Queer and Trembling in Fear

Hi! I'm Espi (she/her) a 30+ year old neuroqeueer bruja who enjoys horror, video games, and animation. I am currently a grad student pursuing a doctrate in sociology and I'm really interested in digital spaces and neurodiversity! I'm late dx autism/adhd and have all kinds of trauma :') Please be advised that this blog is rated mature and you will run accross a lot of NSFW content! Being a horror fan means I will reblog a lot of (fake) blood and gore, and although I try my best to maintain a tagging system I may forget sometimes! My old mutuals know me from some of my past fan works, such as Star Trek (DS9 especially) and a lot of Scarecrow/Batman content. You can find an archive of my old artwork over on my sideblog @pranzadia. I kind of try to keep my other social media seperate from this blog but if you are interested in my artwork or really into Splatoon or DBD feel free to DM me and I will share my Insta/gaming ID with ya! Nyaa~~

[sovietnam]

[tanuki-kimono]

“Nameless flowers”, by Ono Tako. Artist states this should be first piece from a serie (that’s so great!)

[wetheurban]

May you never abandon yourself again, especially for what isn't good for you.

[suturemesweetly]

[shapelytimber]

Some time ago, I dreamt that an Italian man turned into a cat had to prove he wasn’t a regular cat by cooking a pot of tomato sauce in front of baffled residents of the house. He struggled, due to cats not having opposable thumbs, and the verdict was that the sauce sucked but it was indeed weird a cat cooked anything at all

[klimtsonian]

it’s so confusing sometimes to be a girl ❤️‍🔥

[gebo4482]

Kos(ゴース), Orphan of Kos(ゴースの遺子) by ずろ❄️Zlofsky(@Zlofsky2nd)

[dominionatrix]

I made a punk version of Ghost Face from DBD who is inspired by the Aztec dancers from LA Pride! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜✨

This is a bit late but just in time for disability pride! Remember to celebrate together and stay safe! 👻🩷💜💙🩷🧡🤍✨🐦‍⬛

[dominionatrix]

Some belated Queer Pride fanart of one of my survivor mains, Lee Yun-Jin! I'm a fan of this fit that makes it look like she step right out of the Folsom Leather Festival. Remember to stay safe when you play!⛓️💥👋🍑😈

[dominionatrix]

I know they are from two unrelated franchises but that doesn't mean they are not soul mates! David 8 from the Alien franchise and Wesker from RE series. Their love knows no viral bounds! ✨❤️🧡💛💚💙💜✨

[dominionatrix]

Just some playful Weskies that got the Zoomies. They are a bonded pair up for adoption! Please be sure to give them their daily injections!  💉🦠

[dominionatrix]

Reposting this again because I received a notification that the QR code in this flyer wasn't working! Please feel free to scan the fixed code now, it leads you to the same survey link as the TinyUrl.

Recruitment is still ongoing! Please use the link/QR code to determine eligibility! As to what online spaces, that could be, "a space that allows for meaningful interaction with people over mutual interests or topics, and may provide you a sense of belonging or support”.

Call for participants! Are you #ActuallyAutistic and/or #ADHD? You may be eligible to participate in this study exploring neurodivergent experiences of digital spaces! To determine eligibility for this study, please take this short online survey to see if you can participate in two separate in-depth interviews: https://tinyurl.com/neurodigitalstudy

About the researcher: I am a Ph.D. student in the sociology program at UCSF. I am a neurodivergent researcher, diagnosed later in life with autism and ADHD. Please note that an official diagnosis is NOT required to be part of this study! For more info/questions: contact me at [email protected] or DM me! You can also find me on my LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/pranzadia

P.S. There is an opportunity to do art in this research project! Please share the above link with others whom you think may be interested! :)

[latehere]

synthetics can also aura farm

[latehere]

Isolation 2 is on the way my guys

[rocktheholygrail]

Jennifer's Body (2009) Obsession (2026)

[ex0skeletal-undead]

Unhung, colored pencils, markers, and white pen on red paper by apelure

[cavernclaw]

How it feels to be mutuals with someone for over a year