Hello!!

Hey there! Welcome to your local anarcho-queer autistic transfem's blog, I hope you have a blast. I'm currently studying both political science and philosophy and have niche rants locked and loaded about both domains.

[mephistopheles]

i bring a sort of “you should maybe interrogate your so-called ‘preferences’ to make sure they’re not literal textbook examples of severe unconscious bias” vibe that my woke gay friends dont really like

[mote-of-ash]

Transitioning as someone with no particular internal sense of gender feels a little strange. Im going to be very different yet the same, likely more the same than even I suspect. Plus the hormones havnt had a very strong affect on my mood or state of mind so its like, im very normal rn just changing my body schematics as a hobby. (Wich i am pretty excited about)

[mote-of-ash]

lol, lmao even

[mote-of-ash]

sorry taro i cant leave this one in the replies because like,

YEA

I wonder why i never formed a gender identity over nearly 30 years. "surely its just because im just a little genderless blob :3 just a little guy who doesn't get any of that, anyway" draws all my characters with progressively fatter tits and asses and hips and wearing cute clothes that I am not so subtly gazing longingly at. is the void where a sense of gender would be in the room with us right now. its really why i cannot take egg prime directive or people pissing the pot about suggesting someone is transfem seriously because like, i deffo got prodded a little by online friends, and i cannot blame anyone else for why it took me so long to transition. but goddamnnnnnnnnnnnnn if even one person in my physical life had been even a little bit supportive of my weak little GNC heart maybe we'd have ended up in a different place at a different time. dreams of the rain or whatever

[hellraiserssss]

CNC because making decisions stress her out.

[maskedinspirals]

Always the right choice pets ;)

[b0tster]

a man walked up to me at pigcon and said that he followed me on social media for my games & was kinda introduced to transness through me & it actually really helped him when his daughter came out to him wrt being understanding & supportive & i stg i fucking melted into a fucking puddle on the spot 🥺

[dragon-in-a-fez]

when a government bans young people from using social media, and then categorises messenger apps like Signal and WhatsApp as "social media", they are pushing those young people toward using text messages, a fundamentally insecure form of communication. texts are not encrypted in transit and can be read by both the sender's mobile carrier and the recipient's. that also means they can be leaked in data breaches, subpoenaed, or just handed over willingly to law enforcement at the carriers' discretion.

hmm. I wonder why governments might want this

[wcdonaldo]

slamming the big red button on my desk labeled "bweh" over and over again to no discernible effect

[transmascmarypoppins]

why is this post completely broken in every way imaginable

[cecilsrandomeverything]

Broken notes… deactivated account… removed image….

Finally, we have them all.

[spacefinch]

In addition: OP’s name is just… gone. No “[insert username]-deactivated[insert a bunch of numbers]” as is the standard for deactivated blogs.

Just the world “deactivated.” Look upon their post, ye mighty, and despair.

[chatblancofficial]

It’ll be almost impossible to find this post unless it wanders across your dash.

[huewrite]

It wandered across mine. I shall help it travel forward.

[gossamermouse]

this is not a place of honor

[jackviator]

[dinosaurana]

Oh hey post of Ozymandius, good to see you again standing on your feet in a desert where no one remembers you

[k1nky-r0b0t-g1rl]

ive said it before and ill say it again, self harm is an incredibly valuable grounding technique and without it i almost certainly would have done far more harm to myself than any cutting or burning could have. We need to stop framing self harm as this ultimate horror indication of damage, why is this form of self harm any different than another?

We should be teaching people harm reduction not that self harm means you're broken. I'm sorry if anyone has ever made you feel that way. If self harm makes you feel better, even for a moment, why shouldn't you be allowed to do that? people do shit that harms their body all the fucking time but this one thing is off limits?

I'm edging around the topic because it's almost certainly ban worthy but like, if it helps fucking do it, id much rather you use a "less than ideal" grounding technique (which im already rolling my eyes just typing that) than have no way to help yourself.

I hope this makes sense and helps at least one person, i love you <3

[ign1ted-ember666]

THEY KILLED AMITY???????

[xenasaur]

you're not allowed to tell girls who are in a terrible place that they're not broken. it's a bannable offense on tumblr.

[estrogen-blood-chalk]

Honestly, fuck @staff. This post helped save my life and @staff banned her. Fuck you @staff, when ya'll are *anywhere* close to the level of harm reduction that this post provided, maybe then you'll be a real blogging site again

[gaynessopimizationalgorithm]

THEY KILLED ESTROGEN BLOOD CHALK TOOO?????

[estrogen-chalk-blood]

they cannot kill me in any way that matters. Thanks for being here, lovely.

[herefortodazeylily]

they've been very clear with us on this point: you're not allowed to tell girls who are in a terrible place that they're not broken. it's a bannable offense on tumblr.

I'll do it again.

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

Do you remember when Amity risked her blog to give love and paid the price? I haven't forgotten.

[beardedmrbean]

Scientists invented a fake disease. AI told people it was real: Nature.com

I'm a bit frightened for the time when someone less ethical than the person that did this decides to repeat the experiment but leave out the part where they come in later and announce that it was fake and people wind up diagnosed with the fake condition and all kinds of wacky hi jinks ensues.

