Embodiment is a constant struggle.
I think that's all my thoughts and feelings on the subject for today.
I mean, the struggle's probably worth it. Embodiment is also the site of much of what makes being a human being amazing -- at least for me. But I wish I could take a break sometimes.
I guess that's sort of what dissociation is: a temporary break from embodiment. And I have a whole toolbag full of tips and tricks for doing that. But...but nothing. I dunno. Maybe dissociation is adaptive when it's a skill you have for handling the struggles of embodiment sustainably. And not so much when it's just a state you get thrown into involuntarily because being embodied just got way too hard in that moment / day / year.
Ultimately, bodies are interesting (in the way that all complex systems and scientific phenomena are interesting) but, personally, I think I care way less about bodies themselves than I do about what the psychoemotional experience of being embodied is like. This probably makes me ideally suited for doing certain kinds of bodywork and not really cut out to excel at certain others.
And I think THAT'S probably all I have to say on the subject for this evening.
Also, I farted while giving a massage today. I've never done that before. Pretty embarrassing.
So, like I said, a constant struggle.





















