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แฒ๐ผ synopsis; Lohen has spent months studying you from afar. Surely there has to be an alchemical solution to this strange obsession... แฒ๐ผ a/n; hi guys lol lowk decided to write for a diff fandom this week aaaaaa, also guys i just wanted to state that reader already had feelings for lohen so basically a somewhat pre-established relation (which was made obvious in specific scenes already) soooo dont come for me<3 (also ts is inspired by some twitter post i seen where lohen was talking abt sum "horny poison" help) Here again my inbox is open and im waiting for more creative writing ideas from u guys:3 แฒ๐ผ pairing: desperate!lohen x fem!reader MDNI (not proofread sorry T-T) แฒ๐ผ genre(warnings/TW): smut smut smut, spanking, somewhat cnc?? idrk, slight mentions of knife play, mentions of stalking obvi, aphrodisiac/drugged sex, drinking/alcohol, obsessive love/sex, rough lohen.., dark romance(?), degrading, doggy, no protection, breeding..oops, kinda open ending wc:3.8K
At first, you told yourself it was a coincidence...
Mondstadt wasnt exactly a large city
People crossed paths all the time!! Right?
The first time, Lohen was leaning against the Adventurers' Guild counter when you returned from a commission. Hed given you a nod, exchanged a few words, and left.
The second time, hed been browsing a market stall moments after you stopped there. Like he actually gave a fuck (He didnt)
The third, hed already been seated at Angels Share when you arrived.
A little odd, maybe.
Not enough to think about.
Then it happened again.
And again. I mean you didnt mind anyway, you always thought he was kinda cute..
Youd catch glimpses of him without meaning to.
Across the plaza
Near the city gates
Standing beneath the windmill overlooking the path youd chosen that morning
Always close enough to notice
Never close enough to question
After a while, you started expecting it
Youd turn a corner and wonder if hed be there... maybe even hoped he would..
More often than not, he was
"Hey you."
You nearly jumped.
Lohen stood beside you.
You hadnt even heard footsteps..
Hadnt seen him approach
One moment you were alone, the next he was there
"Oh- hi."
His gaze dropped to the paper bag in your hands
"The vendor finally got more of those in stock?"
You blinked
"โฆYeah."
A brief silence passed
"I thought they sold out last week?"
You frowned
"How did you know that?"
Lohen looked genuinely confused by the question
"You complained about it"
"When?"
"Three weeks ago."
You stared
Three weeks ago
You barely remembered mentioning it
It had been an offhand complaint while passing through the market.. You werent even sure who had been standing nearby at the time.
"Oh..i see"
Lohen nodded
As if that explained everything
As if remembering a single throwaway comment from nearly a month ago was perfectly normal...
Then his eyes returned to the bag
"Theyre your favorite."
Something warm and embarrassing fluttered in your chest
"You remembered?"
"Obviously duh"
The answer came instantly
Almost offended
As though forgetting had never been an option
Before you could think of a response, he glanced toward the eastern road
"Youre heading to Windrise."
It wasnt a question.
You hesitated
"Yeah..?"
A chill of awareness prickled down your spine.
"How do you know where Im going?"
For a moment, Lohen didnt answer
But it was the first hesitation youd ever seen from him
"Lucky guess." He shrugged.
You narrowed your eyes
Lohen looked away
You gulp
Because suddenly you found yourself remembering every strange encounter again, clearly.
Every time hed happened to be nearby
Every route where youd run into him
Every small detail hed recalled without effort
Things youd forgotten a long time ago
Things you hadnt realized hed been there to hear
The list was getting uncomfortably long
"...Right" you said slowly, not really knowing how to react
Lohens expression remained perfectly neutral
Which was suspicious all on its own
Still, when he offered to walk with you, you said yes regardless.
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Lohen hated uncertainty
He hated variables
He hated unpredictability
Unfortunately, you were all three..
The problem wasnt that you occupied his thoughts 24/7
You appeared everywhere
In the middle of conversations
During meals
While reading
Especially while attempting to sleep Well even when he was tortuing poor innocent people! You never left his mind.. which was strange for someone like him.
This was becoming ridiculous
You had smiled at him earlier
That wasnt unusual
You smiled at everyone
Yet somehow his mind had spent the last three hours replaying the exact expression
The sound of your laugh
The way youd looked at him It made him mad thinking about how youd smile at other people like that too..