[beardedmrbean]

Congratulations on the cat

[toasthaste]

according to An Immense World, apparently giant squid eyes are, like, UNREASONABLY large, even for something their size living at those depths. the next largest eyes on earth, blue whale eyes, are less than half the size, and swordfish, who live at similar depths as giant squid and have the largest eyes of any fish, have eyes that could fit inside a giant squid's pupil.

eyes hit serious diminishing returns wrt resource costs vs vision quality as they get bigger, so the question became: what the FUCK do giant (and colossal) squid need to see so badly that they couldn't see with swordfish-sized eyes that's justifying that massive energy cost? that nothing else in the deep ocean needs to see so fucking badly??

turns out the one strength eyes that big really have over much smaller eyes is: seeing large glowing objects in water deeper than 500 meters from an appreciable distance.

sperm whales are the primary predator of giant squid. sperm whales don't glow. BUT! water that deep is full of bioluminescent creatures-- these creatures light up when bumped into. something a sperm whale's size is continuously bumping into those critters, it's just surrounded by a glowing field all the time when it's swimming at those depths, visible from a distance-- if you have the right eyes-- as a massive glowing shape. so basically the only reason to have eyes the size of soccer balls is if you live in the deep ocean and your life depends on having a heads up when a hungry sperm whale lurking around

and also I gotta say, the imagery... the huge lurking threat betrayed only by the ambiguous glowing shape of its movements through the water, is really evocative, if spooky deep-sea games aren't already using that to make things extremely ominous then they should really start

[the-stars-descend]

You’re living, you occupy space, and you have mass.

You know what that means?

[the-stars-descend]

You matter

[cuintuar]

-DESCARTES. René. Meditationes de Prima philosophia, Paris, 1641.

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

SOMWONE PLAYED $200 for my game????? Okay that HAS to be a mistake

Like don’t get me wrong I’m poor, but I’m not without scruples enough to not think it an accident. I need to return that.

[tgirl-tamag0tchi]

It wasn’t even for one of my two actual systems… they paid that for my very much free two pager game…

[cuintuar]

I mean... If you can track them back, you can ask them if they meant to do it. If not, there's nothing you can really do about it, is there? Happy little accident. And if they paid specifically for a small and free game, they probably meant it.

[7777777awawawa7777777]

cis men are doing forcemasc self hypnosis every day

[7777777awawawa7777777]

cis men know that it’s possible to be amab and not a man and it’s their biggest fear

[isuggestforcefem]

I’m coming for them.

[missstrogen]

I still am

[catboybiologist]

I'm not even nearly as anti-LLM as most other leftists but part of approaching new technology is "hey let's think real critically about the application and scope of this so we can use it in ways that are worth it and don't cause mass scale societal damage" but the fact that it's being injected into fucking EVERYTHING makes any stance more cautious than "USE LLMS FOR EVERYTHING NOW AND FOREVER" so much more anti than the status quo that I don't even fucking want to add nuance

[catboybiologist]

Like most of the problems people have with LLMs are the natural conclusion of decades of tech companies gaining monopolies, environmental regulations struggling to keep up with new technologies, and a growing semi-privatized surveillance state, as opposed to issues with LLMs themselves. There's a theoretical reality where LLMs are implemented in useful, responsible, and sustainable ways but that reality is so far removed from our current one that none of those points actually matters

[tamamowand]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYBODY*

here's the lgbtq tag trending as it does regularly due to pornbots catfishing using the same stolen photos from the same trans woman on the same trending tags page

remember the year in review? this was one of the featured tags

here's tumblr staff stating that making death threats towards trans women isn't a violation of the ToS or user guidelines

type of shit you can just say to trans women on this website. same person btw

here's tumblr staff terminating me for appealing the explicit flag on a post immediately before accepting said appeal and then terminating my already terminated blog to change the termination reason to something i can't appeal when I appealed the termination for explicit content

here's tumblr staff doing the exact same thing a second time

here's tumblr staff flagging SPECIFICALLY AND EXCLUSIVELY MY REBLOGS of a year old post with 15,000 notes as sexually explicit despite it not actually showing anything

here's SPECIFICALLY AND EXCLUSIVELY MY REBLOG of a post with gifs of two fully nude people fucking center frame being flagged as sexually explicit and the same gifs in the trending tags thumbnails

here's tumblr letting people blaze sissy hypno captions even though anything actually mentioning trans women gets denied

here's tumblr giving my original blog of 13 years a special kind of mature flag that automatically marked every single post i made as mature content separate from the actual content label

here's one of the pictures of the PMMM gachapon toys from the photoset of them that someone reported as CSAM that tumblr terminated me for - one of the two surviving images from it, from back when they actually bothered to moderate posts instead of just hitting the nuke button without looking

here's tumblr instantly denying my appeal for these terminations before I even get the email where they assure me they will carefully review it

here's tumblr terminating me 5 times in the weeks it took them to remove a burner blog and a single post encouraging people to mass report me and harass me forever over completely fabricated claims

here's tumblr flagging my already mature-flagged blog as mature out of the blue 15 minutes before dropping the age verification shit

and here's the episode of the anime that I posted a screencap from that they flagged as sexually explicit, denied my appeal on twice, and then marked my blog mature the first time for posting - available for viewing on youtube with a TV-14 age rating

*except transfems

[cuintuar]

The fact that I don't know if this is satire or not is somewhat chilling

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

some days i feel overwhelming grief for the fact that i never got to be a teenaged girl

[k1ntsug1-r0b0t-g1rl]

i should have been an awkward tomboy slowly figuring out she's a lesbain and crushing on my best friend but instead i was crushed into nothing by feelings i couldn't even point to

[cuintuar]

I should've had an incredibly awkward "not like other girls" phase, spent some time thinking everyone was cringe for being so boy crazy, which would've led me to assume I was just better than them right up until I realized that the crushing feeling I got when talking to that girl I found cool and interesting and funny and- was, in fact, why we call it a crush (kid me was a bit slow on the uptake when it came to emotional stuff). Bref, it probably would've been awkward instead of simply alienating.