Venting and some mental health stuff

Just some realizations, complaints, and an occasional joke sprinkled here and there

[crypticcrackcat]

One of the most frustrating things about having fairweather parents is how you assume that it's rude to ask people for anything that could even slightly inconvenience them. Then, one day, you have no choice but to ask, then they start saying, "Why were you so worried about asking me for that like it's some big deal or something? Just ask next time before you get like this, lol" Then you stare off into a blank space as you realize that your friends(and even some acquaintances) care more about you than your parents, that you weren't too much after all, it's apparently ok to ask for help, and your parents were the ones who put too much on you and not the other way around.

[va-draws]

A moment of light during the siege

[silly-jellyghoty]

It really does feel like that

[crypticcrackcat]

Thanks for reminding me of the conga line of bots I needed to report and block 😅

[caats]

LMAO this is true ♡

[crypticcrackcat]

This reminded me of a cat game I played in around 2010. I was about 9ish at the time and thought it was fairly popular but nobody else seems to remember it when I talk about it. Anyways, this game basically just had a cat that you would take care of where you had to buy it food, water, toys, etc. They eventually added an option to talk to your cat. You would pull up the window, type in the little chat bubble, hit send and they'd reply. My cat was an absolute a-hole. I thought it was AI responding to me at the time and was confused as to why it was being so rude to me. I look back now and realize, I was most definitely not talking to a robot. But anyhow, my parents saw its colorful language and decided to just find another game since this one was kinda sketch. It's just weird how nobody else seems to know about this game even tho I saw alot of other kids online in it.... 🤔

[disturbedlolita]

[crypticcrackcat]

I remember just eating and doing whatever I thought would make me sick or injured as a kid so I didn't have to go to school lmao (unfortunately it led to me having a high metabolism and pain tolerance so that made it harder for me to actually succeed over the years🙃...)

[anxietyproblem]

[crypticcrackcat]

Add being autistic/adhd/any disability really to the mix and you get a free "step on me daddy" doormat to spice up your mental well being's decayed entry way!

[just-shower-thoughts]

Any form of a true love triangle is impossible without some homosexuality

[crypticcrackcat]

Pollysexuals are the true winners here

[just-shower-thoughts]

It’s insane how enjoyable school can be when you have a teacher who cares about their students and job.

[crypticcrackcat]

I struggled every year in my history classes except for world history my sophomore year in highschool. That teacher was incredibly based. He taught philosophy, different religions, cultures, etc. He actually got me into philosophy. Took a class in university on it cause I enjoyed it so much. All my other history teachers were like, "Read this textbook while I talk about my failing marriage and get mad at you guys when you don't finish your assignment lolololol"

[crypticcrackcat]

A world in which you have freedom is a world in which no one else does

[crypticcrackcat]

Being disabled is all fun and games until you start becoming an inconvenience to other people. God forbid i don't "accommodate" you for the thousandth time.

[crypticcrackcat]

I'm booooored and I desperately need entertainment but I am also incredibly exhausted and need to take a nap. My brain goes brrrrrr while my body goes zzzzzz and its just a constant battle of brrrr and zzzz trying to outdo one another and im just sat here not knowing what to do about it.WHOS IDEA WAS IT TO MAKE SLEEP NECESSARY?!?! I WANT TO DISRESPECT MY SURROUNDINGS AND I CANT CAUSE IM TIRED 😖🤬

[crypticcrackcat]

WHY CANT I BE A GODDAMN ELF THAT BAKES GODDAMN COOKIES IN A TREE?!?! WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITLL BURN IT DOWN?! BOLD OF YOU TO ASSUME I DONT LIKE ARSON, BECKY!!1! ...but anyways, yeah I just wanna live alone in the woods...

[crypticcrackcat]

Don't mean to be all EdGy, but pretending to be human for so long has made me forget who I am. I'm legitimately around people 24/7 since I am unfortunately dependent on them to survive in this current economy. I just am so tired of pretending to care about things I don't care about and having to make exaggerated emotional reactions to situations/objects that I dont really care all too much about. Like, I have interests but I feel like I have made myself develop alot of them so I could fit in and know what people are talking about. I've been trying to find myself again after realizing that so many years of all this "pretending" isn't healthy, even if it is a survival tactic, and I have been trying to spend as much time alone as possible to let my mind go and see what I discover about myself. What are my likes, dislikes, my personality without all the outside influences? I have let myself become so influenced by others in order to be accepted in order to survive. What am I without all of that? Are all humans like this as well? Are we all just pretending to eachother making eachother think we are crazy when we're completely normal? But I do feel like I'm not as good at pretending as others if thats the case. Especially when I actually did realize I was pretending. Kind of like method acting, once you acknowledge that you're acting, you aren't as good at it.

[just-shower-thoughts]

Someone who mispronounces a complex word isn’t dumb - they probably learnt it reading.

[crypticcrackcat]

I once pronounced aisle as izel, and had a whole, "Why is this pronounced Kansas, but this is pronounced Arkansaw!1!1!" moment...

[crypticcrackcat]

Does anybodys meladaptive daydreaming get so bad that when your sleeping and are actually dreaming, you start daydreaming in your dream? No? Just me?

[just-shower-thoughts]

If you refuse to have a baby, then you’re probably stopping thousands of people being born.

[crypticcrackcat]

Good. Last thing I want to do is increase the population in an already over populated planet, with more mentally disabled people like me no less lol (this society is hard enough for the able so why would I want to have kids and put them through the same hell I've been through?)

[crypticcrackcat]

In 11th grade I was just chilling in my class and one of my "friends" (didn't really like her cause she kind of had a stick up her *ss but at the same time my other friend felt bad for her that she was alone all the time so I kind of had to interact with her) litterally yells at me for having long hair and not wanting to cut it off and donate it. Like, im just trying to explain to her that its my hair and I like having it long (besides they wouldn't accept it anyways cause its been too processed) and she has no right to tell me what to do with my hair. And she starts telling me I'm a selfish person and crap cause I want to keep my hair. And no. She doesn't have any kind of disease or illness that would make her loose her hair. And no, she didn't know anybody personally who had hair loss (I asked). She got into lots of arguments with other classmates over dumb crap like this but this was by far the dumbest argument I've had or even heard of in my life. Like, okay Karen, if you think I should donate my hair or else I'm a selfish b**ch then why don't you just donate yours? Why does it have to be my hair specifically? Anyways...

[crypticcrackcat]

Technology hates me so much. I just keep breaking everything. I was at work and I was trying to use the elevator and it worked for everybody else, but the moment I touched the little up arrow, it just freaking broke. It took almost a week to fix it. Bruh, I am just trying to do my job, can we not do the whole technology acting dumb around me thing?