steam.

length of the work will depend entirely upon my inspiration-I'll try to make sure you at least get a drabble size of a few sentences, but I'll do my best to make the most out of the prompts you take the time to send me.

i know most triggers to tag for but if you need something else tagged drop me a line. I gotchu.

okay, that's about it! I'll update when I'm taking requests at the top of the post, so check for availability before you send in a prompt.

thank you for reading! can't wait to write for you.

[trying-trying2lyk]

i love writing out numbers and then putting them in parentheses like "one (1)" even when i dont need to i think its funny

[abjure-obsolescence]

getting hypnotized is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off

[maletolion]

[cryptotheism]

im starting a foundation to introduce underprivileged children to forbidden techniques

[eebie]

I just ate one

[eebie]

You can lie when you name things

[civilight-eterna]

one year

god, you made me so miserable. i broke up with you a year ago today. you just wouldn't talk to me. you wouldn't respect me. you wouldn't try.

it wasn't enough to have all of your needs cared for. you just wanted me to be happy for the privilege of your disregard. i'm still undoing the damage. i'm still learning all the ways you had tried to justify to yourself the way you treated me.

the reason we weren't working out was because i was getting more interested in another friend? nevermind the fact that you knew (or should have known) that i don't work that way, that i'm poly, and nevermind the fact that you are basically telling on yourself because the moment we began to cohabit a space and i needed to count on you to do literally any one fucking thing, you pivoted to the next friendly face to take advantage of and act like i'm so mean for expecting any partnership from you; it couldn't have been that you never lifted a finger to help? that you quietly didn't send payment for your groceries with the stacks of money you had saved to essentially vacation on while i let you stay rent free for over half a year as you "looked" for a job? that you had the nerve to bitch and fucking moan about me serving "your" cereal to a guest for breakfast anyway? that you constantly triggered my ED trauma by acting like you just couldn't eat anything unless someone bought you something special, or that you just "couldn't afford" to buy lunch after blowing $500 on a figure at a convention?

you were an entitled liar. you were so fucking eager to lie to our friends and call it my fault. i was so forgiving for so long. i advocated for you to the people who actually cared about me. you were right all along: you did hurt me in a special way just like you assumed you would when we started out. i cried and told you i was scared and you laughed at me and said i'd never be as scared as you. you told people i was throwing you out with nowhere to go when your family was more than willing to support you in every way. i've never met anyone as selfish as you. miserable fucking human being. you held my emotions hostage and acted like you were taking the high road for it. it's really so unfair how impossible it is to explain the complete lunacy of what you put me through. i can't even exaggerate the violence you wrought on my spirit.

things have changed. i had to become a little harder. i can't carry the love i had for you in me anymore. you are fully gone to me. i'm casting away my tethers to the person i was before, the version of myself i never hated myself more than while i was with you.

i hate you.

[oxair]

[swanlakereturns]

I understand the urge for people to make those posts where they call people who like monster girls "cowardly" compared to more hardcore monsterfucking but goddamn is it annoying to read

[swanlakereturns]

[qasimlondon]

[targetedknowledge]

[segamascott]

[toskarinfr]

mihoyo fans always talk about how gachas have increased production budget now like I'm supposed to be grateful

[toskarinfr]

"now every game has an open world now instead of just jpegs and slideshows!" and I'll never forgive you for it. i don't want botw I want the slideshows

[toskarinfr]

all mihoyo have done is standardize the 50/50 and made gacha players more pretentious and annoying. what has a dodge or parry button ever done for me

[toskarinfr]

I know this comment was made in good faith, however also this is just demonstrably untrue in relation to the effect genshin has had on pity rates

Pity Rates and You: I Fucking Love Picking Poison

You’ll hear the phrase “kinder and more generous than other gacha games” often, but statistically speaking, they can’t all be more generous, right? Someone has to be drawing the short straw here, and data trends towards it being mihoyo fans.

First of all, there’s the elephant in the room: genshin’s rates are some of the lowest on the market. If you look at this post describing contemporary SSR rates roughly around the time it released, you would find that it would be second from the bottom at 0.6% split 50/50 for a 0.3% chance at a banner character, several times below FEH (which has 6% base with the same 50/50 for on and off banner) and even below FGO (which splits its 1% character chance 80/20, for a 0.8% on-banner rate). Also, it didn’t even invent the hard pity. That was Granblue Fantasy’s Andira circa 2016 fleecing a streamer for 2,276 pulls, which led to legislation demanding visible rates for each available item. Speaking of, Grubble (and FEH and most games) have banners with raised SSR rates (6% and 8%) which mihoyo games don’t have, several have banners that guarantee a SSR per 10-pull like The Battle Cats which mihoyo games also don’t have, even more follow the KanColle model where the actual units are mostly timegated / free and they make their money on rings and skins like Azur Lane and Girls Frontline, which mihoyo games also don’t have. Through that lens, the “generous” pity (of 180 pulls compared to the usual 300 for an on-banner) is less of an added consumer protection and more of a consolidation: you’re going to pay less for an individual hard pity hit but you’re going to hit more often and regularly.