He groaned as the scene replayed for the 67th time now
This was a disease.. He felt disgusting
But he grew more desperate with each passing second
The next morning he found himself standing in front of Albedos laboratory
Without knocking, he entered
Albedo glanced up from his work
"Lohen."
"I have a question."
"I gathered as much"
Lohen stepped closer
"Whats that horny drug called?"
Silence.
Albedo blinked.
"What?"
"The substance? Drug? I dont fucking know"
"There isnt one" He said calmly. Too calm
"There is."
Lohen frowned
Albedo slowly put down his pen
"What exactly are you asking?"
Lohen crossed his arms
"Hypothetically.."
"Thats never a good sign..."
"Hypothetically, if someone were experiencing persistent intrusive thoughts regarding a specific individual.."
Albedo stared at him without saying a word
"And hypothetically those thoughts were becoming increasingly disruptive and annoying.."
The silence somehow grew louder
"And hypothetically they wished to resolve the issue.. like as fast as possible"
"Lohen."
"Yes?"
"Are you describing a crush?"
The word hung in the air
Lohen immediately looked offended
"Fuck no."
"You are.."
"No."
"You absolutely are"
Lohen narrowed his eyes
Albedo rubbed his temples
"When did this start?"
Lohen thought for a moment
"Like six months ago maybe?"
Albedo nearly dropped his notebook
"Six months?"
"Perhaps seven" lol
"โฆ"
"Possibly eight or nine"
Albedo looked genuinely concerned now
"Lohen, have you considered simply speaking to her?"
The suggestion was met with immediate rejection, he just wasnt the type to, even tho he did kind of sense something from her side too
"Why would I do that?"
Albedo stared
For a long moment neither spoke
Then Albedo sighed
Very, very deeply
There was a lot wrong with that answer
Albedo wasnt entirely sure where to begin
For several seconds, he simply stared at Lohen
As though Albedo was the unreasonable one
Finally, Albedo opened his mouth
"Lohen"
"Yes?"
"You do have feelings for her."
"No"
"You do"
"I dont"
"Youve spent eight months thinking about the same person."
"That proves nothing"
"It proves quite a lot, actually"
Lohen frowned
Albedo rubbed his temples
This was going nowhere
"You want me to give you aphrodisiacs?"
"Correct"
"There is an old alchemical formula"
Lohens full attention locked onto him
"It was originally designed for Mating..."
"Continue"
"It is extremely difficult to create"
"Irrelevant"
"It requires rare ingredients too"
"I will get them"
Albedo sighed once again
"The formula is incomplete"
"Meaning?"
"It must be personalized"
That finally earned a look of uncertainty
"Personalized how?"
"The ingredients must hold significance"
Albedo continued before he could interrupt
"Not general significance"
"Specific significance"
"To the individual"
Lohens expression became increasingly suspicious
"Examples"
Albedo tapped his pen against the table
"A flower they favor"
"An object carrying sentimental value"
"A strand of hair"
Lohen blinked
"Why?"
"Because emotions are associations"
"The formula relies upon them"
None of that was technically a lie
Just dramatically simplified
Lohen considered this
Of course he thought it was reasonable
"How many ingredients?"
Albedo immediately regretted answering
"Three"
"Six"
"Seven"
Lohen was already making a list
Albedo watched in silence
"Favorite flower"
Scratch
"Strands of hair"
Scratch
"Meaningful possessions"
Lohen was already ready to leave
"Where are you going?"
"To gather ingredients"
"Lohen, wait-"
But he was already heading for the door
The laboratory door closed behind him
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Mondstadt famous Tavern Angels Share was crowded tonight
Just enough to fill the tavern with overlapping conversations and the occasional burst of laughter
The long table near the back had somehow become occupied by half of Mondstadts most influential people
Jean sat with a glass of water because someone had to remain responsible
Kaeya sat beside her with a drink in hand because someone had to be irresponsible
Lisa looked entirely too entertained by everything
Diluc looked one inconvenience away from throwing everyone out
You sat between Amber and Lohen, occasionally contributing to the conversation whenever she wasnt busy laughing.
"Three reports"
Jean rubbed her temples annoyed
"Three separate reports about the same cat"
Kaeya nearly spat out his drink
"The black one?"
"The black one"
Amber groaned
"Oh no"
You immediately brightened
"Is this Prince?"
