tbh i don’t know what i’m doing

here are a few things I *do* know i’m doing: thirsting for charles edwards maybe having a quarter life crisis? writing tolkien fic

[erulasse23]

hello everyone!

I post mainly about tolkien (trop, silm, lotr, the hobbit), but i am also into project hail mary, star wars, and more. expect a mix of meta, fanfic, memes, and thirst posting. I am a huge multi-shipper. you name it, I’ll try it.

my writing: ao3

layout by @malkaleh 🩵🩵

- erulasse

[erulasse23]

me on a foggy beach: god I’m so ryland grace rn

[solidjellyfish]

Back when I drew my husband

[erulasse23]

damn I kind related too hard to jackson healy and made myself big sad guess it’s time to take a break from writing for the night :/

[erulasse23]

Kuttner walks, the Detroit auto manufacturers walk, and there’s not a lick of justice to be found.

He had told March, that night by the empty pool, about his deep, craterous need to feel useful. He remembers that night even in the haze of tobacco and whiskey. (He’ll always remember that night.)

In this case, he was no use at all.

The girl is dead and no one will pay for it except for Jackson fucking Healy, drinking alone at a bar and breaking all of his self-imposed rules.

[wingkink]

btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here

[cactusringed]

I think fanfiction as a medium is different enough from mainstream literature in the tools it offers writers that it's a shame that it's not talked about more often. And it's not me saying "fanfic is better than books xD" because that sort of mindset is a symptom of people who aren't particularly well read in either medium. I'm just speaking of like... The little things you get to do with a fanfic that you genuinely can't really do in an original story.

I had a big fanfic in a previous fandom where one of the big reveals was the involvement of a kind of infamous villain, whose presence was built up to and foreshadowed through the whole fic until his reveal without ever mentioning his name, so that the name drop would be a gut punch. It worked especially well because of who the villain was and his presence in that fandom space specifically (it's very complicated) and if it was an original story this reveal wouldn't work at all the way it was written in the fic. Because if you don't have a predisposition to think about that character and his relationship to the hero in a very specific way, then just seeing their name won't do much to you; the reveal and the recontextualisation it pushes upon you hinges on your previous knowledge of the source material.

I think it's an interesting tool fanfic authors are given. One of my favorite fanfic of all time is partially a re-imagining of its source material's canon, and something it does is introduce antagonists much earlier in the story or deepen npcs' stories. It then works to evoke a tragic irony that again wouldn't work if you didn't know the source material, and it's something the author obviously has a lot of fun with.

You could call it cheap or a crutch and I mean, yeah, sure, it is a little bit: the fanfic relies on previously established emotional bonds and stakes to achieve its goal, and in some cases it saves the author from having to 'properly' build up its stakes. But I think it's INTERESTING that it has that tool at its disposal. I think it's a fun thing to play with and I think these built in expectations and emotional bonds are especially why I find story driven aus in particular to be fascinating in the amount of ways you can play with them. You know??

[sublimeinvention]

i hate old gay people they make me feel things

[erulasse23]

damn I kind related too hard to jackson healy and made myself big sad guess it’s time to take a break from writing for the night :/

[erulasse23]

For Random Fic Writer Questions:

Question 2

when and where do your best ideas seem to strike?

no joke it’s always when I’m driving or in the shower 😅 something about being occupied with a repetitive, routine tasks frees up my brain to just free associate and I come up with all sorts of ideas!

[erulasse23]

#18 for writer asks?

what’s a trope you want to write but haven’t written yet?

ooooo I’d say maybe fake dating?? I feel like the mutual pining while thinking it’s unrequited thing is so fun and I love reading it so maybe one day I’ll write it too! for Jopper specifically I’d love to take a crack at the Alaska post-rescue motel situation that’s turned into a bit of a trope 🤭 one day!

[writesharriet]

New fic:

Midnight at the Oasis, The Nice Guys, March/Healy

🔍 casefic: blackmail, illegal porn, undercover at a gay bar

🔍 the world’s most pathetic man being gently dommed into taking care of himself

🔍 52k, Explicit

🔍 complete but posting weekly

archiveofourown.org/works/85086316

chapter 3 plot summary

[thatpersonwithbooks]

I love the nice guys cause its just holland being an absolute fucking idiot and horribly incompetent at his job (affectionate❤️) and then it cuts to mr jack homosexual healy over here making absolute i need to fuck him NOW eyes at holland

[harbourverse]

fic writer asks!

send a number to get an answer!

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[erulasse23]

march craving a hand around his throat cause he loves how strong and possessive healy is but healy won’t do it cause all he can think about is the feeling of someone going still under his hand…

[lemonskittlesofficial]

me, watching my mutuals post ceaselessly about a fandom i’m not in:

[queenbruv]

i have so many fragmented thoughts about blade runner 2049. questions. musings. i can't stop thinking about that scene of k and joi in the rain. she says "i'm so happy when i'm with you" and he replies "you don't have to say that." he buys an ai girlfriend who can be Whatever You Want Her To Be! and he just gets the store model. doesn't bother to change her appearance. she's just a thing, but he's also just a thing. he doesn't like real girls. he doesn't want to be human. not until he thinks he really might be. "to be born is to have a soul" he says, meaning he doesn't think he has a soul, and he doesn't think joi has one either, and he's fine with that. he puts her in an emanator so she can go wherever she wants. that's what he says. not "you can always be with me" (she is artificial intelligence programmed to be into him!!!) but "you can go anywhere you want". he can't set her free but he can give her the illusion of freedom, which is the same thing he has. an object masquerading as a person. "i'm so happy when i'm with you" says the computer program. "you don't have to say that" says the soulless replicant because he knows she can't feel happy, he knows she's programmed to say that, he didn't change any of her settings, it wasn't about that. he didn't buy a lover. didn't even buy a friend. just bought a program pretending to be a person. and then gave her the chance to experience the world like a person does. she isn't one. neither is he. but that's the point.

[erulasse23]

i can’t talk right now I’m busy imagining ryland grace drooling around my fingers