20 years and counting

coming to terms with my own bullshit is a new form of self care (Usually just reblogs stuff)

[honeypleasejustkillme]

can u sexualize me again i miss feeling like i meant smth to u lol

[pigeonwinnin]

Is it pathetic of me to just want someone interested enough to ask me questions? About myself, about life, about things I’m interested in that bring me joy?

I find that I like asking a lot of questions about people I care about. I think they’re so amazing and I want to listen to them and figure them out like a speciality puzzle.

But the reciprocation of this is nonexistent and it makes me miss my last friendship that I had this dynamic with that’s almost been gone for ten years.

I don’t want to be tolerated anymore- I want to be cared about.

[ballowvalence]

being unattractive

one of the despairing things about not being attractive is lapping up scraps of attention. falling for someone because they reply to your messages and laugh at your jokes.

the moment they show you any type of affection, you’re done. your heart is theirs. you bitterly glare down at the pitter patter in your chest when you talk to them. because you know it’s so easy for you to love others, but somehow it’s so hard for others to love you.

Keep reading

[tuverras]

in the darkness, two shadows,

reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. their hands meet.

love letter to fanny brawne, john keats // orestes, euripides // wait for me (intro) ("hey, the big artiste"), hadestown // ghost photographs - doug and brenda, angela deane // les misérables, victor hugo // achilles come down, gang of youths // how to become a myth, nikita gill // romeo and juliet, shakespeare // lovers of valdaro // song of achilles, madeline miller // i will follow you into the dark, deathcab for cutie // planet of love, richard siken

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

—

[akaiiros]

this actually is rewiring my brain as we speak

[theinformationcollector]

TIL of the Spoiler Paradox, a psychological phenomenon where being informed of how a story ends before experiencing it seems to increase the enjoyment of the story, rather than decrease it.

via beatlyzer.com

[effeminate-wastrel-deactivated2]

I’ve been saying this for fucking ever. Plot is the least fucking important element of any narrative, HOW you get there is SO MUCH MORE of what makes a story special

[dahniwitchoflight]

im always so confused how this isn’t the default and i always have to be reminded that the opposite is the norm

[wlwdaydreamms]

im curious about what made you you. im curious about your taste in music. im curious about the way your mind thinks. im curious about how your body likes to be touched. im curious about your late night thoughts and how they make you feel. im curious about every single thing about you.

[ggoregut]

i wish i was the version of myself that wasnt fucked up

[ghostly-poetic]

Aut viam inveniam aut faciam

- I will either find a way or I will make one

[hauntedbythenarrative]

Ask Polly: What does love feel like//A Lot To Be Mad About, Kiki Nicole//Home Is Not a Country; “haitham”, Safia Elhillo//The Chronology of Water, Lidia Yuknavitch//Vesuvius, Amber Sparks

[suddenstrangesurrenders]

[Rage is a quiet thing

You think that you've tamed it

But it's just lying in wait

Oh, rage

Is it in my veins?

Feel it in my face when

When I least expect it]

The meat tenderiser is broken

-necked so, I must soften

the beef with my father’s

hands, marrow-thick

with knowledge

the meat must be beaten

brutal into tenderness.

That anybody softens

with violence.

Another morning and I wake with thirst for the goodness I do not have.

Rage & it’s violence.

— portrait taken from @rawrrkiyomi (1) Mad Honey Symposium, Sally Wen Mao. (2) Anais Nin. (3) Venetian Smile by Richard Burlet (4) Simmer from Petals for Armour by Hayley Williams. (5) Cover art for the florence + the machine/ethel cain collab Morning Elvis by Peegpin. (6) Wound from the mouth of a wound, Torrin A. Greathouse. Thirst, Mary Oliver. (7) Mark Rothko, Untitled, 1952 (8)

© 1998 Kate Rothko Prizel & Christopher Rothko/Artists Rights Society (ARS)

[eliounora]

it’s been years just let me.. let me date Yosuke…

[aerequets]

welcome to my new obsession

[effemimaniac]

hey. don't cry. I went to Mad At You island and none of your friends were there :)

[catchymemes]

[lizawithazed]

to be able to give such a small gift that brings so much joy is itself a joy

[gay-jesus-probably]

You can really see the transition from “oh god is that a fucking ticket” to “OH MY GOD ITS A TINY VERSION OF MY CAR”

[birbs-in-space]

curious about what’s in store for you for 2023? :D

let AO3 decide!

(this is a random generator that will give you four (4) ao3 tags, so you know, warnings for what that usually entails)

[danhoemei]

what the fuck

[halcyonbequest]

huh

[evilkitten3]

not a single encouraging word on that screenshot

[starburstdragon]

➤ Dwarf Gender Concepts ➤ Narcissism ➤ Boyband ➤ Cotton Candy Fluff

I’ll accept that, sure.

[falling-oceans]

undue seriousness, rain, inanimate objects, musicians

Not sure what this entails but! Interested!