"It is Prince"
Lisa sighed dramatically
"That little menace has more paperwork attached to his name than some knights"
"The cat stole a fish"
Kaeya nodded
"As he should"
"He broke into Good Hunter"
"A revolutionary"
"He climbed onto a roof"
Jean looked seconds away from resigning You laughed into your drink Lohen got for you earlier
Lohens attention immediately shifted toward you as if he hadnt been looking at you anyway
The sound lingered longer than the conversation itself
"Anyway" Jean continued, trying desperately to maintain order "The point is that I spent half my afternoon resolving a dispute involving a cat"
"Meanwhile" Diluc said dryly, "the Knights wonder why theyre understaffed"
Kaeya placed a hand over his chest
"I cannot believe youd attack us during our social gathering"
"I can"
"I know"
The table erupted into laughter
Even Dilucs expression twitched
You leaned forward
"Wait, wasnt there also that incident with the pigeons?"
"Oh dont remind me" Amber groaned
"The pigeons?" Eula asked
Kaeya immediately grinned
"She accidentally caused an international crisis"
"It was one pigeon" You defended yourself
"It was sixty-seven pigeons"
"They attacked me first"
"They were pigeons"
"They knew what they were doing"
Laughter spread around the table again
For a while, the conversation bounced between old commissions, strange requests from citizens, and stories from recent travels
Nothing particularly important
Nothing serious
Until you suddenly felt weird. Some time had passed and you barely listened to the conversations anymore.. Your pupils dilated, knees felt all weak and wobbly all over sudden, this wasnt just the alcohol was it..? or..were you just really drunk? But you barely had anything... Neither were you lightweight. Of course Lohen noticed Your eyes scan the room, the people sitting across from you, next to you, suddenly completely aware of the males sitting close to you, its like you were in heat!? The sweet scent of masculinity made your pussy ache and your mind go blank with the need to be filled, stretched and bred. You felt feverish, mind cloudy with thoughts, and feelings.. , next to you lohen was analyzing you trying to suppress a smirk like the bastard he is. He reached out to softly grab your arm "Hey whats wrong?.." he whispered one octave too deep for your liking, your pussy throbbing at the sound of it. "Uh what sorryโฆ, i- think im drunkโฆ" you slur your words. You bit the inside of your cheek, too aware of Lohen, you smelt him, the feeling swelling deep in your core now.
Jean immediately frowned when she saw you
"You look pale"
Fantastic..
Now everyone was staring
"Im fine" you insisted
The moment you stood up, your knees disagreed
The floor tilted
A hand caught your arm before you could stumble
You looked up
Lohen...
Of course it was fucking Lohen
His grip tightened slightly
Not enough to hurt
Just enough to steady you
"You are clearly not fine"
"Im okay.."
"You nearly fell"
You rolled your eyes
Or attempted to
The motion only made your head feel heavier
Lohen noticed immediately
Jean set down her glass
"Perhaps you should head home and rest"
"I can walk."
"You can barely stand"
"Thats rude"
"Its accurate"
Kaeya laughed
"Shes got you there..."
Lohen ignored him completely
His attention remained fixed on you, his eyes studying you
That look made your pussy clench even harder
"Ill take her home"
The words came so suddenly that several people glanced his way
You included, cuz hell no... if it was for you, youd let him put you in a mating press the second you entered your house...
Lohen didnt seem to notice
Or care...
"Thats not necessary..." you said
"It is"
"No, really-"
"You nearly fell"
"There are roads"
"โฆ"
"There are stairs"
"โฆ"
"There are more opportunities for falling"
You stared
He still stared back
Completely serious
Lisa hid a knowing smile behind her glass
Jean looked relieved
"Oh, this should be interesting"
"Kaeya"
"Im just saying"
Lohen sighed
Then turned back toward you
"Can you walk?"
"Probably." You try to hiss
"That isnt a yes"
"It isnt a no"
He looked unconvinced
A moment later, he offered his hand
The gesture surprised you
Then your fingers slipped into his... His hand was warm, you looked at your intertwined hands nd imagined his fingers somewhere else...
Lohens shoulders visibly relaxed
As though hed been worried you would refuse
"Come on"
"Where?"
His expression suggested the answer was obvious
"Im taking you home."
The walk home had started normally..
At least, as normally as it could when your head felt full of clouds and fucking..
