★ name: Rafael, but you can also call me Raf, Rafaello, teenage mutant ninja turtle, the Angelo Dalton profile pic guy™ or just fish
☆ pronouns: he/him mainly but I also vibe with it/its/itself and fish/fish's/fishself (oh no the neopronouns :0). generally I'd like to be addressed with masculine terms only like guy, dude, etc etc
★ age: 17 ( I don't mind ppl of any age interacting, but if the age gap is >2 years, platonic interactions only)
INFP-T | 4w5 | melancholic
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◎ me in picrew
◎ my YouTube channel
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under the cut are my queer identities, hobbies, interests and extra info!
queer things!
☆ I'm a trans guy and binary male. I identify with xenogenders and use neopronouns, but I'm still 100% binary male too, the duality of this world man /silly
◎ here is a list of the neopronouns I go by!
★ I'm gay and attracted to other guys (whether also trans guys or cis guys)
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my hobbies and interests
»»————> music: I play electric guitar in a music band (that currently only has 2 uncompleted songs but um.. believe me we're future rock stars, we also do covers!!), I try to write my own music too! I'm trying to learn how to sing so I can do that as well as guitar :D I'm also in lots of music based (or music + ideology based) subcultures like goth, punk, emo, hardcore, metal, grunge, I just generally love anything that's alt/rock/metal! I'm very indesicive about my favourite bands and I listen to super many but if it's of any of those genres it's very likely I listen to them!
»»————> literature: I'm lowkey writing stories and wanna publish a book one day! my main genres are psychological horror, surrealism and drama. I also love reading! my favourite authors are Kafka, Camus, Sartre and Husserl.
»»————> art and other stuff: I like making kandi and drawing, I'm going to study philosophy and sociology after finishing school and it's one of my special interests! I also love musicals, opera and theatre in general (currently not acting but did before and wanna go back to theatre!) I'm not super into sports but I really like swimming and trying to learn surfing and skateboarding this summer!
»»————> some of my fandoms: any music related subculture, my little pony, miraculous lb, invader zim, death note, danganronpa, undertale, sally face, minecraft, FNAF, any Kafka, Camus/Sartre/generally existentialism book fandoms!
»»————> where to find me: my awesome government decided to ban the majority of foreign social media so I don't have lots of lol. I'm mostly active on here, Pinterest (@rafael_fish), Telegram and WhatsApp (ask in DM if you wanna chat on those)
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extra stuff if you're curious!
my beliefs: ☆.｡.:*➊.｡.:*☆ in political sense, I'm an anarchist and generally leftist about all political issues. here's a post where I go into more detail about my specific thoughts: link
☆.｡.:*➋.｡.:*☆ in religious beliefs sense, I believe in reincarnation and although I'm not a part of a specific religion, I believe that there are many Gods and Goddesses and spirits that communicate with humans through nature and that there's a sort of heaven we reach when we finish our cycle of reincarnation. that's where being the fish comes from , I was the fish in my last (previous) past life, I remember it very well and consider my soul a mix of human and fish
my nationality and ethnicity: I'm from Russia and currently live here. ethnically I'm Romani, Jewish, Russian and Ukrainian.