Second, that 180 number is basically a lie. More than anything else, genshin (and mihoyo’s) impact on the gacha market has been letting companies know it’s A-okay to lock fundamental parts of a unit’s kit behind duplicates. FGO’s dupe system affects DPS numbers on their NPs. Similarly, FEH has merges that add stats. Neither lock skills or qualitative talent changes behind rolling 7 copies. In that context, at the higher end genshin is actually comparable to other gacha games, and a fair bit worse if you need more than one copy to be viable, which a new unit often is, with 360+ vs. 300. Or it would be, if you didn’t also have to roll for weapons.

Generally, gacha games consider having to roll for weapons on a separate banner gauche. This is because it’s the same bullshit without the reason you’re rolling (the jpegs). There’s a reason why unless the units are free and it’s the main gacha (King’s Raid), the units are directly tied to rolling for the weapons and getting one means getting the other (Granblue), they’re included in the pool but on a separate (higher) rate (FGO, 4%), or if you’re shameless about wanting nothing more than to shake down your players for every red dime (Cookie Run), you don’t tend to do it. The fact that for years people talking about how generous genshin is didn’t mention you needed to roll up to 240 more pulls to get the weapon for the character you just rolled should be grounds to immediately disqualify them from any discussion of kindness on the spot, and the fact that it isn’t immediately brought up is a failure of messaging on the part of consumer protection. Even if the character was a complete package on the first draw (it isn’t) and with the new improved pity for the weapon, the combined 340 pulls is still higher than the industry standard of 300.

Let’s talk about the rolling pity. Theoretically, it’s a good thing: nothing worse than having a fat pity built up that you don’t get to cash out on, right? This is where I’m going to become an annoying contrarian, and say that a rolling pity for an on-banner unit actually incentivizes bad habits for a player that is trying to be free to play, by the way. Part of the things that gachas try to sell you beyond outfits and flexing social power is being able to be less choosy about which banners you roll on—which is because strictly speaking, rolling on a banner as a f2pbtw without enough for a spark fucking sucks. If you don’t get it, that’s it, unless you spend. Allowing people to just pull whenever since they’re always working towards a spark on average causes people to impulse purchase more for the same reason that paying in installments do: several smaller purchases that add up feel less big than an equivalent lump sum. In that sense, several smaller pulling sprees spread across banners they’re ambivalently positive about leave the prospective f2pbbq more vulnerable to the whims of chance than if they had just saved up for one banner they really really wanted, not less.

So where does that leave us? Genshin on the whole did not introduce new generosity, and if you actually look at the numbers comparative to games before it, it innovated mostly on being the pay-in-installments of gacha rates and splitting a larger number up into smaller, marketable chunks while having some of the lowest rates in the industry. Why? It’s simple, it also had more budget than most of the industry. 3D models are expensive. Open worlds are expensive. By raising the graphical and content standards of what a gacha game “should” look like, mihoyo necessitated that as a whole the genre got more predatory if they wanted to make money. You can see this very clearly with GFL1 vs. GFL2: 2d sprites and images can make their money with timegates and skins, but 3D models need a full main and weapon gacha to sustain them. Similarly one only needs to see the difference between the convolution and sheer number of payment points of Arknights and Endfield to understand what the economics of that increased overhead looks like. Mihoyo games in general and genshin in specific were undoubtedly lodestars to the rest of the industry—they showed in bright, shining light that the wider gaming audience were ready and willing to be fleeced in worse terms for more as long as you slapped an open world on top. It’s the klarna of gacha and it’s become the new standard, and I’ll never forgive them for it.

[dorothylarouge]

[jackkdaniels]

when i was a kid i decided that killing people was bad therefore war was bad therefore the military was evil. and adults would tell me it's more nuanced than that and i would understand when i grew up. well i'm a grown up now and idk i still think that killing people is bad and war is bad and the military is evil

[minecraft]

[canoncanidae]

[cheaphalloweencostume]

i need to come up with a way to say “i mean like, movies for grownups” that doesn’t make me feel like a villain

[cheaphalloweencostume]

*peeks in the replies* *gets really nervous and locks my house up and leaves*

[cheaphalloweencostume]

well, i mean more like La Piscine or Mulholland Drive,

[cheaphalloweencostume]

i think i am going insane

[mrblackhaironthestreet]

Apparently it is impossible for Tumblr users to think of a not ageist way to describe their tastes, because everything must always be compared to how inferior children are -- despite the fact that it is pretty much never the choice of any child or children when media aimed at them is dumbed down etc.

Things when bad: kids and children are involved!

Things when good: this is very Adult this is specifically Adult only Adults can understand or want this

[cheaphalloweencostume]

i literally just don’t want to watch Kung Fu Panda

[cheaphalloweencostume]

okay we’ve come all the way back around. let’s pack this up. this post is done. “who asked” you just walked into my post that i made on my blog..? who asked YOU?? am i losing my fucking mind?????

[lady-of-math-and-rope]

"I want to watch movies where the writers assume the audience can handle complex themes and sensitive material."

"Do you mean porn? Or are you being ageist? You're ageist if you don't like Kung Fu Panda."

[goth-queen]