bleh

in the club, straight up "activating it", and by "it", i mean. haha, well, let's just say. my trap card.

[harapecowee]

Some tags I use a lot in my blog to make navigation easier (will update accordingly)

Content/trigger warnings that can often apply to my artworks (mute if necessary):

#eye strain

#gore

#blood

(List prone to changes so keep an eye on it if this applies to you)

Personal tags:

#bleh talks (where I yap, 99% of the time it's about Yugioh)

#bleh draws (my own art)

#bleh answers (replying to asks)

#bleh duels (for the rare times i talk about the tcg outside of anime)

#blehslop (memes/shitposts)

#precious queue! glory days! (my queue tag)

Yugioh tags:

#hulthemia AU (an AU where Judai takes Aki under his wing)

#dm, #gx, #5ds, #zexal, #arc v, #vrains, #ygo and #tcg (for reblogs)

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#favs (fanart i like a lot)

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[kisseism]

undiagnosing myself. there is nothing wrong with me i am #normal

[harapecowee]

I've been feeling a bit down lately but then I hurt my hand very badly too. I don't think I'll be able to draw for a while :/

[wea-telefonica-1]

I lovee The Man Who Sold The World by Bowie

[gourdboye]

happy pride month! I've been freed from the shackles of my semester-long capstone project so I have more free time.

[baguantte]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!! so to celebrate i drew things the gx cast fumbling what not to say during a coming out!! my goofuses deserve the world...

[harapecowee]

Pride month doodles (part 1/?)

I have a bunch of different gender/sexuality headcanons for each of my favorite characters. For example, to me Sho is sometimes a trans man, sometimes a trans woman. It depends on my mood mostly

[mxrtified777]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BELOVED

[watermelonieowo]

ALEXIS BUT CYBER Y2K!! Cuz she is literally so cyber y2kcore

[spiraledstar]

king of swag

[cuppydogshane]

me and the mutuals are giving some minor characters rich inner worlds later if you wanna pull up. yeah its gonna be all day.

[raintides]

asuka!!

[lunaticdoodles]

Yugioh x Venom AU 💜

Screenshot redraw from Venom movie 1

[deathandnonexistentialdread]

(Sharing this essay I made about the Giese duel with you)

I'm actually so obsessed with the segment of the duel where Giese makes Johan pick between Sapphire Pegasus and Jerry Beans Man. Giese is taunting Johan with the choice, knowing that Johan claims to care about spirits, so Giese makes him decide between any random spirit (JBM) or a member of his family (SP). Would Johan stand with his ideals and pick JBM, or would he pick what could be considered the selfish choice and pick SP, the spirit he has a personal connection with?

To me, with the revelation after the duel that Giese had a spirit companion as well and he views spirits as too pure to be with humans in the mortal world, it almost feels like Giese is trying to recreate his feelings in Johan. Like he's trying to turn Johan into a mini version of himself by inflicting the same or similar trauma onto Johan. He wants to prove to Johan what the reality of the world is. We don't know the details of how Giese lost his partner, but I guess it's 50-50 on if it was a situation even remotely like this or not. But I also don't think the details matter, more so just the emotions related to it.

Giese wants Johan to see his truth that spirits and humans can never be equal and humans can never be pure like spirits, and so it's in humanity's nature to want to corrupt everything pure. Hence Giese's whole “viewing spirits as nothing but prey to sell off for a high price” viewpoint. He's a human, his past optimism was crushed, and therefore he embraced what he believes to be the natural dark nature of humans. And now he wants Johan to see that “truth” like he did.

Giese believes Johan will choose the supposed selfish option and try to pick his family, SP. That will prove a point for Giese, that it's not about spirits, it's about what's more valuable to you. Giese would choose SP for the price, that's the value to him. The value to Johan is SP being his family. And if Johan chooses JBM, then he'll be sacrificing SP in JBM's place. That would force Johan to lose a member of his family, aka one of his spirit companions, aka what Giese lost as well in the past. So that very well could be enough to make Johan feel what Giese feels, but just to make sure, he's gotta drive the nail in the coffin and refuse to hand over JBM by ripping up the card anyway, forcing a lose-lose situation for Johan and completely assuring that Johan will experience what Giese did.

Johan, being the person that he is, would never accept just picking one over the other regardless of any personal value to him. All spirits are equal to him and he wants to be the bridge between all spirits and humans. To him, his family means so so so much, but he values all spirits, not just his family. He can't make the selfish decision, it goes against his entire being. But that means he can't abandon SP either. He can't be selfish or selfless. But then that turns into greed. He wants to have both, he can't fathom picking one. He gets tunnel vision and can't see a way out that gives him what he wants. He can't see an option C in this situation. If this were Judai, you know that boy would pull out a combo that would save both JBM and SP. Judai would get his cake and eat it too. But this isn't Judai, it's Johan. The difference between them is Johan's failure to believe he can do anything here. He is quicker to lose his unwavering optimism than Judai. He asks for a miracle, a third party to intervene in his place so he doesn't have to make a painful choice and play Giese's sick game.

I fully believe Johan would have been unable to make a choice and when Giese rips up JBM, it would have crushed Johan's spirit, especially because of his own inability to make a choice (and we know it's ultimately Giese's fault for putting Johan in this situation, but Johan would still take the blame for himself). Giese would have gotten what he wanted in making Johan feel the pain he feels and I have no doubt Giese would have won the duel because Johan wouldn't be able to focus or keep going.

But thanks to Judai answering Johan's prayers, Johan doesn't have to make that choice. We don't have to know if Johan would pick one of the spirits or fail to do so, because Judai became option C for him. And to me, Judai's rescue makes an incredible point rather than allowing Johan to basically cop out of making a decision. Johan has friends. He has support. He has people he can rely on. Typically that would be the Crystal Beasts, but they were pretty much in danger the whole duel. Instead, Johan has his very dear friend that he's formed a deep connection with to help him. Johan has a support system that saved him from any potential pain and suffering.

No doubt Giese didn't have that. Giese had his spirit companion whom he lost and didn't have anyone to fall back on for support. Perhaps since he lost a spirit specifically, he didn't even have anyone who would believe him or understand this specific type of loss and the pain that came with it. But Judai can also see spirits and completely understands how Johan feels. Judai jumping in to be option C to save Johan from an impossible choice represents how important a support system is. And Giese can represent what you might become if you don't have one or lose the one you had.

(I'm also still working on that Jim essay I promised a while ago. I didn't forget! I could never forget something to do with Jim. Words just hard sometimes ya know... 😶)

this moment seems to be a direct answer to the question that Giese asked Fey earlier in the duel:

What's the difference between us, exactly?

the difference between Fey and Giese is that Fey has friends who will support him when he flaters. Fey has an option c

[risei-corner]

Chii-Yusei!? 🦀

I blacked out and he appeared on my screen 😳

[shuchelle]

they’re saying he’s the hottest washed up duelist this side of florida @tharkflark1

[cigarettevirus]

more judai :3