Welcome to my circus

The night is my day

[fantasyinmydreamss]

“You are not invited to the other side of sanity”

— E.T. - Katy Perry

[untilthehorizonturnsred]

》And as Persephone looked down at the sinful fruit in her hands, she thought about everything she would leave behind but also everything she would gain. As she glanced at the symbol of her destiny again, the seeds looked like rubies, softly shimmering in the moonlight. She smiled. Her decision, suddenly, wasn't hard at all anymore《

[fantasyinmydreamss]

Y'know what they say. The bigger the fake lashes, the bigger the insecurities

[fantasyinmydreamss]

And when I feel that someone starts to love me less, I begin to draw back as well. Almost like a gag reflex; spitting something out because it could be choking you or might be poisonous and hurt you.

Love has an expiring date

[fantasyinmydreamss]

They called him dangerous - but he was my safe

Unknown

[fantasyinmydreamss]

You don't scare me. I'm fascinated by you, that's why you draw me in so much

Like a moth to the flame

[fantasyinmydreamss]

The moment before feet are touching the sharp shards of glass before they willingly dance on them. The uneasy feeling in your gut when you go jump off a cliff, sensing something's wrong but won't know that the rope's gonna rip. The fear in your insides before the snake lunges at your hand, knowing you can't pull it back quick enough to not get hurt. All those feelings mixed into one and easily compared to the feeling I got inside of me. The acceptance of pain, the uncertainty what is happening and the fear of falling back into the abyss I once crawled out so laborious

Me, trying to explain my mind

[fantasyinmydreamss]

Where's my mind?

Not in the clouds but not on the ground either

[fantasyinmydreamss]

You gon' have to come stronger than this liquor. Wanna take me home? Better be more convincing. It'll take more than that to get to me. More than that to get your way.

More than that - Lauren Jauregui

[fantasyinmydreamss]

Am I supposed to feel like this? Like I'm dead Inside?

[fantasyinmydreamss]

You think I am your prey? Well, in this case I have bad news for you. I am a huntress myself

I won't be scared and run, I will bare my fangs for fun

[fantasyinmydreamss]

Now I'm sitting here, drunk and completely freaked out. Music is good. Alcohol is good. But I can't stop, I feel the urge to drink more and more and more again.

[fantasyinmydreamss]

Did you ever feel so stressed and nervous and mad, that you are just too much for yourself? Like you have to get something out of you. You want to scream or cry or bleed or just do anything that helps your mind getting emptier

Stress, the eternal enemy

[pinepizzalove-blog]

[simply-certifiable-deactivated2]

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[sectumsempraworld]

[a-psychopath]

[fantasyinmydreamss]

The other voice in my head is abusive, yet it tries to save me from thoughts that are no good for me. Today it said: "Don't worry that pretty little head of yours"

So altough it's cruel, it cares for me?