my uh.. issues:
☆.｡.:*➊.｡.:*☆ diagnosed/in treatment for: an0rex1a nervosa (screw tumblr's censorship man) , also was on medication for anxiety a few times (OCD was suspected by a few doctors but didn't end up getting diagnosed, I suppose cuz of my age/not enough traits for diagnostic criteria so just anxiety I guess lol) and I have had head trauma/injury that lead to some chronic vision and motor sickness issues + chronic pain, I might get surgery for vision issues when I'm 18 tho 👍
☆.｡.:*➋.｡.:*☆ suspecting/waiting to get professional evaluation: BPD (I brought it up but as y'all probably know it's normally not diagnosed in minors and young adults but I have my reasons to suspect it 😅) and AuDHD (medical diagnosis can make immigration process harder and I'd like to immigrate + my family who btw also has lots of traits thinks such diagnosis is something bad and doesn't want me to have it)
fidget toys because otherwise I get harmful stims like skin picking or twisting my bones in weird painful way and I do it almost involuntary because I CAN'T STAY STILL
headphones ofc where are we going without music
one billion gum packages with different flavours (I'm addicted)
my 1115 ml water bottle because I drink insane amounts of water I'm always thirsty 😩
usually a Camus or Kafka book but sometimes Cioran, Lorca, Husserl or Sartre
fuck them, I wanna kill them and turn them into fish food and then they'll be EATEN by your loyal Russian friend aka me <(￣︶￣)>
but on a more serious note this is really awful, I'm sorry my bestie I hope they all die or idk move to live into space and disappear and leave you alone, you deserve better than what's happening in this stupid America 😒
also idk if you like punk rock ,but the part about police reminded me of a song by Agent Orange called Kill The Police, check it out I recommend it a lot! :D
OMG YES CONGRATS BRO I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! /gives virtual high five/
I recently passed so much that when I came into the woman's toilet with my mom (she's like.. accepting of me being trans kinda, like accepting-ish but she wouldn't let me go into male toilet) and a girl in a hijab was taking her hijab off and fixing her hair and when I came in she looked at me and quickly pulled it back on her head and seemed very surprised I felt so bad I'm sorry for interrupting your hair fixing girl it's all this transphobic world-
recently I've been very not normal about the bands Agent Orange, The Queers, Joy Division, Violent Soho, Green Day and Alice In Chains. especially the first 2 last.. week/2 weeks?? I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO THE SAME SONGS MY BLOOD IS NOT BLOOD BUT THE NOTE STRING OF THESE SONGS RAHH
🌱😔🙂↕️😖 wellll uhhhh yeah i mean that’s kinda true lol @raymoonknight @the-koolest-kal @very-normal-tape-recorder @allotherblognamesaretaken @l0g4nsuckass and open tags cause I don’t wanna go through the process of tagging people :P
list ten things that you hope reminds your moots of you WHATEVER and then name one thing that reminds you of whoever you reblogged it from (that’s NOT on their list!!)
ten things i hope reminds my moots of me:
dean winchester
romance books
casey mcquinston books
calico critters
supernatural
ilya roznov
elle greenaway
niko sasaki
destiel
marvel
npt: @mothwingsmayy @space-girliee @ethereallstarr @pcrtimepoet @luvieville @rustytyperwriter @ineffablelyqueerwolfstarshipper + anyone else who wants to do it!!
since i don’t all know who’s going to be doing it, everyone that i tagged that does it i’ll send the thing that reminds me of them in their inbox okay have fun bye
ty for the tag!! something that reminds me of you is hmm...im having trouble deciding between "extreme genderness" and "desert animals"....so im leaving them both here hehe >:)
as for me uh oh uhhhhh
reading and writing (fanfiction) (i mean what who said that)
pansexualness and fruitiness in general
the shadowhunter chronicles
riordanverse, especially magnus chase and the gods of asgard!!!
didint think I'd get tagged but eh-(no worries it isn't bad) hmm you remind me of..I actually don't know wait I know! Green get it couse your current pfp is green themed?
1..my ocs(specifically Mes ig-)
2.the Len5 art?(idk)
3.my lencest ship(Plus boy x Fear garden Len)
4.chaotic-
5.papercrafts
6.my Vocaloid spirit au
7.my mix covers
8.the multiple ask blogs
9.i don't know what else to say
10.traumatizing ocs
Tags(sorry if you didint want to get tagged-): @star-mochi-art, @i-am-basement, @jaedyn-here, @sparrowasteroid8876 + @opentags
yes, i am so lonely and paranoid that i either burst into tears (/pos) or cheer joyfully whenever a mutual calls me their friend, close friend, etc. or tags me on smth
flashed my anti psychosis meds down the toilet, completely lost my period.. uhh I think it's not considered a successful recovery anymore? I'm sorry I suck again now :(
GUESS WHO'S SO BACK (again) the drones were bombing my town again bro 🙄 we had no electricity but that's okay now everything's alright and don't worry about me my cool people, they tend to only attack factories and like electricity stations so that Russia can't produce more weapons and stuff and not regular houses so I won't die at least!! I've been uh.. a little complicated mentally but it'll get better I hope!
