WhatsUpInThere

muskytoe / loving love with a broken soul

[howtolietoyourself]

I wish I could forget everything that hurts to remember.

[howtolietoyourself]

Swimming pools

My eyes and my heart

And I'm learning swimming

Denying the fact

That my head's been under water

That,

Maybe I'm drowning?

[howtolietoyourself]

But at the end of the day we're going home alone.

[howtolietoyourself]

Why is it so damn hard to figure out sometimes what's actually making you sad?

[howtolietoyourself]

But what about the love, That wasn't love at all, butterflies which died right after knowing That the garden was taken, Memories of lost conversations, Which are still missed on occasions of lone and Sleepless nights, the assumptions that spark had been lit on the other side as well, The love letters sent dipped in the scent of normalcy to suppress the presumed doubts, The love that still lingers as dreams of remnants, The love that could last long, lf was allowed to be sown!"

Motionless - Disclosure

[howtolietoyourself]

"Miles to go, I know. Mind if I ask for you company along?"

-Stay With Me

[theprocast]

I’ve healed enough to accept and cope with the fact that you left. That healing has happened, I’ve moved past that. But you still affect me because I’m yet to heal in relation to how you left and the way you treated me in the process and the aftermath of that. I’m working on it right now and I know there will come a day when you will no longer affect me in any substantial way. I’m patient enough to wait for that day and I’m strong enough to get there.

[howtolietoyourself]

Watch me get there!

[howtolietoyourself]

I Love You Means

You always say to me in your sweetest voice, 'Let me tell you, Darling, what I LOVE YOU means!’ And it all seems to be so pleasing to my ears until it's not about the realities but just romantically imagined scenes, until we begin to tally the given's and taken's Racing about who's supposed to be over whom. I'm a woman, that's what you see. You're a human, That's what I see. So, let's turn the tables, And let me tell you, Darling, What I LOVE YOU doesn't mean. It was always gratifying to watch you stand behind me to cease my falls and the slipping, But you're a little too proud now to take a step back than me, so, I take it as usual. But know, An I LOVE YOU doesn't mean The dilution of my pride as a lover (or a woman), To take all the care of yours. Just like you and anyone else I'm fighting my own big wars, And yours, gifted to me, are uninvited. I have to hand you over my shields and stand unarmed, Cause' you didn't prepare to fight them yourself. Darling, remember, An I LOVE YOU doesn't mean The obligation to take over the pain and peril because you can't or don't wan't to Suffer. In the days of your Dark You'd burn me to light up your room. In the days of the stale, You'd ask me to turn up for you. But what if I or my body doesn't want to? Because, Honey, An I LOVE YOU doesn't mean The suppression of my consent To uplift your temperament. The colors of mt dresses unknowingly accord your relishes, My favorites; the blues, the grey's, the dark's are nowhere being closeted. I never like these fades on you, But does it really ever matter? Listen, An I LOVE YOU doesn't mean the molding of my only flavors To correspond to your savors. Now, think again, and look into my eyes and say What I LOVE YOU means. You're not at all supposed to be over me For i'm a woman and then a Lover. We're in this together, standing on the same starting line, Running to the same finishing one, Giving and taking equal amounts of pain and pleasure, Shielding each other's pride and consent by losing the tension in our own, Tasting the flavors of one another before imposing, For your I LOVE YOU means the world to me, But my I LOVE YOU doesn't and shouldn't mean I'm under you. Ever.

@kristensnotebook

@poems-and-word

[howtolietoyourself]

This is not who I am. My identity has been buried under some consistent feeling of having found perfection in everything but this is not what I was looking for. It doesn't make me excited anymore and I feel caged. The little bearable imperfections were the things I used to care about, I used to write about.Now  I don't feel anything strong enough to pull out the words from the core of my heart. The pain, the incompleteness, the longing, the hurt, the missing, the uneasiness, the lamenting, the heartache, Everything has ceased for a long time now. And I guess I should be happy about it. But, Honestly I'm not. I'm left with nothing, while I have Everything.

Everything Is Fine!

[howtolietoyourself]

"I'm unconsciously insecure of the times when you say Everything changes with Time."

- Insecurity

[thoughtkick]

“It’s a hell of a responsibility to be yourself. It’s much easier to be somebody else or nobody at all.”

— Sylvia Plath

[howtolietoyourself]

I would know this forever now!

[howtolietoyourself]

If you forgive them, Your heart will never be too heavy to carry.