One moment you were walking beside Lohen
The next, youd stumbled over absolutely nothing
The third time it happened, he stopped
"y/n."
"Hm?"
"You are incapable of walking"
"I am walking."
"You cant even walk on a flat road"
You frowned
You opened your mouth to argue
Then immediately tripped again like the idiot you are
Before you could hit the ground, strong arms wrapped around you
The world tilted
Then suddenly you werent standing anymore..
"Oh"
You blinked
Lohen had picked you up..
Not over his shoulder
Not helping you walk
Actually carrying you
One arm beneath your knees
The other around your back
Like it was the most natural thing in the world
Your brain stopped functioning
"Lohen.."
"Yes?"
"What are you doing?"
"You kept falling"
"Put me down, please."
You stared at him
He stared back
Not even remotely embarrassed
Meanwhile your heart was trying to escape your chest and your needy cunt was screaming "Oh please fill me up!"
He continued walking without a word
The rest of the journey passed in a blur and heavy breathing
Partly because you were tired
Mostly because every time you looked up, you found yourself wanting him inside you more and more
The sharp line of his jaw
The concentration in his eyes
The way his grip never loosened
As though he was worried you might somehow disappear
Neither of you spoke much
The silence wasnt uncomfortable, but it definitely wasnt helping your thoughts either
Then you glanced up
And frowned
The street hed chosen was familiar
You hadnt told him where you lived...
Had you?
The thought drifted through your foggy mind
Maybe someone had mentioned it.
Jean, perhaps.
Or Amber
That would make sense...
Probably...
Lohen turned down another side street
Then another
Without slowing
Without hesitating
Like he already knew exactly where he was going
Lohen approached the door
Still refusing to put you down
"You know" you mumbled
"Hm?"
"You couldve just helped me walk"
"No."
The answer came immediately
You laughed softly
"Why not?"
His gaze shifted away for half a second
Barely noticeable
"I preferred this option.."
Your heart nearly exploded..
The moment you stepped inside, the familiar warmth of your home wrapped around you.
Or maybe that was just Lohen Or the strange feeling that has been lingering within you
It was hard to tell
The door clicked shut behind him
For a brief moment, neither of you moved
Which was a little difficult considering he was still carrying you
"You can put me down now"
Lohen looked at you
Then continued holding you
"Lohennnnn"
"Hm"
"You forgot a step"
"What step?"
"The putting me down part"
His gaze lingered for a second longer than necessary
As if he were genuinely considering simply not doing that
Eventually, he sighed
He slowly lowered you to your feet.
The second your shoes touched the floor, your hands automatically found his shoulders.
Mostly for balance.
You looked up
He looked down
And for the first time since yo'd met him, neither of you seemed to know what to say...
Because now that he was standing this close..-
You noticed..
Pretty
He was unfairly pretty
"y/n"
Your name left his mouth quietly
You smiled..
And that was a mistake
Because Lohen felt something in his stomach immediately drop
There it was again
That strange feeling
That horrible feeling
The one that appeared every time you looked at him like that
Every time you laughed
Every time you smiled
Every time you existed
He hated it
He wanted more of it
He wanted, no, needed more of it, of you!
His thoughts were interrupted when your fingers tightened slightly against his shoulders.
His gaze immediately dropped to your mouth.
Your heart hammered and so did your swollen clit
You leaned forward
And kissed him
Quick.
Barely there Like you were testing the waters, or too shy to leave them on his for longer..
A simple press of your lips against his
When you pulled away he didnt hesitate grabbing you by the waist and crashing his lips back onto yours with double the intensity. It was a wild, way more eager, bruising kiss that made your toes curl.
And your legs shake in pleasure, your panties already damp asf
Your hands scrambled up his shoulders once again, this time even harder, your fingers tangling desperately in his hair, pulling him closer, matching his frantic energy with your own.
He bites your bottom lip playfully, his hand sliding under your shirt to grope your tits through your bra
"Lohen- i"
You started, but before you could finish your sentence, he had you picked up again, easily thrown over his shoulder like you weighted nothing.
He heaved you over to the desk, pushing aside any loose papers from past missions youve attended.
He forcefully turned you around and your stomach slammed down onto the cold wood, sending the few remaining papers flying
You let out a high pitched whine when he pressed against you, squeezing your ass as he loomed above you.
He pushed up your shirt, admiring your back, touching your soft skin with rough hands.
