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hidey | they/them | 20s | eng/中文 writing @hidey-writes • hideyseek on ao3 周深, guardian/镇魂, the first shot/雪迷宫 on bsky @hideyseek pls come find me

[succubusboyfriend]

are you “adaptable” or are you just willing to subject yourself to existing in low key background-level ambient misery

[succubusboyfriend]

these are different things btw. actual adaptability means not dealing with being miserable long term. and being constantly mildly annoyed/frustrated with a situation but being “able to deal with it” counts as ambient misery. btw.

[succubusboyfriend]

let this be your sign to make your life just a little more livable. get a dollar store trash can for your bedside so Cup City’s invasion plans fall through. block a tag or post that makes you grind your teeth every time you see it. get some grip pads so your bed stops sliding across the hardwood a little bit every time you get in it. tell that person you need a little more support. if you get annoyed at a situation more than a couple times, change it. don’t be content with being miserable.

[demonprincex]

and the more that you start doing this, the better you will get at detecting your own feelings and advocating for yourself! This is an important start to being more of a person in the world if you struggle with that

[bimstown]

[legendof]

[martyreddie]

it's literally the evilest thing in the world to finally have time to write but then be tired. like wow you're telling me these two hours before going to bed are completely free but my brain is just Not Feeling It? fuck off

[pollen]

happy Barely Keeping It Together Wednesday to all who celebrate

[hylianengineer]

There is one very important thing I need people without major dietary restrictions to understand: the distress caused by allergies, celiac disease, and other food restrictions is largely not about the food.

Do I miss some foods I can't eat anymore without getting sick? Sure, but that's not what really bothers me. What bothers me is being excluded from a huge portion of human social life of which food is a crucial component. What bothers me is the stress and social stigma of trying to figure out what I can safely eat. What bothers me is the amount of extra work and cost that is required of me to identify, obtain, and prepare safe foods. What bothers me is people treating my needs like a nuisance, as though I chose to be like this - as though their brief inconvenience to check an ingredients list is unreasonable, when I deal with this every day of my life forever.

I don't miss the food that much. I miss not having to worry about what I eat. I miss freedom. I miss when trying new foods and new restaurants was fun instead of a minefield. I miss not having to plan my entire life around the need for safe foods.

Food is such a basic human need, and a lot of people don't really need to think about it. When your danger foods can be anywhere and everywhere, suddenly your entire life revolves around avoiding them, and it massively sucks. You get used to it and it's not a big deal most of the time, but then you go to a new restaurant, or your office has a potluck, or you've been invited to a party and suddenly it feels just as miserable and exhausting as it ever has.

[movementnudge]

Movement nudge!

X

[kipine]

Shiny Bulbasaur! 🍃 I finally got one as a starter in LeafGreen!

[kipine]

How it felt sharing this, haha!

[animentality]

"fandom is dying," they whine as they stab artists and writers in the chest with discourse knives and harassment screws. "why isn't anyone making content for me to greedily consume for free as I make the experience worse for them and everyone around me?"

[btheleaf]

[irish-american-chan]

The Summertime Is A Little Different From The Normaltime

[irish-american-chan]

Did You Know Clovers Theyre Doing This Kind Of Thing Nowadays

[beardedmrbean]

[theman]

I GOT A FUCKING RAISE THE POTATO WORKED WTF

[tattooedzombigirl]

This potato works. Every. Fucking. Time.

[imanutcase-10]

Then bring me luck

[thirddeadlysin]

the day after I posted this last time I was notified that I was selected for a really cool mentorship gig and got an unrelated glowing review at work

[icantbearsedtothinkofone]

Hey Potato, cure my -ing cold so I can have a good time while away.

[dduane]

Here's the potato. Make what use of it you will. :)

[chainofclovers]

Put in the tags the completely finished (whether cancelled or wrapped up on its own terms) TV series that has YOUR perfect ending, however you define that

Please don’t include huge spoilers for the specifics of the endings, and it would also make me happy if people don’t use this to talk about the shows whose endings they hated

[hideyseek]

my stupid homophobic company ...

