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bbc ghosts sideblog (with occasional bill) • elliot • 20s • any pronouns • thomas-coded capvers fan • finale lover • minors can follow but please dni with my nsfw posts • main is @brightstrangeworld

[ihadtofindyou]

hi! i'm elliot!

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my capvers discord. all ages are welcome, with a few nsfw channels that only 18+ can access.

Check out the capvers club community on Discord - hang out with 28 other members and enjoy free voice and text chat.

my magnum opus, T-rated capvers angst, currently 6/12 chapters posted.

Not All Wars - Chapter 1 - brightstrangeworld - Ghosts (TV 2019) [Archive of Our Own]

my one text post per episode meme series.

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i'm not a fan of dni culture in general, as it's no one's job but my own to enforce my boundaries. that being said, if your bio says you're a minor and you interact with posts of mine that are overtly nsfw in nature, i will softblock you, or fully block for repeat offenses.

[chipper-smol]

Bear in mind?

how'd it get in there?

[rochenn]

Ghosts doodle bc I adore these dead old grumps

[peemil]

me sexting: if that is amenable to you

[zoologayy]

the boyfriend is Voltari, obvs 💅🏻

[eioebei]

anyone want to post a tutorial of how to ever get over carpe diem??

asking for a friend of course!

[ihadtofindyou]

[ihadtofindyou]

happy three year anniversary of pat spending so much of his life around children that he thought the announcement of another child entering the world soon was fake news. love the irony.

[chucklepea-hotpot]

*mary from ghosts voice* who be this cunt they be serving?

[ame-exe]

Just remembered back to the future came out in 1985. Pat really did miss everything

[blushingzephyr]

you know what really fucks me up about caps death scene? the way theres a huge crowd around him and havers.

the fact that the captain got to know that havers loved him back, that he knew that he loved him is truly fantastic and i’m glad that happened.

but their goodbyes were restrained by the eyes surrounding them. captains who they don’t know, who judge cap, who have no business seeing them like this. if they said too much, havers would be thrown in jail. like fuck, the looming presence of the crowd just out of focus. do you get it like im gonna be ill

[realismreading]

If you consider the scene in Cap’s office as well, which could be interpreted as Cap trying and failing to confess his feelings, they had privacy and Cap came close.

It’s possible he thought if he could just get Havers alone again, he could do it this time. But they get interrupted, and it’s the only chance the captain has.

Here they were, on their base, where they had the advantage of knowing the terrain well enough to find that space and privacy, and the other officers intrude. Intrude on their base, their privacy, and (figuratively) steal from them. They steal the authority and power the captain and Havers had as CO and second in command last time they were at the house together that would’ve granted them authority to remove themselves from the crowded space. And then th other officers’ intrusion, how quick other they are to close in and single cap out steals their confession from them.

Could you imagine the guilt? Of knowing that the last time you were in this building together, you had the space and opportunity to say something but were too scared to. The guilt of knowing the danger Cap could have put Havers in, when his only intention was to be honest

[spineless-lobster]

Oh my god okay so the was I see it, the captain using his title as a name is like a facade he puts up. He wants to be seen for his efforts in the war rather than the sensitive person he really is. He puts up a front of being a war hero because that’s what’s expected of him. “The Captain” isn’t really him, it’s hard for him to be his true self and open up etc etc. We all understand that, right? Good.

Throughout the redding weddy flashback we only ever see havers refer to cap as “sir” (a sign of respect, might I add) not once does he call him “captain” (“communique for you sir, I’m afraid I’m leaving you sir” you get the idea)

In carpe diem, even AFTER havers gets promoted to major (a rank above the captain) he still addresses him as “sir” this is likely and instinctual act, but I also like to see it as him dignifying the captain in front of everyone who is looking down on him. Then, as the captain is dying, he calls him by his name.

Not only does this mean that they were close enough to give each other their first names, but NOT ONCE does havers call him captain. Since the first time he’s on screen, havers looked through the facade and he found what was underneath. He sees the man behind the rank, and he loves him

[midwestingmyemo]

the final act of love is letting go.

[docs-and-guitars]

RIP Captain, you would’ve loved an autism diagnosis.

[ihadtofindyou]

it's starting to slow down but every couple days to a week i still see a new post like "OMG GHOSTS MOVIE HAS ANYONE ELSE HEARD ABOUT THIS??" my sweet summer child it was announced almost a month ago. now take your seat aboard the clowning train, we're glad you could join us

[bawdiestrhymester]

The Captain

Havers

[yourdarklordmelkor]

Ben is genuinely so evil for this expression after Cap makes Havers smile. like why is his face so full of wonder and joy and pride at making Havers happy, why does he look like he's just seen the stars for the first time, why does he look like he's just discovered magic, why does he look like he has come home after years of being away, why Ben, why is this moment so tender WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME WHY-

[realismreading]

So I’m thinking about Cap and Havers (unsurprisingly) and I had a Thought™️ about this moment from Carpe Diem:

This is just after Cap has told his death story. We now know what the swagger stick means to him

Instead of holding it low or tucked under his arm like it usually is, he holds it close and tight to his chest, turned in towards it. He holds it in a very similar position when he dies.

In what he thinks are his last moments for the second time, he chooses to “stays hows he dies”. Holding the only piece of Havers he was ever allowed to have the same way he did when they lost each other again. Holding it closer than he was ever able to hold Havers.

The Captain does not love Havers any less than the day he died. He keeps the swagger stick close, not just because he can’t part with it, but for comfort, and a reminder that in both sets of final moments, he was honest, he was brave, and he was cared for by the people that matter most to him.

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Someone may have already said this but I’ve been steadily less active for a long time, so im sorry if I’ve missed this Thought somewhere!