Your heart rate began to increase when you heard the clink of metal as he pulled out his small dagger from his pocket.
He grabbed the back of your head, holding you tight in place, he twirled the small dagger in his fingers skillfully.
You whimpered as you felt the hard line of his arousal grinding against your ass, which made you bite down onto your bottom lip.
He runs his dagger down your back, not hard enough to draw blood just yet..
You squeezed your eyes shut, feeling the cold sting of the blade press against your lower backโฆ
He pressed the dagger in harder, splitting the skin slightly.
That receives him a breathy moan, "Damn you filthy slut hm?, get off to this dont you"
He dragged it across to your back, leaving a thin bleeding line in its wake, that makes you arch into the wood of your desk.
He made a few more shallow cuts, each one he took his sweet time, savouring your sweet honey dipped noises.
Your body trembled softly, you could feel the blood trickle down your soft skin.
"Look at you bunnyโฆ shaking like ive ruined you already.." He whispers in your ears, voice laced with filth.
Lohen wasted no time to take off your pants anyway..
His fingers hook on either side of your panties, pulling them down and throwing them somewhere in the room for you to find later.
"Fuck.. lohen please-" You practically beg for him, squeezing your thighs from arousal.
"Aw you disgusting bitch, need me so badly hmm" The way he talks down on you shouldnt have turned you on the way it did.. Maybe he was right, maybe you were a disgusting bitch in desperate need for his dick..
He rose his hand, brutally spanking you, the sound echoing through your room.
A shocked, high pitched gasp tore from your throat, the stinging heat of the impact instantly blooming across your skin..
SLAP.
Another hard, punishing strike hit you, making your hips twitch reflexively.
"Fuck, dont stop please.." Your voice cracked so desperately you truly humiliated yourself
He clicked his tongue, "such a dirty little slut, drooling and moaning for me like youre in heat"
You choked down another whimper at the way he so disgustingly mocked you..
He sighed reaching down, his movements fast and impatient now, unbuckling his belt.
He trails from the curve of your ass to your slick folds where he splits you open entirely, without a care in the world, nothing wouldve prepared you for the feeling of him inside you.
You whined so loud he had to cover your mouth while he fucked into you faster than he intended to, i mean can you blame him? your perfect pussy fit so well around him and hes been holding back for ageessssss!
His fingers dug into your hips roughly grunting, feeling you squeeze him so perfectly.
His hand rests on your hip, quickly pulling you deeper on him, grabbing your neck as he forcefully pounds into you, squeezing your neck harder with every thrust.
He stretched you out so good, but so fast you whinced in pain.
โCan you take six inches, bun?โ He whispered roughly in your ear.
When you didnt answer he pushed deeper, making your pretty eyes roll back for him.
โSeven?โ
He pulls back his hand taking a fist full of your hair, dipping your head back for your neck to be fully on display as he runs his knife over it oh so slightly.
You were a moaning mess underneath him, just the way he had heard you moaning his name when you masturbated to the thought of him when he accidentally walked past your open window at nightโฆ
He pulls out fully, leaving your poor cunt empty with more need for him when he aligned himself again, and drove himself back inside, dick repeatedly plunging into that spongey spot that makes you whimper, your sweaty hand cant help but try to grab onto something, anything.
Your nails sinking into the hard wood.
It hurt
The cuts
Lohens cock
Your nails digging into the wood,
But it was so damn good, so so good your entire body was on fire.
Your whimpers grew raw and desperate as your orgasm approached
"Lohen, fuck fuck fuck, fuck lohen please, im gonna- im.. cumming!"
"C'mon you needy little whore, cum around me."
Thats all it took for you to explode, not actually but the feeling was DAMN close to how it would actually feel.
You still laid there underneath lohen, gripping onto the desk, eyes rolled back as he rode you through your orgasm.
His thrusts became sloppier, and you could tell he was close by the way he tried to hide his whines by gruntual maybe even close to growling sounds.
"Cum inside, please lohen im begging, need your cum..!"
He adored your cute little babbles, and neither did he hesitate.
He gripped your hips so hard you genuinely had the feeling of your bones getting crushed, he lifted you up slightly, spilling deep inside you.
He pulled out, proudly watching his cum drip out your dumb fucked pussy with that usual smirk on his face.
He grabbed your ass and spread you one last time to shove his babies right back inside..
You looked so delicious, afterall he just made you his new fuck toy:3
