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kirby. 30s. black. queer. goth. it/he. video games, music, literature, and general goofiness. i only share vetted fundraisers.

[gay-nidoking]

Notice

Starting July 1st 2026, I'm gonna be a lot less active on here. I am going to log out and install extensions to limit my time on all social media sites. DM's and askbox may or may not remain open. I will try to keep up my queue.

If you want to keep in touch, feel free to reach out for my discord or (for mutuals) my phone number.

Where Else to Find Me

AO3

Bluesky

Storygraph

Letterboxd

The Forge (casual writing discord server, no enter/leave messages)

Neocities

Free Palestine

GazaFunds

Arab.Org Click to Help

Connecting Humanity (Esims)

Crips for Esims for Gaza

Palestine Children's Relief Fund

Palestine Red Cresent Society

World Central Kitchen

Fund a Kitchen

Anera

Municipality of Gaza

Ele Elna Elak

The Sameer Project

MSF Palestine

Operation Olive Branch Mutual Aid Tab

Dahnoun Mutual Aid

I Am Not a Number

Eyes on Sudan

SudanFunds

Sudanese American Physician's Association

Sudanse American Medical Association

Saving Alginina Initiative

Sudan Solidarity Collective

MSF Sudan

Barana Hanabneiho Organisation

Darfur Women Action Group

Hadhreen

Khartoum Aid Kitchen

Nas Al Sudan

Sadagaat

Sudanese Diaspora Network

Takaful

UNICEF Sudan

Help Ukraine

United24

Come Back Alive

Prytula Charity Foundation

Dzyga's Paw

Hospitallers

Okhmatdyt Hospital

Rocmaidan

Tytanovi (physiotherapy and rehab for war amputees)

Prevail Together

Renegage Relief Foundation

Love Ukraine

LGBT Military Personnel

Adopted Palestinian Campaign - Iwais Family

If you notice that the "as of" date is several days ago, that is because the campaigns haven't received a donation since that date!!

Iwais Family, large family (27 members), multiple injured (including children), GFM progress as of 8.2.26: kr 963,829 SEK/kr1,500,000 SEK, support for the whole family, Chuffed progress as of 2.18.26: $8,896 USD/$50,000 USD, evacuation fund for 13 members of family, including a pregnant woman and a critically injured child, Paypal Link, run by family member living outside of Gaza, helps entire family, Campaign Post 1, Campaign Post 2, Campaign Post 3

Adopted Palestinian Campaign - Fidaa

If you notice that the "as of" date is several days ago, that is because the campaign hasn't received a donation since that date!!

Fidaa and her family, 2 young children, Chuffed progress as of 8.8.26: $40,102 USD/$60,000 USD, Paypal Link, run by another friend of Fidaa's outside of Gaza, Campaign Post

[whyenn-reader]

part of being an adult is figuring out what eveyone else's definition of "going crazy" is. to you it is not sleeping for 60 hours, writing 80k words in one sitting and expiriencing enough anxiety to kill a horse. to beth from accounting its buying a ticket to Columbus, Ohio. and to your friend its consuming so much ketamine you lose all of your posessions and wake up with five broken bones in a ditch somewhere and then proceeding to do it again the next day. to your other friend its writing a letter to their favourite actress about how much they appreciate her work. to your neighbour its laughing loudly in a grocery store whilst in pajamas. maya from uni hears the voice of her dead father making jokes with no punchlines and she considers that to be quite normal - to her going crazy would be hearing her husband instead. your downstairs neighbour will take night walks naked sometimes and claim there is nothing weird about him. there are literally no rules to life and all meaning is in the eye of the beholder.

[maggotmuncher0]

a little bat

[itastelikesand]

[emortal-l-deactivated20250308]

[ID: a screenshot of a comic speech bubble. The black text in it reads "No matter how open-minded, socially conscious, anti-racist I think I am, I still have old learned hidden biases that I need to examine. It is my responsibility to check myself daily for my stereotypes, prejudices and, ultimately, discrimination." /ID end]

[anarchistmemedistro]

[pupucino]

antiracism is a constant process. i was raised in a racist village and it's not easy to get rid of it. i moved away over 10 years ago but those ideas are still haunting me.

[genderkoolaid]

also keep in mind that shame + guilt are not conducive to growing as a person. when it comes to "checking yourself" it should be a non-judgemental process. it's not about flagellating yourself for every bad thought or trying to purify your mind of all corruption. it's only when acknowledging your own racist thoughts doesn't fill you with dread that you can really progress past the white guilt of it all.

radical self-acceptance & genuine self-critique are not opposites. they need each other. do not let obsessive-compulsive behaviors colonize your desire to grow as a person.