Apologies Accepted

[writing-masterlists]

Synonyms For Very

This masterlist is a masterlist of words that you may use alongside the word very, very being one of the most common words that are used when writing. I hope this helps you as much as it helps me in our writing seem more sophisticated and unique. 

A:

Very accurate - exact Very afraid - fearful Very angry - furious Very annoying - exasperating

B:

Very bad - atrocious Very beautiful - exquisite Very big - immense Very boring - dull Very bright - luminous Very busy - swamped

C:

Very calm - serene Very careful - cautious Very cheap - stingy Very clean - spotless Very clear - obvious Very clever - intelligent Very cold - freezing Very colourful - vibrant Very competitive - cutthroat Very complete - comprehensive Very confused - perplexed Very conventional - conservative Very creative - innovative Very crowded - bustling Very cute - adorable

D:

Very dangerous - perilous Very dear - cherished Very deep - profound Very depressed - despondent Very detailed - meticulous Very different - disparate Very difficult - arduous Very dirty - filthy Very dry - arid Very dull - tedious

E:

Very eager - keen Very easy - effortless Very empty - desolate Very excited - thrilled Very exciting - exhilarating Very expensive - costly

F:

Very fancy - lavish Very fast - swift Very fat - obese Very friendly - amiable Very frightened - alarmed Very frightening - terrifying Very funny - hilarious

G:

Very glad - overjoyed Very good - excellent Very great - terrific

H:

Very happy - ecstatic Very hard - difficult Very hard-to-find - rare Very heavy - leaden Very high - soaring Very hot - sweltering Very huge - colossal Very hungry - ravenous Very hurt - battered

I:

Very important - crucial Very intelligent - brilliant Very interesting - captivating

J:

K:

L:

Very large - huge Very lazy - indolent Very little - tiny Very lively - vivacious Very long - extensive Very long-term - enduring Very loose - slack Very loud - thunderous Very loved - adored

M:

Very mean - cruel Very messy - slovenly

N:

Very neat - immaculate Very necessary - essential Very nervous - apprehensive Very nice - kind Very noisy - deafening

O:

Very often - frequently Very old - ancient Very old-fashioned - archaic Very open - transparent

P:

Very painful - excruciating Very pale - ashen Very perfect - flawless Very poor - destitute Very powerful - compelling Very pretty - beautiful

Q:

Very quick - rapid Very quiet - hushed

R:

Very rainy - pouring Very rich - wealthy

S:

Very sad - sorrowful Very scared - petrified Very scary - chilling Very serious - grave Very sharp - keen Very shiny - gleaming Very short - brief Very shy - timid Very simple - basic Very skinny - skeletal Very slow - sluggish Very small - petite Very smart - intelligent Very smelly - pungent Very smooth - sleek Very soft - downy Very sorry - apologetic Very special - exceptional Very strong - forceful Very stupid - idiotic Very sure - certain Very sweet - thoughtful

T:

Very talented - gifted Very tall - towering Very tasty - delicious Very thirsty - parched Very tight - constricting Very tiny - minuscule Very tired - exhausted

U:

Very ugly - hideous Very unhappy - miserable Very upset - distraught

V:

W:

Very warm - hot Very weak - frail Very well-to-do - wealthy Very wet - soaked Very wide - expansive Very willing - eager Very windy - blustery Very wise - sage Very worried - distressed

X:

Y:

Z:

A/N: If you know of anymore words I can add please message me.

[livingthatlibrarylifestyle]

This is very important ;)

[rychillacases]

Reblogging for future reference.

[howtolietoyourself]

Important!

[poetpastry]

Sometimes it just feels like I miss you a lot.

@poetpastry

[howtolietoyourself]

A lot more than I'd ever thought!

[purplebuddhaquotes]

Know this: you can start over each morning.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

Need to read this each morning.

[howtolietoyourself]

It’s 2 a.m. and you’re awake, talking to that one person beside you, about how your life has ever been, and how you came above everything and where you goofed up and felt so embarrassed. That one person who knows when you cry, how you laugh, how you sleep, what you hate, what you love, who know you more than yourself. That one person who has always been beside you, no matter what. That one person, needn't be your life partner, or your lover and you needn't be having this company forever but, Isn’t this beautiful in this moment. It’s like you found something so pure, like you made a discovery for yourself. I mean, That’s what you need. That’s what everyone needs and is waiting for, and You’ve got it. Right beside you.

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