The Chaos Realm

the names Azure. 24, she/her. stoner, baby skater, "artist", spiritualist, overall hot mess. very happily taken; don't message me just to hit on me. you won't get very far.

[valtsv]

we all talk about doing it scared doing it alone doing it weird etc. but the the hideously awful truth is that you also often have to do it stupid

[delicate-downfall]

Religion is how humanity learns to cope with the fact that we are alone, and become more comfortable seeking comfort and guidance from within.

[delicate-downfall]

This phenomenon where no one I used to know recognizes me is getting out of hand, as it even extends to guys who used to crush on me in high school.

In all reality, while I speak about it like it's bad, it truly is a blessing. I walk through the local Walmart, whose employee base is 50% old classmates, and the majority of the people I grew up around, looked up to, called friends or even family all shop there, like I just moved here.

How many people get to start over without going far at all?

[delicate-downfall]

It's the second of June, and by 1130 it has not even reached 70° in an area where the norm is 80's to low 90's this time of year.

We need help.

[delicate-downfall]

Bad friends are bad, don't get me wrong.

But you can't let the bad ones isolate you from all of humanity.

Different humans offer different perspectives. This is crucial if you wish to live in the world of truth.

Fact of the matter is you will never see yourself how others see you, and that's what friends are supposed to be for. They keep you locked into reality.

[mihai-florescu]

[delicate-downfall]

You ever hit your tooth on a wine glass that your sipping on for control, and upon the shudder and head shake induced to control the rising stimulation overload you feel your bun, barely attached to your head by a tiny claw clip, shake?

Sometimes. That's all it takes. Every ounce of effort and control to be "normal" goes out the window and you curl up into a sobbing blob in the corner of the kitchen by the dishwasher because it's hum is soothing.

[aboutoriginality]

[ferrousferrule]

For those of you who dont get to see fireflies. Yes they are real and yes they are gentle

[kick-a-long]

Fuck. I can’t believe how much I needed to see something sweet and beautiful and needless right this very moment.

Thank you. I’ll try to get it to more people in need.

[yellow-cat]

draw it bad and draw it weird and draw it catered only to yourself and draw it wobbly and draw it too small and draw it with the default brush and draw it without using references and draw it and leave it unfinished and draw it for the first time and draw it

[yellow-cat]

youre literally allowed to do anything u want forever. i hope this helps

[yellow-cat]

accept the fact that youre not necessarily going to be happy with the end result and allow yourself to draw it anyway. hope this helps

[notetoriouslylazy]

[delicate-downfall]

i look people i once called friends in the eyes, and i see someone staring at a stranger.

not even a cog turning, trying to figure out a face they can't quite place.

[delicate-downfall]

So much adhd and so disassociated, I stopped a break down from crossing the line because I got distracted fantasizing about being in this beautiful landscape drawing I saw opening my phone.

[thespoonisvictory]

people misunderstand what ‘gifted kid’ actually means but it’s ok it’s fine it’s cool it’s good

[thespoonisvictory]

it’s not about actually being gifted, it’s about an initial higher scoring on standardized testing that means little to nothing or being good at learning in the way elementary and middle school wants you to, so you get marked as ‘advanced’. in reality, maybe you had faster development in certain areas, but the issue with being a gifted kid isn’t that “everyone told me I was so cool and special for reading and then I actually wasn’t :(” it’s “I wasn’t properly taught to handle things not coming easily to me, but the adults around me were counting on me not being a ‘difficult’ child in school.”

people who use it as some weird bragging method or interpret it that way are ignoring the way a lot of school systems force certain roles on students to simplify the learning process. If your kid doesn’t need to take notes to understand a science concept bc they get it naturally, well that’s good, but now you’re not teaching them how to take notes and they’re not learning that important soft skill. but because ‘gifted’ kids are easy and don’t show that they’re falling behind in learning in other categories that are harder to quantify, they eventually fall behind after that catches up to them. It’s about the failures of a one size fits all school system trying to compensate in the worst way possible.

[jabberwockypie]

And also the thing where ‘gifted’ kids are super likely to also be neuroatypical, which they don’t get screened for because they appear to be doing well in school. Or “You can’t be ADHD/autistic/etc, because you’re doing so well in school!”. Or being shamed for developing mental health issues/generally not being able to keep up with school work later, because you USED TO BE able to do it just fine.

Or the assumption that just because you can read well or you like math class, you’re somehow more EMOTIONALLY mature than your little kid brain is actually capable of being.

Or gifted kids whose parents and teachers put immense pressure on them to Do Great Things and Save The World and you’re like. “I’m 10 and I have no idea how to do that, but everyone is saying that’s my job?”.

[swordplease]

This is the best “gifted kid” post out there. I never took notes until college because I didn’t have to, snd when it got challenging I had to literally teach myself note taking at age 18. It also fucks with your perception of asking for help - you’re advanced, you’re competent, you should be able to understand every topic easily. Asking for help/going to office hours/asking for a tutor feels like failing when you were praised in your early years for not needing to do that.

[geeneelee]

Teeth are bullshit. What do you mean you’re decaying. Get a fucking grip. You’re a bone now act like it. You don’t see my finger bones decaying from jerking it too much now do you

[lifeattomsdiner]

First you procrastinate on the task because it is not a big enough deal to get done urgently. Then you procrastinate on the task because it has become such a big deal that doing it is overwhelming. You would think that this implies a middle point where it is just big enough of a deal to get done easily, however the inherent perversity of the universe's causal geometry prevents this

[grimsgirl-deactivated20251113]

[asdanimal]

alright here we go

this one's for "stupid" mentally disabled people. people who can't do basic math. people who are gullible to no fault of their own. people who can't understand nuance in some situations. people with cognitive issues. intellectually disabled people.

hey, you're doin' just fine. doing a great job, even! don't put yourself down or feel like your worth as a person rests on how smart you are. we'll be ok

[bliss-bliss-bliss-bliss]

Can I get a sidebar holler for the folks who "used to be smart", who have lost skills, lost memory, lost independence. You're still valuable and loveable, and you're worth more than what you can do

[asdanimal]

YOU KNOW IT BOSS!!! *has declining cognitive function and memory loss from brain damage*