[muresetivoire]

Sorry babe, the thigh garter holding my daggers stay on during sex

[itstimetomeetthemuppets]

He’s so small he only need one popcorn

[iwilleatyourenglish]

yet another cosmic unfairness: a manatee is some kind of big fat dumpling beast of the sea that wants you to pet it so bad we had to make laws against doing just that for their safety

[iwilleatyourenglish]

jail time and a desire to see them thrive are the only things staying my tender heart and gentle hand

[importantcatpics]

[cutecipher]

well if weird gay women dont like something whats the point

[jinglyjangly]

so anyway here’s my legion fancast

[sweatermuppet]

advice to straight men from lesbians in an article titled "heterosexual outreach" by nancy ford, published in "dimensions" may 1995

[sforzzz]

im gonna make it big someday just you watch

[sforzzz]

*goes back to jerkin it*

[sforzzz]

waaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitt

[r-b3033]

nothing much, just stupid sassy quarians...

Going back to work has been rough, back to being constantly tired x_x

[the-bitter-ocean]

While we are at it I need nonblack people to stop saying “YN” and “🥷🏾” just to get around saying antiblack racial slurs. Yes that includes that stupid shit where white people go “ooh but I said nega not-“ I don’t give a shit. You know damn well what you meant. Fuck off. It’s a insta block from me for anyone who does this shit and think it’s funny or whatever don’t pmo.

And before someone fucking says “erm are you referring to the fanfic / shipping term? How is your name offen-“ obviously no I’m not referring to that and anyone who is using it to mean “your name” types it with a slash -> (y/n) *NOT* “yn”. Like. I need nonblacks to stop randomly regurgitating aave they see or hear without knowing what it fucking means and misusing it to hell and back thinking it’s cool/ trendy/ or something worthy of mockery. It means young nigga. Stop fucking using it if you’re not black lol

[sistersorrow]

People wanna pretend it was all in good fun and only got racist afterwards (if they'll even acknowledge it ever was racist) meanwhile some of the earliest TikTok making clanker jokes were skits that were just "racist dad hates his daughter's black boyfriend" only the boyfriend is a robot instead, and before that, these exact same kinds of jokes were circulating the Star Wars fandom for over a decade

They want all the "fun" of being blatantly racist and provocative, but don't want any of the reactions you'd get from someone watching you being blatantly racist

[mspa-archive]

OFFICIAL CLASS SYMBOLS!

Taken from the HSOD and Andrews words…

“Finally made some canonical class symbols for anyone who considers these useful. In the comic, I only came up with aspect designs, because those were the symbols that appeared on the shirts. Classes were represented by the outfit designs, so they never seemed to need symbols. Still, as people speculated on classpecting and developed the ideas in their fanworks, class symbols started to seem like a missing piece of the lore.

The first image here is a better presentation of the crude-looking class pairing list I posted in an earlier Q&A. Again note that classes appear in the list linked as active/passive pairs, with an odd exception to the pattern, putting both witch/sylph fully on the active side, and maid/heir fully on the passive side.

The next image is a series of simple icons I came up with for each class pair, in this order:

- witch/sylph: witch hat

- prince/bard: scepter

- thief/rogue: dagger

- knight/page: sword

- mage/seer: eye staff

- maid/heir: abstract wavy shape, denoting malleability (it's basically John's hood)

- lord/muse: skull on pike”

“But these icons aren't meant to fully convey the classes alone. Instead they're treated more like "spokes" in radial designs which form a circle, so as to enclose an aspect symbol in the middle. That way the class and aspect can become a fully self-contained symbol.

Here's what they look like in radial form. The active ones are black, the passive ones are white. Also, the more active of the pair uses positive space to display the icons pointing outward. The more passive of the pair uses negative space, showing the icons pointing inward, cutting the shapes into the solid circle.

Note that because the list has the two odd pairs, witch/sylph and maid/heir, it was necessary to have both an outward/inward-pointing logic, and a black/white logic. Both witch/sylph are black, and both maid/heir are white, yet both also have inward/outward-pointing icon pairs.”

“To show examples of what they look like when you combine them with aspects, here are the classpect combos for all major Homestuck characters.”

[vorpalfae]

[kittycatutaite]

Small reminder that DID is often a covert disorder and overt DID is actually pretty rare. A person could go their whole life without knowing they have DID because that's the point. You do not need to know who you are all the time or who's fronting or need to feel like you're a faker because you act the same pretty much all the time. You do not need to act drastically different between your headmates to be valid.