[hideyseek]

⏳ and 🤯 for the ask meme when you’re awake again :3

from this set of fanfic writer emoji asks!

mwah thank u onyx for the ask !!! <3 many awakes since u sent this but better late than never !!!!

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

ohhhhhh it ... depends. purely writing words, my pace is generally 500-1k an hour at the beginning during exploratory writing or at the end in the final draft when i know the story and characters and themes very well. that drops to around 200-600 an hour in the middle when i'm figuring things out or repacing the same scene 3-4 times before it sticks.

for a whole finished story? something in the 3-5k range that has a single plotline focusing on only one major choice/turning point and a single "step" of character development (rather than a full arc) probably takes about 3-4 weeks writing at a comfortable pace? any longfic is a monthslong (sometimes yearslong even) endeavor at this point. i write in layers, so one pass of a fic might take a few weeks alone. but in terms of pure numbers, generally my fics sit at about 20-30h a draft of sit-down time, plus a few dozen hours of research, research reading, brainstorming, jotting down random notes during the day, etc.

as you might have calculated. this is 40-100h of sit-down writing time for anything in the 20-30k range. so you can understand why im desperately trying to strip my writing process down to something functional but less long with any given project

🤯 What’s a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

oh it's smut. it's absolutely smut. like let's be real i've hardly got any trained skill writing for the more romcom-y genre of fic either, and i'm not your guy for action scenes. but the only genre i consistently have to sit down and study at and work at is writing smut. it's getting better though!

[chainofclovers]

Put in the tags the completely finished (whether cancelled or wrapped up on its own terms) TV series that has YOUR perfect ending, however you define that

Please don’t include huge spoilers for the specifics of the endings, and it would also make me happy if people don’t use this to talk about the shows whose endings they hated

[lilyblisslys]

I should be able to tell my boss “hey the united states government is threatening to kill ‘radical transgender activists’, and while I think that’s partly a toothless threat made by floundering clowns it’s still kind of stressful and depressing, do you mind if I work from home after lunch”

[wizardarchetypes]

absolutely looosssinggg it. i'm so obsessed with movies which portray the woman MC in a highly specific job because the writers clearly think it's like "off-beat" and "quirky" but have no idea how the field works whatsoever.

i decided to try a romcom i somehow missed i the 2000s 'head over heels' and i got 3 and a half minutes in and we're introduced to the lonely MC with bad taste in men as evidenced by her extremely short list of ex boyfriends, including her first boyfriend when she was 11 or something because i guess that's still relevant in her adult life.

so she's resigned herself to never finding love and prefers to ignore men to focus all her energy into her career.

this job is immediately presented as though it's for spinsters with no hope of ever finding a man.

the mc's lesbian bestie (whose first line involves her being scolded for being too sexual in the workplace, but moving on) points out their colleagues as evidence that they're doomed to a romance-less, sexless life if they don't switch up their shared career path. the colleagues are three old women, so-dubbed "the menopause triplets":

these women are presented as if they have no idea what's going on at any given moment. this is 2001, and presumably this is an entry level job requiring low effort and no experience.

then their boss bursts into the room, unceremoniously bumping a large painting into the door jam and walls, announcing that it's a new project for our MC.

our MC is thrilled to see the painting. apparently it's a light in the daily slog at her dreary job for loser women with nothing going on in their lives.

And that job is? Conservator of paintings (specializing in Renaissance) at the New York City Metropolitan Museum of Art.

The painting being handled like an old couch on its way to the curb?

The Bacchanal of the Andrians by Titian.

Her lesbian colleague who is presumably also a a highly trained & skilled curator finds it depressing that the MC is so excited about the painting.

it's a quirk unique to this MC that she cares so much about paintings, in her department at the metropolitan museum of art, where her colleagues find all that art business rather dreary. because we all know that's what conservators in extremely competitive museum positions are like.

[wizardarchetypes]

I'm not saying there can't be lifelong love in here somewhere but I also just feel like the monogamous heterosexual marriage you're fantasizing about isn't necessarily best represented by the bacchanal. and that's okay. but i do stand by that.