A/N: This is actually coda to 4x01 which I got around to watching like an hour ago and I just had to type this up so yeah. Iāll catch up with this show eventually
When worse comes to worse, Cisco knows that he has an incredibly effective habit of repressing the hell out of his issues until they go away, burying his problems under equations and diagrams and machines and hey, if those donāt work out, thereās always Star Trek. Itās maybe a little stupid and maybe a lot idealistic but a little faith never hurt anyone.
(Or a lot. Maybe a lot. More faith than is smart and Cisco has always given everything he has, even if it means it takes a little of his soul along the way.)
Faith can do anything, his Mama used to say, when Cisco was still tiny and still held onto every word she used to say the way only a five-year-old can. Itās never really worked out that way for him, and if he were perfectly honest, faith ends up causing more problems that it fixes, but hey, a manās gotta cope somehow.
Barry has to come back. Caitlin has to get better. Absolute truths that absolutely nothing can disprove.
Cisco doesnāt deal with loss very well. Or at all. When he was eight, he dropped his Walkman down two flights of stairs and smashing it to pieces. Three hours later, he has it back to working condition, and maybe three hundred times better than it was before.
(He built four Flash suits, just in case, each one better than the last because losing one meant losing Barry and losing STAR Labs and losing everyone andā¦
Cisco really does not deal with loss very well.)
Thereās something to be said about being a science prodigy and being a superhero at the same time, about constantly creating the impossible with his fingers, with his hands that makes him think that nothingās actually impossible. Ciscoās not stupid enough to believe that he can unlock the secrets of the universe because thatās never gonna happen but he doesnāt have to unlock the secrets, he doesnāt have to know everything. He just has to do it.
Because thereās always a way out. Thereās always a way of twisting the equation, tweaking the variables in-between, or just making a completely new equation to get the result he wants. Itās rarely easy but itās never impossible.
Thereās no such thing as irredeemable (he sees her fall before his eyes and knows in his heart that thereās no coming back from that but that doesnāt matter because he can save her. He can.) and thereās no such thing as unattainable (he never really understood the speedforce but then, the speedforce has never met the likes of Cisco fucking Ramon before.)
It makes him maybe a little stupid, and maybe a lot reckless.
But hey, it worked and you donāt look a gift horse in the mouth.
Ā And it will work, he thinks as he looks at the speedforce bazooka in his hands. It has to.
