So. Wanna know what really hurts?
You wanna know what really gets me. What makes my emotions truly activate? Sure something sad or irritating may make me tear up, or maybe some brat will piss me off. But no. I mean REALLY get to me. It’s simple. Depression. Poems and stories and people and… Anything with suicide or self harm or anorexia or…. Yeah. You see. These get to me. Because they are me. Sure i don’t have cuts or burns, maybe i’m not skin and bones, maybe i don’t think “today’s the day. I’m done. No one will care anyways” but i am depressed. Just better at controlling and hiding it. The reason these get to me is because it’s something that I would rather happen to me for an eternity, then for it to effect everyone else. These things strike at me. Mentally i feel the pain of the idea of it happening… If i read something like:
“She slit her wrists slowly and calmly, letting her self die. No one cared anyways” I can FEEL the cuts… Something else that gets me? People are always talking about how women are the only depressed people. Well. Thats the thing. Through research I’ve found that there are more men then woman who are depressed. But do we see quotes or poems for men? Nope. It just really gets under my skin.
One final thing. Self harm. God. Almost every depressed person i’ve met or dated has cut, burned, smoked, or worse. I hate it! I am walking proof that you can be depressed and not damage yourself. I’ve only done three scars on my wrist. Two where on accident. Only one was on perhaps. And that one was on the side of my wrist. Not near a vein. You see i scratched till i bleed. But only once. One tiny scar. That is, and always will be, the only self inflicted physical harm i will ever do
Look. If there is anyone who is suffering from depression, and i mean ANYONE, hit me up. I’ll answer you as soon as i can. I promise. Because we are all going through the same thing. P.s. i can tell when your just seeking attention. So don’t try if you are just doing that. This is for the people who need help
-G G4ming
Sorry everyone for the long post. But i personally felt like it was needed. Please. Repost this and send this to everyone. Let people know there are others. Others willing to help.
